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Tweak says, "It's called a lance. Hello?"

Rebecca Crane (needmymp3) wrote in erato_dr,
@ 2012-05-27 21:30:00

Entry tags:

!meme

[home sweet home] returning to your world ; meme

You wake up in your bed, maybe. Somewhere. Somewhere you know.

Familiar scents fill your nose, the scents of home. You get up and look around and you come to a stunning, breath-taking (and sickening?) realization. You're home again. Somehow, just now, you were whisked away from that strange place you were, for however long you lived there, with how many people you came to know, and plunked down in your home, your own world. The bubble popped and now you're left wondering... was that even real? Could it have been?

What do you do now?

The phone's ringing. Maybe you should answer that.

How To Play

- Comment to the thread with your character. It will be their "world" they've returned to.
- Other people comment to them, reconnecting or awakening next to them in that home world.
- The where, when, setting & that sort of thing are up to you!
- Freak out, panic, try to figure what to do next.

Bonus:

- Work in a time difference, Lake House style!
- Is something off about this home world? Is it even really yours?

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	thisiscalm 2012-06-03 07:01 pm UTC (link)
	It's okay. [And it really is.] We'll just... take it slow. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-06-03 07:03 pm UTC (link)
	[She just nods and holds on tighter.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2012-06-03 07:07 pm UTC (link)
	[Tight is good. Right now he wants nothing more than to hug her hard enough so she really feels it. And maybe try to lighten the mood a little bit.] Who knows, maybe this time we'll get it right..? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-06-03 07:19 pm UTC (link)
	It's not... It wasn't wrong. [Sorry. Her mood is just darkening, but she isn't pulling away. She needs the hug.] [Her voice gets soft.] Sometimes I... don't think this is really my body. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2012-06-03 07:56 pm UTC (link)
	[Lighting failed. That's okay though, because talking is good too and it's actually a bit of a relief to hear her say this. Putting words on the problem.] Mmn. [He nods, would tighten the embrace if he thought it was possible.] It's understandable... and I'm not going to try to convince you that you're wrong. I mean... you feel the way you feel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-06-03 08:02 pm UTC (link)
	I don't want to feel disconnected. [To herself. To him.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2012-06-03 08:03 pm UTC (link)
	I know. [God, does he know.] It's only been a week. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-06-03 08:06 pm UTC (link)
	[She nods again.] Let's sit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2012-06-03 08:11 pm UTC (link)
	[He nods, easing up on the embrace while still keeping a hand on her back. It feels like he can't let go, because then that lack of connection will really be there. Walking over to the couch, he waits for her to take a seat before sitting down next to her.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-06-03 08:16 pm UTC (link)
	[She curls up against him.] I like when you touch me. I don't want you to think I don't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2012-06-03 08:21 pm UTC (link)
	I know you do. [And to prove that he knows, he'll wrap an arm around her shoulders and let his hand brush over her arm.] And I don't want you to think that... well, that I think any differently of you. It's a lot to adjust to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-06-03 08:27 pm UTC (link)
	[So much of what he says and does has this way of just tugging at her heart all the time. If he keeps that up he's going to pull it right out one of these days.] Are you this understanding with everyone or do I get special treatment? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2012-06-03 08:34 pm UTC (link)
	Profiler. It's my job. [Joking, mostly. It certainly helps.] You still get special treatment. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-06-03 08:35 pm UTC (link)
	I think for once I'd be afraid to ask how you'd profile me now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2012-06-03 08:38 pm UTC (link)
	[He shifts a little against her, trying to get eye contact.] It's not as bad as you might think. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-06-03 08:38 pm UTC (link)
	[She looks at him.] Lay it on me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2012-06-03 08:40 pm UTC (link)
	...are you sure? [Cause he's leaving in the morning and he really doesn't want to risk ruining this night.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-06-03 08:41 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sure. [Pushing herself a little maybe. She needs to be the strong, confident girl she's always been.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thisiscalm
2012-06-03 08:54 pm UTC (link)

Okay. [He takes a moment to push himself into the right mindset. It's harder than he ever thought it would be, because this is as far from work as he could possibly get.]

Right now... you're going through an identity crisis triggered by a significant personal loss, but unlike most cases dealing with loss this is something that constantly affects you. You're not grieving the loss of a loved or dealing with external changes, you're dealing with the loss of self which in turn means that you can't escape from it. Any attempt to distract yourself from it only reminds you of the person you thought you were and now no longer feels like.

Your identity as a mutant was what gave you a sense of belonging in the past, and with the loss of your powers you not only lost your identity but also the thing that connected you to a group. It makes you feel alone and vulnerable, uncomfortable in your own body. Frustrated. Depressed, because you feel like you've lost control over the things you could control better than anyone. You're forced to rely on someone, which only strenghtens the feelings of helplessness.

But... despite all that, you keep trying. That's why it doesn't look so bad.

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	kitty_has_claws 2012-06-03 09:04 pm UTC (link)
	[She nods once it's clear he's finished.] There's something reassuring about the way you always understand me. I guess your serial killers probably don't say that very often. [She threads her fingers with his. Another point of connection.] If I have to rely on someone I'm glad it's you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2012-06-03 09:14 pm UTC (link)
	Not that often, no. [He gives her hand a squeeze once their fingers are properly braided together. Leans his head against hers.] I'm glad you think I'm reliable. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-06-03 09:17 pm UTC (link)
	You're a lot more than just reliable. [Can you hear this affection?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2012-06-03 09:18 pm UTC (link)
	[He hears it. It also earns her a kiss on the head, in part because he doesn't want her to notice how badly that made him blush.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-06-03 09:25 pm UTC (link)
	[That makes her smile, and while she doesn't see his blush, she swears she can hear it somehow!] So, what would you recommend for a person fitting that profile, Dr. Reid? [Her thumb rubs gently against the side of his hand.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2012-06-03 09:33 pm UTC (link)
	A steady routine. Physical exercise. Most of all... time to go through the stages of grief. [He smiles a little against her.] I'm not worried about you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)