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Regulus Arcturus Black (te_regulus) wrote in hogwarts_dawn,
@ 2021-04-18 09:39:00

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character: regulus black, character: remus lupin

RP: Regulus/Remus
Who: Regulus/Remus
When: Morning, 18 April
Where: Slytherin dormitory
What: Regulus needs to talk to Remus

Regulus had avoided Remus. It wasn't something easy with a population of two dozens, but he'd done an amazing job, eating in his rooms and working most of the day. He just needed time to himself to deal with what had transpired on Wednesday night, to understand the things that he had said and done. He probably would need more than a few days, but he owed Remus and explanation.

He sent a message asking Remus to come to the dormitory. Rules dictated that he go and see Remus for an apology, but there was no way that he would have this discussion in the Gryffindor tower, with Sirius and Potter around.

He was anxious when he heard the knock. Kreacher opened the door and let Remus in. The Slytherin common room was much the same, but the table had been made bigger with more chairs. He didn't know why since he didn't entertain, but Kreacher insisted that it was proper to have a dining room table.

"Good morning. I have prepared brunch for us," he said, gesturing toward the table. "And by me, I do mean Kreacher, so there's no fear of being poisoned by my non existent attempts at cooking."

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slowburn_alpha
2021-04-18 02:10 am UTC (link)

"Didn't want it to happen that way," Remus corrected quietly, giving up on the meal before it had really even started because despite his own bouts of low self-esteem, he couldn't let Regulus think not wanting him was the problem.

Not wanting Regulus was so far from the problem.

He'd spent far too much time thinking about Regulus, too many mornings waking up still thinking he should be there before he remembered that it had all been because of that the castle had done. Despite the fact he'd been totally honest with Peter about not seeing Regulus, he couldn't get the younger Black brother off his mind all the same. Regulus had been clear that the emotions weren't theirs, that he didn't want Remus to kiss him. And Remus had respected that. But, it didn't mean he didn't still want to, memories restored properly or not.

But, he didn't bother explaining any of that.

He might be slow and careful, but Remus Lupin wasn't a stupid man. While he hadn't expected Regulus to actually do it, to ask Remus to kiss him while sober, Remus wasn't stupid or chivalrous enough to say no when it happened. Cupping Regulus' face with both hands, he did as he was asked, lips meeting Regulus' in a kiss that held all that pent up frustration and every other emotion Remus hadn't dared classify.

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te_regulus
2021-04-18 02:25 am UTC (link)

Regulus had expected words, arguments, reasons why it was wrong, because apparently Remus could be as stubborn as most Gryffindor, but he was also smarter, because none of that happened and instead they were kissing at the dinner table, with a plate of fry-up in front of them, at Hogwarts, in the future and it was all so surreal that Regulus smiled into the kiss.

One arm behind Remus' neck, he slid even closer, all too reminiscent of the night at the Styx, but this time Remus wasn't stopping him at last not until breathing became necessary, and it was Regulus who pulled back first. "I hope you aren't under the impression that I want to kiss Potter like this, because I'd have to reconsider my estimate of your intelligence," he said with a tiny smile.

He pulled back, growing serious again. "I might be uncomfortable with being with a man in public. I do wonder what my brother will say, but at no time I mixed his friends and which one I was interested in. Everything I said at the Styx was about me, you and a lot of alcohol, especially the alcohol since I would have never admitted any of that without it, and that was why I was avoiding you. I needed to figure all of this out in my head before I spoke to you."

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slowburn_alpha
2021-04-18 02:56 am UTC (link)

"Well, since you already question my intelligence over my choice of friends, I'll pass on giving you any further cause to lower that estimation," Remus teased, leaning in to nip lightly at Regulus' lower lip before sitting back as well.

With a quiet sigh, he reached for Regulus' hand. "I never thought you wanted James. I just didn't think you wanted me. You said that morning the emotions were hers, anything you felt for me was based on a lie. That you might do things as a result that could be misunderstood. Not to kiss you because kissing would mean more than friendship. Less than a week later, when you were drunk, I didn't think I had any reason to believe it was anything more than residual feelings from thinking we were married for a week and alcohol talking."

He smiled softly. "And, in case it wasn't clear, the problem wasn't you kissing me or having your hands on me. It was how much I wanted more of it while thinking you were only doing it because of the punch and vague familiarity."

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te_regulus
2021-04-18 03:11 am UTC (link)

Regulus nodded. "Well yes, I also said at the start it was all her. I'm also not pretending that you are the greatest love of my life and I couldn't live without you. The sex was definitely us," he said, because that was worth mentioning. "And yes, it wouldn't have happened without her memories. In case you hadn't paid attention, I don't trust people easily. I probably wouldn't have said anything to you if I hadn't gotten drunk either."

He smiled back. "I'm glad that I didn't make a complete fool of myself. I had other apologies ready if I had overstepped. I'm glad I didn't."

He leaned in for another kiss. "You can have more of it now, because I do like you. I liked you before the memories. I wouldn't have spent that much time with you if I didn't. In case it wasn't obvious, I don't really speak to a lot of people for pleasure. Maybe without the memories it would have happened very slowly or not at all, I don't know since life is fickle at best, but I want to see where this can go. I'm... not really sure how it even happens. I don't have the experience. Arranged marriages are not exactly the road map for this. I do know that I want to keep talking to you, I want to make out, I want to have lots of sex. I want to learn to dance when the world isn't spinning. I want to learn what you like and don't like. I want to hear about your travels and the things that make you happy as well as those that make you sad. And since you seem to have problem getting it, I want to have lots of sex," he finished with a grin.

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slowburn_alpha
2021-04-18 05:32 am UTC (link)

"I'd have to be very concerned for your mental well-being if you made that sort of assertion after only two months." Remus couldn't help chuckling at Regulus' assertion on the sex being them. "Oh, I've paid attention." He'd paid a lot of attention, more than friendship might have required, if he was honest. "Remember, I was the one saying all of that as the reason why, even though I thought there was a chance we'd have ended up here anyway, it would have taken a long time."

He chuckled again. "No apologies required. No overstepping," he confirmed. "I knew you'd be embarrassed by the display once you sobered up, that was the only reason I was so insistent about moving to a table where you wouldn't be the centre of attention."

While Regulus spoke, Remus brushed his thumb across the back of the other man's hand. "Harry asked about us when we went to Hogwarts, surprised we got along so well. My friends all seem surprised. But, I like you, too. I enjoy our conversations...and the sex," he added with a wink and a grin. "And I'd really like to do all of that with you. This is one area where I don't have the experience, either." Remus had never really dated. He'd had sex, but never an actual relationship or even an attempt at one. "But, I do want to go on a date with you. Our options are a bit limited but we could go flying over the forest, have a picnic by the lake now the weather's getting warmer, something. You said you might be uncomfortable being with a man in public, is there anything I can do to make it easier for you?" Raising their joined hands, he pressed feather light kisses to Regulus' knuckles. "Other than having lots of sex not in public?"

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