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_rebelrebel (_rebelrebel) wrote in flippedrpg,
@ 2013-06-25 22:14:00

Entry tags:

ch: knap: remus lupin, ch: knap: sirius black, p: emmy, p: veetee

Who: Sirius and Remus^Knap
What: Early morning cuddles
When: Tuesday morning
Where: Remus' room
Warnings: None

He hadn't expected it to turn into more than one night. But it had, because some part of Sirius was afraid that if he wasn't as close to Remus as humanly possible, Remus was going to slip out of his grasp. And the truth of the matter was that he could only sleep when he was pressed against Remus; it was the only time he felt safe anymore, when all the hurt of everything that had happened receded into a manageable ache.

He didn't know what he was suppose to do that, now that he had lost the Remus who had been here when he had arrived; his James; Sirilla. It took everything in him not to simply start stalking Lily as well. He was convinced that one of the two of them was going to disappear at any moment.

In the morning, there were usually a few minutes when he actually was fine -- when everything he was trying to forget was actually gone. Sirius blinked sleepily from where he was still plastered across Remus' side, even though it was really a little too warm to be this close. His hair was in his face and he peered at the window, where sunlight was streaming in and then resolutely ignored it. He buried his face a little more against Remus' shoulder, one of his arms still thrown across Remus' chest. He was quiet as he listened to Moony breathe.

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suavemoony
2013-07-04 04:18 am UTC (link)

"Not necessarily used to being alone," was all he said in response, as it was true. Sure, on occasion he and James would part for a few weeks to look into two leads simultaneously, but this was incredibly rare. And in those instances, nearly always, Remus made sure he had company at night to keep himself from feeling like he was alone. He didn't like to be and it was that simple.

"But, if you want space, that's fine. You do what you want," he added to the tail end of his words, shifting to sit up himself, and adding to the gesture, his legs swung over the bed to make a go at standing. He suddenly felt as if staying in the bed was a bad idea but the movement also felt like one, in retrospect, but he couldn't just stop midway.

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_rebelrebel
2013-07-06 03:26 am UTC (link)

He had taken another misstep. He didn't know exactly what was happening, but it was clear from Remus' tone of voice, from the way he wouldn't look at him, the way he was turned away -- something was wrong. And Sirius couldn't stand it, the way how the man next to him could so easily flip from his Remus into some strange he didn't know and he didn't know how to deal with.

"Remus," he said, his voice turning a bit too sharp. It was nearly a command. He moved across the bed when Remus shifted, and he didn't even know if he was reaching for Remus or not. He didn't know if it was the right thing to do. "Stop shutting me out," his voice carried the same edge.

His gaze remained fixated on Remus' back, willing him to turn around and look at him again, He didn't let his hands connect with Moony -- not just yet.

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