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Theodore Nott (nottfinished) wrote in finnigans_rpg,
@ 2015-08-01 15:38:00

Current mood:	guilty
Entry tags:	journal: battlescars, journal: seamus, journal: theodore, journal: tristan

Battlescars Journal: Anonymous
When will we finally be punished?

If nightmares are my punishment then should I even try to stop them?

Some people lost their lives, their whole families, watched their houses burned and their children mutilated in front of them while all I do is struggle to sleep at night?

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openbottle
2015-08-04 08:19 am UTC (link)

Then you probably don't. If you feel that way, you probably regret what you did - you either didn't want to do it or you've since realised it was wrong and you wouldn't do it again.

The people who really deserve it are the people who destroyed lives and families just for fun, because they thought they were above our laws and morals. Those people would do it again, if they knew they wouldn't be caught, and they don't feel like they deserve punishment.

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	Anonymous Comment nottfinished 2015-08-04 09:23 pm UTC (link)
	I feel like I need it. What if you ~~could have~~ should have stopped those people, but didn't. Could have tried harder. What if you were a coward and people died because of it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

openbottle
2015-08-05 07:05 am UTC (link)

[Added some time later]

Would you being punished change anything? It wouldn't bring back those who died, so the only thing it could change is you. Would you act or think differently if you were punished? Do you think it would take away the guilt?

We all did things we regret, and made choices we wish we could go back and change. It was a war - not the best decision making circumstances. Even something as small as going left or right changed the battle, could have meant different people died or lived. ~~I was, and they did, do I deserve~~

Could anyone have stopped the war earlier, except Voldemort?

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	Anonymous Comment nottfinished 2015-08-05 10:56 pm UTC (link)
	No, you're right. I don't know. It would restore some kind of cosmic balance that I don't really believe in? I feel like I should be hurting more than I am now. It doesn't feel right that I'm not. Is it worse to do bad because you believe you're doing the right thing or to do nothing and let what you know is bad happen? I'm sorry. It just doesn't feel like enough. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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