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pamela dawes ([info]ilbastone) wrote in [info]dunwichgame,
@ 2024-02-06 19:01:00

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Entry tags:!log/thread/narrative, stephen king: eddie kaspbrak, ∙ plot: 013 rock lobster, ◌ inactive: pamela dawes, ◌ inactive: vanessa ives

Pam & Eddie
01.06 3PM | Street outside Supernova | Low

The broken record.
⚠ None

This, Pam thought as she hunched over the rack of vinyls, was a terrible idea. Cassettes? CDs? Those you could smuggle under your shirt and walk out with. Forget to pay for. Play easily. Records were a whole other ball game. And she didn't have the money to spend on nonsense, but–

"Fuck it," she muttered and yanked the record from the rack.

Thirty seconds later, she emerged from Supernova dripping hostility and a dizzying sense of euphoria – and walked right into a guy in a lobster hat. In his hands were flyers advertising the famous lobster-ritas. In hers was the record.

Both went flying when the guy veered out of the way of a pair of running kids. Pam discovered too late that she should've paid attention to where she was going. The record hit the ground first. Pam saw it and was briefly relieved.

Then the ground rose up to meet her, sandwiching the record between her elbow and the asphalt.

The crack should've rung out for miles, but Pam was pretty sure nobody heard it but her. She lay there on the side walk, in the aftermath, covered in flyers, torn between incredulity and vindication. And then she began to laugh.


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[info]germhater
2024-02-06 07:05 pm UTC (link)
Eddie jogged along, finally able to get fresh air with the fog and related monsters gone.  He didn't need music; headphones were a dangerous distraction.  He listened to his own breathing, the fall of his feet on the ground, the sound of traffic - both vehicle and pedestrian, any details that were relevant to his own health or safety.  His route was planned out carefully too, sticking to spots that felt safest.   

He rounded a corner, headed towards Richie's shop, and saw a woman lying on the ground.  He instantly thought all the way back to Del.  The young (or at least he thought she was young) woman had been the first person he'd met in Dunwich, back in the lobster parade.  She'd fallen or been knocked down, and no one gave enough of a shit to help her up until he got there.  She was odd, but so was he and most other mistakes in one way or another.   He missed her.

Eddie sped up to a run, and stopped in front of the woman.  Just his goddamn luck.  It wasn't Del at all.   Pam.  In her defence, he knew now that she wasn't the same woman who'd been with Bryn.   He also knew he could never be her cool, brave Eddie.  No wonder she was laughing.   "Did you hit your head this time?"   He asked and held out his hand to help her up.  He couldn't just leave her there. 

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[info]ilbastone
2024-02-07 07:39 am UTC (link)
A familiar voice. Pam turned her head and the little trip her heart had given quieted once more. Short-hair Kaspbrak wasn't her Kaspbrak. But he was a Kaspbrak. She took his hand, her laughter dimming to a hiccup, and let him pull her to her feet.

"Better if I had." She bent to retrieve the record sleeve, felt the shards of PVC jostle inside. "Fucking Tuesdays, right?" And careless locals. And careless, well, her. She squinted at Eddie. "You jog now?"

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[info]germhater
2024-02-07 05:43 pm UTC (link)
"You shop at Richie's place?"  Eddie asked with surprise.  He knew logically, there weren't many other options, if any in Dunwich, for records.  It just seemed strange to have any version of Pam around his friend and it would never occur to him that someone could steal from Richie.  "He's a good guy."  The best. "He might give you a discount on a replacement if you show him what happened." 

"I had a proper run with the club this morning.  And the bank's not busy."   He said, automatically becoming defensive.  It was so easy for him to take things as an insult, especially given the source.

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[info]ilbastone
2024-02-07 05:53 pm UTC (link)
"Who?" Pam asked, before she could pretend she didn't care. The answer, though, was obvious. One of Eddie's friends, owner of Supernova. Probably the guy with the wild hair. Should've shoplifted. At least then she could have lied. She still could. Didn't want to think about why she chose not to. "Nah, not a fan of charity."

She made her way across the carpet of scattered flyers and tossed the record in a nearby bin. "Whatever. Don't have a record player anyway." She whirled around on Eddie. "Shit, you're a banker?" Conversational whiplash engaged. Pam grinned. "Working for The Man, huh? Oh, how the mighty have fallen." Or grown up. Stopped playing at being a rock star. One of those.

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[info]germhater
2024-02-07 08:39 pm UTC (link)
Eddie stared at her for a moment, eyes wide and mouth open.  How could anyone know him and not know Richie? Even if they were different ages in the time capsule photos, they must have still been friends. Plus, he was Richie.  She had to at least know of him in this timeline.  Didn't everyone? "Oh, fuck that."  He muttered. "You know him. The cool guy."

