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Tweak says, "I'm in a love triangle!"

friendlyjustin (friendlyjustin) wrote in finnigans_rpg,
@ 2014-11-10 12:54:00

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character: ernie macmillan, character: justin finch-fletchley

Justin and Ernie..
WHO: Justin and Ernie
WHEN: Monday night
WHERE: Ernie's flat
WHAT: Justin isn't sleeping much so he seeks the one person that can calm him down.
RATING: R?
STATUS:

It had been two days since Justin and Wayne had spent their lovely afternoon together and it hadn't been easy to process the whole thing. While it was true that he had started it with his joking about sleeping with Wayne, he had never expected things to slip towards how he had felt and in the end it had left him to ponder things to much for his taste.

It was never a good thing for Justin to look at his feelings up close and he didn't understand why it was so bloody hard to figure out what was going on. Sighing in frustration, Justin climbed down his bed and put on some shoes, Apparating at Ernie's.

He looked around briefly and realized how late it was when his eyes met with the clock. "Damn.." How long had he been in bed, tossing around?? He was so tired after two sleepless nights that he should have just taken a potion before bed to just sleep peacefully but it just didn't come.

He kicked off his shoes and padded towards Ernie's bedroom, slowing down as he came close. He listened in carefully, making sure he wasn't going to walk out on his best mate shagging some cute bloke, then fully entered the bedroom where Ernie was sprawled out. Maybe one day Justin wouldn't be doing this anymore and he choked back tears as he slipped in bed with his mate. One day, Ernie would be sharing his bed with someone who would probably mind.

Ernie was warm and Justin settled beside him, not quite snuggling, but close enough for him to not feel completely alone.

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erniedtmac
2014-11-16 02:37 am UTC (link)

Ernie pressed his cheek against the top of Justin's head. "You did what you did, there's no changing that. And if you ask Mum, often it's for the best. Look at it this way. If you'd asked then and he'd said yes, he might not have a little boy who brightens up his day. You might have been too busy having a boyfriend to concentrate on your healing studies. You would have been young and immature, and maybe would have fucked it all up because you were young and stupid, like we all were. Maybe he'd have stuck around for you when everything went to shite and he may have ended up in Azkaban and St. Mungo's too."

He thought back on his own lost love from school and how much he'd changed since then. Had he even been ready for any sort of real commitment back then? He'd never know.

"But now you're older, you have a career you love, friends who support you, and you're a little more clear and comfortable with who you are. And just some food for thought - you talk about how you have feelings for Seamus, but then you switch to Wayne and what happened. It sounds to me like there's feelings on both fronts. I've always known you have feelings for Wayne, but they've never really gone away, have they."

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friendlyjustin
2014-11-16 03:15 am UTC (link)

Justin hadn't been ready for that to come out of Ernie's mouth at all. Things were hard to handle about Seamus and he was having even more difficulties accepting that back then he would have had a shot with Wayne, so being told that maybe his feelings hadn't really gone away.. It hit him like a bag of bricks.

"Maybe you are right. Maybe it would have been a terrible mistake and we probably wouldn't have made it, you know." He said softly. "We're so different. Even now he's not too keen on accepting help from.. me." Their social status differences had always been a problem before. Now he only hoped it wasn't anymore.

"And Rhys is a pretty awesome kid, it's true. He's so smart and fun to be around." Justin genuinely cared for the kid and wanted the best for him.

"Ernie.." He didn't want to say it. Really, he didn't want to say that his friend was probably right.

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erniedtmac
2014-11-16 03:52 am UTC (link)

Ernie playfully slapped the back of Justin's head. "Nowhere did I say it would have been a mistake. It would have been a learning experience at least, but yeah, we're all a little different now. And he's stubborn, we both know that, and has a lot of pride. He has his own demons to slay, and will do it in his own time. And if you offered, well, then the offer's still out there, and he can take you up on it if he's ever ready. We can't make people do things they're not ready to do."

He smiled knowingly when Justin talked about Rhys. He always thought his best mate would make a good father one day from the way he was around kids.

"What?" he asked when Justin didn't finish your thought. "Were you going to say I'm perfect and brilliant and the best mate ever?"

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friendlyjustin
2014-11-16 04:04 am UTC (link)

"No I know.." He whispered, shifting so he could see Ernie while they talked. "I'm saying it." He wanted to choose his words carefully so Ernie would understand exactly what he meant.

