Journal: to Mel & Mari [Warded to Melinda & Marietta] -- Girls... I'm sort of freaking out. I hadn't been, but then last night I hosted a wedding rehearsal dinner and the Bride & Groom's speeches were so beautiful and I was in the back and I just... Merlin. I've been a wreck ever since and just started crying and what am I doing? It's, like, 8 in the morning. Fin maybe sort of might be falling for me and I just don't know what to do. I'm devastated.