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Regulus Arcturus Black (te_regulus) wrote in hogwarts_dawn,
@ 2021-03-02 16:49:00

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character: regulus black, character: sirius black

RP: the Black brothers
Who: Sirius and Regulus
When: Tuesday 2nd March
Where: Where else? Hogwarts
What: They attempt the talking thing

Regulus was getting bored. Potter thought they were going fast, but maybe they would go faster if he didn't drink all the bloody time. The full moon seemed to have put everyone in stasis for no real reason. The truth was that no matter how 'fine' they were, they were trying to mentally deal with all the chances around them.

He thought that it was a little easier for him. He had been going to his death. He died. There was no history to reconcile with. There were no surprises to deal with. He certainly didn't feel guilty for what had happened in the future. All in all, he was in a much better shape than most people.

However with nothing to do, he had to amuse himself. There was only so much reading he could do before his eyes went wonky and his back complained so he decided to go for a walk. Outside, Scotland was still cold and he was a creature of comforts, so he walked indoors, the big windows providing more light and air than he needed. He reached the passageway on the second floor when he saw Sirius coming down from the other side. "Alone? I thought you weren't allowed to go anywhere without the other musketeers."

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te_regulus
2021-03-04 05:41 pm UTC (link)

"Oh for Merlin's sake, how do you hear what I say and come to the conclusion that I'm asking you to forgive them? How? Do you even understand English? I said that you need to move past that hatred to see the good in what purebloods do. I'm talking real traditions, you single minded idiot."

Regulus couldn't believe that he had to explain these things to his brother. His older brother. "Things like the Parent's Dream. Granted our parents never did one for us but it's something parents magically create to dispel their children's nightmares. The making of special protection charms under the moon on the solstice. The good luck spells at the beginning of the ball season. Those are the real traditions, Sirius. Those are the ones we need to pass on, but the moment you hear purebloods you think about our parents and you stop making any sense. So no, I'm not asking you to forgive them. I'm asking you to stop giving them power over you, because as much as you like to pretend, they still controlled you even after you left."

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_withoutacause
2021-03-04 05:50 pm UTC (link)

Sirius forced himself to take a deep breath and let go of some of the anger. It was so easy to fly off the handle, and Sirius had been trying to keep a tether kn that, trying to be better than he had been. It wasn't working very well. Baby steps, and all that.

"Right. Sorry. Right." He sighed. He'd definitely need to go running as Padfoot later, if only to clear his head.

"The Parent Dream really is brilliant. James told me about his. Those things, they're worth keeping. They are. Not that I can teach them. Maybe you'll have better luck." He sighed again. He'd been doing that a lot lately. "I know I have blinders Reg. I get that. And trust me, I am very aware of how much the still did, still fucking do control me. I bloody hate it. I hate that just thinking about them can make me..." he trailed off and waved his hands vaguely in the air.

"Tell you what. You want to pass on the good stuff, I'll help you. Much as I can. Can't promise I'll be any good at it, but I'll try. James would be good at that too, he actually got to experience some of the good stuff."

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te_regulus
2021-03-04 06:37 pm UTC (link)

"We know plenty. You know plenty. Beneath all that anger you have, there are plenty of good things that you know things you can share," Regulus said a lot more calmly. "None of that means that I want you to forgive them, but I would like for you to make peace with our past, because it doesn't hurt them. They are dead and gone. It just hurts you. It will be even worse in the future if they came back, because if you don't accept what happened, they will use it against you."

Regulus nodded. "That's a good compromise because I know that you know more than you think you do." He smiled at Sirius. "You know what you can do. Every night, write one good thing about purebloods, whether it's something you remember from our grandparents or from your friends. It doesn't matter. Maybe that will help."

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_withoutacause
2021-03-04 06:51 pm UTC (link)

"Maybe," Sirius agreed grudgingly. His brother was right, there was a lot about magic that Sirius loved. He'd always just been instinctively good at it, and while he didn't want to admit it he knew a lot of that came from growing up like they had. He'd spent so much of his life running away from it, trying to be as muggle as he could to piss off his mother. It had worked. Too well. But he would always rather have her hurt him for something he did, rather than for something he just was. It as a fucked up kind of coping mechanism. Maybe it was time to let it go.

"When did you get smart?" He asked, smiling fondly at his little brother. "I'll try that. I can't think of anything off the top of my head, but I'll try."

He rubbed at the back of his neck and grinned ruefully.

"Peace is a weird idea. I don't think I know what that's like. Even at school, when things were actually good, I couldn't ever really... Nevermind. You don't need to listen to me whine anymore. Are you fully frozen yet? Or do you want to keep walking?"

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te_regulus
2021-03-04 08:04 pm UTC (link)

"I've always been smart," he answered, haughtily. "I've always known plenty of magic that people double my age didn't know how to cast. That doesn't apply anymore, because the only one double my age is Severus and I'm pretty sure that he knew more than me even when we were the same again." that was still strange even if talking to Severus hadn't been strange at all. In fact, it had felt normal and familiar.

"I know! Imagine that. And you don't need to whine. I know that they were still a part of your life even after you left." He grinned. "Come on, let's get back inside."

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