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Remus Lupin is a badass. (crescered) wrote in flippedrpg,
@ 2012-09-23 18:23:00

Entry tags:

ch: div: remus lupin, ch: squib: sirius black, p: lisa ii, p: silyara

Who: Remus Lupin^div & Sirius Black^baby
What: Talking. Remus is bringing tea.
Where: Sirius' room
When: Sunday afternoon/evening
Warnings: "Fan required" - Sil

It took Remus longer than he anticipated because he stopped to make tea. Since it would have been rude to show up at someone's door with your own tea and none to offer, he then had to make two cups. He then carried them to Sirius' room and tapped on the door with the toe of his boots. Sure, he could have used several spells to make the whole process easier, but he really didn't care. Especially not now with his mind distracted as it was. His earlier conversation with Theodora had his thoughts going in plenty of directions.

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doggingdoes
2012-09-24 05:12 pm UTC (link)

Sirius's head nodded, just a couple times and just slowly. But neither of those were really just. It was a modicum of self-control, which he actually had plenty of when he tried. It kept him calm, and it kept him sitting there with a bit of patience. It was always about two people, and Remus was as important in it as Sirius. He was, easily, capable of holding a relationship up on his shoulders, but that wasn't the best founding for one. And it wasn't best for him, if it took that to work. Not that Sirius thought that was what it was. No, he simply had all sorts of worried thoughts passing back and forth while he stayed calm and patient. Because really? Sirius rarely liked being patient, even though he had gotten damn good at it.

Holding Remus's hand strongly, without clutching it like a lifeline, Sirius didn't know what to make of the apology. If it were an apology for getting this whole thing started, which a tiny corner of Sirius's mind worried about, he didn't want it. And if it weren't, well, Sirius had to know what it was about. The hope and confidence Sirius applied every time he knew he liked someone was there, battling back the uncertainty of the situation, of their situation. Remus's concern wasn't one Sirius had ever acted on. Having met and lost his children, some of them more than once, he knew the pain, but that never stopped Sirius from getting close to anyone.

"That can happen anywhere," Sirius replied, "Here, back home. The manner someone can be ripped away is different. But I don't believe that's a reason to keep people out." Sirius paused, knowing the way he saw things was differently than Remus's usually did, than this one certainly did. His mind instantly brought up the relationship between Sirilla and color Remus, between color Sirius and party Remus (actually, that Sirius had aged, were they still together?). And yes, it was precarious, perhaps more so than in the worlds they came from. Merlin knew that he and Moony, the one before him, were two of the ones not in wars, so maybe it was less likely. But life had its way of doing whatever. And Sirius still threw his heart out every time. Eventually, it was going to do him some good.

"That's ... you have to decide that for yourself," Sirius added. He'd practically pushed himself on Oscar, in hindsight, and he wasn't about to do that again. Offering himself was different, but Remus had the free choice to do as he decided. Sirius just tried to keep on breathing, knowing he wasn't likely to get an answer that night. Nothing was going to happen, if he stopped breathing.

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crescered
2012-09-24 09:36 pm UTC (link)

"True," Remus said, and it was. In other worlds, James and Lily were killed in one night. Sure, there was some anticipation of danger, but he imagined that his other selves didn't exactly expect his best friends to be gone like that. Anyone could leave in several different manners. Sirius took that as a reason to not hold back while it gave Remus every reason to hold back. He wasn't used to this, had never been through a war like the others, and that gave him a much different perspective. Maybe going through that would make him less hesitant. He wasn't sure.

There was no question for Remus, in his mind, to answer. Nothing had been posed out loud. He wasn't even sure where to take it or what to say. But when he looked up again, he wrapped his hand around the back of Sirius' and slid it down his arm, fingers trailing over the skin as he took hold of the entire limb. "I think it's too late for me to give up on you - this, us, entirely anyway." It was half joking and mostly true at the same time. But it definitely wasn't a bad thing. At least, he didn't think of it that way, despite his concerns.

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doggingdoes
2012-09-24 09:51 pm UTC (link)

Sitting cross-legged on the couch with one of his best mates wasn't supposed to be so hard. He knew Remuses sometimes had that thing they did where they had to take particularly more time to think on things. Sure, some time was needed alone with thoughts. Sirius knew he needed some of that himself. But the direction it went, whether he'd consider going for it, that was all settled. He had already pursued one person not from his world while here, and sure that wasn't ever going to happen, but that didn't make it true about Remus. Unless Remus decided so. That was the root of it, really. And Sirius was neither ready to hear an answer on that nor expected Remus to entirely have one.

Still, his body leaned in a little more, pulled in by the way Remus moved. Sirius smiled at the statement, taking it as a positive sign but nothing binding. "I don't support giving up," Sirius replied, smiling to himself a bit. "I expect we'll have to get our thinking faces on," he added. It was true for both of them. Sirius never liked running into things half-cocked. It just didn't take him very long to make up his mind once he went about it. He leaned into Remus, turning a little, so he could rest his head on Moony's shoulder. "I like your thinking face."

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