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Ron Weasley (pawnography) wrote in finnigans_rpg,
@ 2015-03-08 21:57:00

Entry tags:

character: hermione granger, character: ron weasley, status: complete

RP: Communication
Who: Ron Weasley, Hermione Granger
What: Walking, talking.
Where: The Burrow (and surrounding area)
When: Sunday afternoon
Rating: SFW

Twenty-five didn't really feel any different to twenty-four. Or any different at all, really. To tell the truth, Ron had felt older than that for a while.

But he was never too old to read any of his Martin Miggs comics, which is what he was doing now, sprawled out on his bed and contemplating sneaking downstairs for a second helping of sticky toffee pudding. Finishing one issue, he slipped it back into its protective cover and fished out the next from the storage box; this was one of his favourite storylines and he was regretting that it had been so long since he had reread it.

"Ronald!" Hearing his mother holler his name up the stairs, Ron tried to sit up but only succeeded in half falling off the bed. "Yeah?" he yelled, struggling to get himself upright.

"Hermione's here to see you." Molly Weasley managed to convey something in her tone that suggested she didn't like the idea of Hermione going up to Ron's bedroom alone, even if they were both in their mid-twenties.

Ron tossed his comic aside, then regretted it a second later. "I'll be right down!" he shouted, grabbing the magazine to put it away properly.

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	pawnography 2015-04-07 01:15 pm UTC (link)
	"Pay more attention to someone I don't see very often because we're both adults with separate lives?" He saw some of his brothers less than he saw Luna, in all honesty. Ron frowned, his expression hardening a bit. "I meant... future family. Never mind. I get it. You have other priorities." He shook his head. "Forget I said anything." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

weasley_now
2015-04-07 03:01 pm UTC (link)

Hermione didn't like the turn this conversation was taking. She had come to Ron because she had been feeling isolated. There was nothing more she needed right now than to be validated and supported. She hadn't said a word about how he'd just up changed jobs, how she felt that they were in a comfortable rut. Did Ron even really want her anymore or was she just what he'd become used to? After all, he had just pointed out that they were all adults now.

"That's it isn't it? We all have separate lives. Decisions are made that make us happy as individuals without any care for how they may effect the others around us. We're all working toward something while achieving nothing." That wasn't true, she'd made some great strides in her work but as far as interpersonal relationships were going she'd felt trapped lately.

Unlacing her fingers from his she crossed her arms and stopped in her tracks. "If there's something you need to tell me Ronald than you should do so. Not that I have any say in whatever you choose to do with your life. It seems that you're the one who changed priorities." He had made that quite obvious when he'd informed her of his decision without so much as more than a cursory discussion that had let her know he was debating leaving his position. He hadn't even given her the courtesy of the knowledge before hand so she could process it.

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pawnography
2015-04-07 06:21 pm UTC (link)

Ron raised his eyebrows. "Bloody hell," he murmured. He threw his hands up, but there didn't seem to be any sort of gesture that was capable of expressing his frustration. "You mean when I changed my priorities to being happy and being able to spend more time with the people I love? That change of priorities?"

He shoved his hands into his pockets, knuckles white. "Alright, fine. I feel like I hardly see you. I was signed off work with stress for two fucking months and still didn't see you any more than I did when I was working Auror hours. Every time I suggest spending time together, you shoot me down. I didn't like how relieved I felt when my girlfriend actually wanted to be with me on my birthday last week."

The anger in his voice died, Ron sighing and looking skyward. "I don't want to be a bookmark, Hermione." He swallowed. "Something you come back to when it's convenient."

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weasley_now
2015-04-07 06:46 pm UTC (link)

"The change in priorities that you made unilaterally. You chose to allow the stress to over come you. You, Ronald have kept yourself closed off. Only once YOU decided what was best did I to even know what was going on." There she'd said it and there was no taking it back down. She turned her back to him so she could fight back the tears.

"We were supposed to be in this, whatever it is, together," she said softly a tear escaping down her face that she refused to wipe. It was one thing to cry earlier because of the situation surrounding them with others but she wasn't going let him have the satisfaction of making her cry.

When she felt certain she could hold the remainder back she turned again to face him. "At least I've done what I set out to do. I've told you the importance of this job and how it's a stepping stone to learn all the law I need to so I can make a real difference." She shook her head and looked down at the ground to compose her thoughts.

"You aren't a bookmark. If anything you're more like the second edition of Monster Book of Monsters. Every time I try to get close you growl or bite. You chose to be at the Burrow and I get it. You're family has always come first. That's never been a question for me. Yet you can't accept my reasoning when I explain it to you. I don't want to go away for a whirlwind weekend and rather than try to understand you pout. If I'm going to escape I want to be able to fully relax and trying to squeeze a trip in would make me feel like I'm running. I've had enough running."

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pawnography
2015-04-07 07:32 pm UTC (link)

"Chose?" Ron spluttered. "Closed off? I told you months ago that I was unhappy. And I spent the months between then and handing in my notice talking to Mind Healers until the scars on my arms hurt. No, I'm not going to let you call me closed off."

Under his freckles, his complexion was growing redder. "I didn't choose to be at the Burrow to be with family. I'm there to save money for a house. A fucking future." Instead of frittering it away on rent in an extremely expensive city. By now he could build his own house now if he wanted. Or buy one. But that wasn't a decision he ever intended to make by himself.

"I don't want a whirlwind weekend, I just want a weekend. And it's not like you're going to take a whole week off, is it? I want to spend the rest of my life with you, but I can't even get two days."

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weasley_now
2015-04-07 08:37 pm UTC (link)

Hermione could see that her words hit Ron hard. Still he needed to know how she felt about it all. "But you didn't talk to me. You never asked how I felt about any of it. Most importantly you wouldn't let me help." That was why she was really mad. She knew Ron was going thing things internally that she couldn't help him with. No amount of studying or logic could sort through whatever he had seen on the job without her. At least before they'd experienced the hell together so they knew the demons the other held.

She was going to go on about how it was a choice. She'd had no choice in the matter. Had she gone home there would have been an even larger portion of her life where she couldn't use magic. Then Ron's word stopped her in her tracks. Did he just.... no. But was he going to? Was that why he was so upset that they'd not carved out specific time?

"I never said you couldn't have my time. I just don't want to travel to the continent and back over the course of one weekend." She preferred to take the time to enjoy travel. In fact she desperately missed her summer week away.

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pawnography
2015-04-07 09:33 pm UTC (link)

"Because I didn't want to spend all our time together crying on you!" Ron ground out, his eyes feeling hot even now. "You were my escape from the mess my head was in. Supposed to be anyway."

The fight was draining from him visibly. That was the worst thing he'd discovered seeing the Ministry's Healers: spilling out feelings like this was tiring in a way Ron had never thought possible. "It doesn't even have to be out of the country. I just want to spend time with you, Hermione. I can't tell you things if you're always at the office."

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weasley_now
2015-04-08 04:08 am UTC (link)

"I don't want to be your escape," she said honestly beginning to close the gap she'd put between them. "I want to know it all. The worst and the best. That's how it's supposed to be."

"Then plan a day for us to do something, just the two of us. I'll even let you check my bag before we go to make sure I'm not sneaking any work along." She reached down and took his hand again.

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pawnography
2015-04-12 04:23 pm UTC (link)

"And I'm still learning how to share that stuff." He'd spent at least one session getting twisted up into his family history and self-esteem, the older brothers who excelled at whatever they put their minds to before he could even make his mark on the world.

Ron sighed and leant forward, his forehead resting against hers. "You're probably joking, but I'm going to hold you to that," he said softly.

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