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Bids Me Waver by bryoneybrynn

Title: Bids Me Waver (Part 1) (Part 2)
Author: bryoneybrynn (fic journal)
Pairings: James/Albus (unrequited), Albus/Scorpius, James/OFC, James/OMC
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Angst
Warnings: Strong themes of incest, lots of swearing, angst like whoa, explicit sex, both het and slash; also a lot of grinning for such an angsty fic
Summary: And maybe, maybe, all of that was the reason that, when James stumbled upon Al and Scorpius kissing in a stairwell on quiet Tuesday afternoon, he watched, frozen, instead of turning around and leaving. What it didn’t explain, though, was why, weeks later, he couldn’t get the image of that kiss out of his head...
Word Count: 14,500

I'm not quite sure what to say-- I read this fic a couple of hours ago, and just can't get it out of my head. To the anonymous author: I am awestruck. Seriously, you are amazing.

Comments

Some of it speak to me very deaply

I have to deal with unrequited incestuous crush every day. The yearning that was described here was so similar to my feelings. I had wet eyes when I read it. The only thing that was so different form my situation was the shame - I don't feel it. I know that's not my fault that I don't find my sister sexually repulsive - it's just lack of certain chemistry. Because she's attractive the lack of repulsion has become something more. I know I can't act on my feelings but that's no different than having a crush on any other person that loves you but not in *that* way.
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