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remus lupin is not a pawn (atamewerewolf) wrote in flippedrpg,
@ 2012-08-05 15:10:00

Entry tags:

ch: blood: remus lupin, ch: can: remus lupin, ch: knap: remus lupin, p: emmy, p: rachael, p: serena

Who: Remus³ (Colour, Knap, Blood)
What: Colour!Teddy is gone. So. Reaction from the Three Remus' who lived with him.
When: well, it's before party!Remus' entry, at least.
Where: Remus³ Unit
Warnings: Anger, Angst, Emotion, etc

For an unregistered amount of time, Remus had simply stared at the name plate of his Unit with no movement or expression. His eyes had been fixated upon the names. Remus Lupin, Remus Lupin, and Remus Lupin. The fourth name, Teddy Lupin, had been simply wiped away just as the fifth name, Nymphadora Tonks, had been prior to the venture to New York City. For a very long time, he remained still, as if trying to process it all. And then he turned, without a word, making his way down the hallway and casting a glance at every single name plate; as if hoping perhaps they had moved Teddy from his Unit. It would have upset him and he would have demanded an explanation; but at least it was better then the other explanation that was sending dread through his body.

Once he realized the boy was no longer in Zeta, he had practically run through the rest of the Compound, until every single name plate had been read. He had stared at the last plate in the Pie Block for even longer; with his vision becoming blurry.

They had taken him.

The one thing Remus had begged for in his writing was that they not take anyone else away. They were constantly taking people away and had been since his arrival. But this...this was the worst of it all; so far. James had returned to him and deep down in his soul he had known James was always going to return. But here... Teddy may return. But Teddy would never remember him. Not if he returned from any fraction of a second further in his time line. They only way he'd remember was if he came from earlier in the venture to 8700. But even then...they weren't as close there. Not as close as they had grown in the compound. He had become the boy's father primarily in the walls of the compound.

His little boy was gone.

Stepping into the Unit with a dazed expression, Remus barely registered that he was not alone. His eyes were cast down and as he walked, he stepped on a toy, sucking in a deep breath of pain. His foot lifted and he stared upon it for a few moments. One of Teddy's Christmas presents.

Teddy had just been there with them the night before; playing and laughing. He had fallen asleep on the couch. Staring upon the toy, he bent down, picking it up, and holding it up to his level of eye sight. For a few fleeting seconds, he just stared, his vision still blurry.

Then, however, the toy got chucked across the room. He didn't aim for anything in particular and he didn't seem to care when it smashed into a lamp. A howlish scream ripped from him as he rushed forward, hands gripping at the coffee table from underneath, promptly flipping it in anger.

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thumbtwiddler
2012-08-05 08:00 pm UTC (link)

Ever since Nymphadora had disappeared weeks ago Remus had been laying low, working on picking up the pieces of his time in the Compound. Even though they had constantly told each other that they couldn’t promise more than the present moment, but her removal had come as a blow to him. He had been around, playing his part out as per the Scientists’ instructions, but he had withdrawn into himself.

He ran a hand through his curly mop of hair, eyes darting to his journal sitting abandoned on his nightstand. He knew he should get out and see Sirius, make sure Lily wasn’t going to strangle James, but he couldn’t bring himself to put forth the effort. They were all going to disappear at some point, right? Learned helplessness; that’s what the book had called it. Knowing something was wrong but refusing to get up and do something about it.

He started when he heard the door to the Unit open and then close. He heaved himself up off the bed, curiosity getting the better of him. He ducked his head around in time to see the elder Remus hurl a toy across the room, not even flinching when it hit the lamp. He simply blinked when Remus let out a howl, but the hair on the back of his neck betrayed him and stood on end at the unearthly, primitive howl that echoed in the room.

“Ripping a pillow always helped me,” Remus intoned, words flat as his eyes darted towards the couch. He squinted for a moment as if trying to dredge up something from the depths of his mind, before the clouds cleared from his navy blue eyes when he noticed the faint impression – no bigger than a child – still left in the cushion. Just like his mother's disappearance, Teddy had left without preamble, without a warning. “He’s gone too.”

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blupin
2012-08-05 09:13 pm UTC (link)

Time lost all meaning when Teddy disappeared. Remus had exhausted himself by looking everywhere for his son, but he knew with absolute certainty that he was gone the minute he had seen his name missing from their room. Sirilla had been there for a while, but Remus had become nonresponsive. Not only had he lost his son, he insulted his son too, by implying however unintentionally that by Teddy being gone, the other ones weren't there. Remus loved them all, but surely he was allowed to grieve Teddy being gone?

Remus was lying on the ground. He wasn't sure when he took up his place there, but he didn't feel like moving. Remus didn't feel like doing much of anything, really. His ocelot had snuffled at his ear, but when Remus hadn't responded, his cat wandered off. Teddy's little bear clambered over to him and tucked himself into the grove of Remus's stomach, where he promptly fell asleep. Remus might have slept, but waking up to discover Teddy was gone all over again would be a pain that he wasn't sure he could handle. He didn't even flinch when Remus howled. Dimly, he thought it might feel good to howl, too.

Remus heaved a sigh and pulled the little bear closer. He buried his face in his fur, and his grief addled mind thought it smelled of Teddy. In the privacy of the bear's fur, Remus let himself cry.

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atamewerewolf
2012-08-05 09:49 pm UTC (link)

Standing there where the table had once been, he didn't look as though it had been enough. He wanted to lung forward and rip at the shelves, to destroy everything that had made this Unit feel like a second home. But he came to a stop when he heard one of his brothers speak up. Eyes turned towards Rem and he noted the advise, but he couldn't bring himself to smile. Instead, he just looked at him with teary eyes, nodding in reply to the notion that he was indeed gone.

His hands fell to his sides and slowly he made his way to sit down in one of the chairs. He remained silent for awhile before he finally leaned back, shutting his eyes.

"Is Bear here?" He knew the bear cub was still there, he could smell him and hear Remus' muffled cries against his fur, but he didn't know about the dog. The smell was lingering and it made it difficult to tell.

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thumbtwiddler
2012-08-05 10:59 pm UTC (link)

As it so often was in the Compound, Remus Lupin was caught in the middle. He heard the muffled cries coming from his prone namesake on one side, a sharp contrast to the swimming eyes and silence of his brother sitting in front of him.

He wasn't just physically caught in the middle. He didn't have a claim on the boy like the other two did. One had acted as his father, raising him here and where they had been before, while the other had sired him. It wasn't his DNA or his teachings that swirled through Teddy Lupin; all he had done was been a friend and had started to love his mother.

He wavered for a moment, unsure what to do about the missing boy, before clearing his throat. "Bear's not here," he said, shaking his head and perching on the arm of the chair closet to him, ignoring the groan of protest. "He's gone back with Teddy." He added the bit as an afterthought, as if convincing himself that Teddy wouldn't be alone.

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