"I would probably have lost him along the way." He said softly, not wanting to say that he was afraid it would have turned out like it did with Michael and Ernie, but if there was one thing Wayne and Michael had in common it was the pride and the stubborn attitude. "I things weren't easy when it all ended and.. and there is no telling how things would have happened. But it's true, I would probably have been terribly distracted if I'd been in a relationship."

"I know he's proud and he won't accept easily. What was I thinking.." He shook his head. "I offered him to move into my flat."

Justin chuckled. "Well, I was about to say: Only you can hit me with a ton of bricks like that and get away with it. But it's because you are amazing and brilliant and yeah.. best mate ever."

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erniedtmac
2014-11-16 03:43 pm UTC (link)

Ernie definitely noticed that while he had used might and maybe in his own speculation on the past, Justin kept using probably. His self-deprecation at play again. Ernie knew it wouldn't change in a day, he only hoped that his support could give Justin what he needed to start to like himself. His eyes widened, however, at the revelation that Justin had offered for Wayne to move in with him. "It's a good thing he said no. Do you know what a bad idea it is to live with someone you have unresolved feelings for? I know you wanted to help, but that's a recipe for torture."

He grinned at that. "Of course I can get away with it. You love me. And how many best mates would allow you to sleep in their beds, no questions asked?" He finally extinguished the light on his wand and set it to the side of the bed, then pulled Justin into his arms. A stranger watching - hell, even some of their friends - would look askance at them lying like this, but for them, it had always been a great comfort and an important part of their friendship. He lied back and encouraged Justin's head onto his chest. "Now let's get some sleep, all right? Things often look clearer in the morning."

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friendlyjustin
2014-11-16 06:08 pm UTC (link)

"You know what?" He said softly as they settled in to sleep. "I offered him before I got confused by the urge to grab and snog him the other night." He wasn't too sure when the shift had happened between him and Wayne, but at some point Justin had clearly let himself vulnerable again with Wayne. "I was cautious when he first came back, but now.. it's different."

"Maybe I should just rent the flat out and get something smaller, like you have. Because it's definitely too big for just me and my parents wouldn't let me take smaller." The Flethcleys had said they were buying him a flat once. ot a small flat, then moving into bigger once he'd meet the right girl and start thinking about a family. Ah well..

Justin was slowly drifting into sleep once he was properly snuggled. "It'll stop one day though.." He whispered as he closed his eyes. Ernie was too awesome to remain single and even if his mate had promised it wouldn't change anything between them, Justin thought it would.

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erniedtmac
2014-11-23 02:44 am UTC (link)

"There are advantages to a smaller flat, yeah," Ernie agreed, "but a nice big one's got good points too. But whatever you decide, I'll support you and if it means moving, you know I'll help."

Ernie almost asked Justin what he meant by It'll stop one day, but he thought he already knew the answer. "Not necessarily. If a bloke doesn't understand how close I am with my mates, and doesn't trust me enough to have a lie-in that's completely platonic, well, then they're not a bloke worth keeping around, now are they?" He pet Justin's hair again, closing his eyes. "No bloke, no matter how sweet or fit or perfect, would ever be worth giving up my mates. They can either take me as I am, or move on."

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friendlyjustin
2014-11-23 02:57 am UTC (link)

"No no, I know that, Ernie. You know I feel the same too.." His voice trailed off as he thought about his next words for a moment. "But our lives are changing though, gotta admit that. And I'll have to start doing this on my own." It filled him with anxiety just thinking about having to do this on his own.

Funny as it were though, he could help others, but not himself.

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	erniedtmac 2014-11-25 06:47 pm UTC (link)
	"Do what on your own?" Ernie was flummoxed - in his eyes, no matter how independent a person was, they'd always need someone, and there was nothing wrong with that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendlyjustin 2014-11-25 11:23 pm UTC (link)
	"Talk myself down from anxious situations?" He said tentatively. He was pretty sure that Ernie would always be there for him whenever he needed, but he was a grown man for fuck's sake, shouldn't he be able to handle meltdowns? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	erniedtmac 2014-12-01 03:39 pm UTC (link)
	Ernie nodded in comprehension. "Well, that's always something good to learn to do on our own. Even if you do, though, I'm always here if you need a friend to help." He yawned and cuddled into the pillow. "Night Just." (Reply to this) (Parent)

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