"Then why."  He shook his head.  If she wanted to waste her money, that was her choice.  "I'm the bank manager."   He said, rolling his eyes.  "Not as much money as I made in insurance, but it's decent for Dunwich.  Why?  What about you, did you take over the other Pam's job at.."  He shrugged.  "The place she worked? Or do the mighty prefer statement-making unemployment?"

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[info]ilbastone
2024-02-08 05:44 am UTC (link)
It must've been really hard for Eddie to imagine a world in which he and not his friend was the cool guy. Unfortunately for him, that was the world Pam came from. But she knew a losing fight when she saw one, so instead of trying to persuade him, she just rolled her eyes.

Ignored his first question. Greeted his correction with a whistle. "No shit? Wow." He wasted no time turning the question back on her, though. "Damn, you're catty." Pam grinned. "I'll have you know you're looking at Camber's newest mechanic. Shit hours so far but I'm thinking I'll work my way up the ladder, dethrone the boss, and take over."

Because she had that kind of energy. Yeah, right.

"Other me worked at the university. Harder to climb the ranks there." Even if they hadn't fired her for being a no-show since the start of term. Pam squinted up at Eddie. "What do you need money for, anyway? Blowing it on hookers and cocaine?"

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[info]germhater
2024-02-08 06:29 pm UTC (link)
"I'm a snarky delight." Eddie pointed a finger at her. "You'd better be good to my car." Even though he'd crashed it, that big Escalade made him feel safe. Plus, it was one thing he'd owned that Myra hadn't picked out for him.

His expression softened a little. "You might be surprised. You've got proof that another you could do it." Another her with a different, maybe better, experiences and opportunities. Just like another him had been brave enough for tattoos and creativity. He was trying to add those into his life. "Not that there's anything wrong with working with cars. I used to drive celebrities around and I did the luxury car safety inspections."

"Hey, I might shove my paycheck up my nose, but I never have to pay for fucking." He replied, his voice was full of sarcasm, because the idea of him using cocaine was ridiculous to him. "I've got bills. I'm a home owner, or co-home owner."

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[info]ilbastone
2024-02-09 07:26 am UTC (link)
It happened in flickers: one moment Eddie was staid and safe, and the next he'd say something bitchy and he was himself again. The right him. The other him.

Pam snorted. "Bills and a big job... And you jog. Fuck me, they grow up fast." She play-punched him in the arm. "I need to see this house. You running back there now? 'Cause I can stalk you later if you're not." And she would, too. Wasn't much else to keep her busy in Dunwich these days.

No band. No friends. No lovers.

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[info]germhater
2024-02-09 08:01 pm UTC (link)
Eddie glanced at his watch, the smart watch that Mercy had suggested long ago.  He'd covered enough distance and his heart rate was good.  His phone was in his trusted fanny pack; the bank employees could reach him if they needed. Heading home would be acceptable and a better option than her following him around. 

"Yeah, but I got a rule.  No fucking my friends if they're home."  He instructed, looking completely serious.  If the Eddie that this Pam knew was anything like him, she might pick up on him joking.  After she wasn't really the Pam that had been there before.   "Do you think you can keep up with me?"

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[info]ilbastone
2024-02-10 09:21 am UTC (link)
Eddie had a great poker face. It actually gave Pam pause -- for about two seconds, during which she considered pointing out that a) he was the band slut and b) her standards were a little bit higher these days.

But then she clocked the joke. And punched him again. Slightly harder this time, but still joking. "Fuck you. I've been smoking like a chimney for five years, recreationally before that. Yeah, I can keep up with your sedentary ass. Last one back's a pussy."

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[info]germhater
2024-02-10 06:55 pm UTC (link)
Eddie flinched, only for a second.  The closest he came to that kind of fooling around was having Richie slap his inhaler away.  Everyone else who had ever hit him, had meant it.

Then he scoffed.  "Fuck you!  Smoking fucks up your repository function, and your muscular and cardiovascular endurance, and your fatigue resistance.  I'm amazed you can even stand.  And fuck sedentary. I keep in shape!"  He smirked and took off running, not at his full speed just yet.  "C'mon."

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[info]ilbastone
2024-02-10 07:14 pm UTC (link)
The lecture was almost enough to make her want to hit him again. But for that, Pam first had to catch him. She thought she might be able to. She was in Docs instead of running shoes, though, and jeans instead of a tracksuit. And she hadn't been kidding about the smoking, either, so the thought didn't survive the first mile.

By the second, she was out of breath and nearly hyperventilating, a stitch in her side slowing her down and blisters already popped and stinging on her feet. She lost Eddie around a corner, one tall beanpole dangling in front of her like the weirdest fucking carrot.

And yet the stick of her own anger was nowhere to be found.

She had to stop, so she did. Doubled over. Her hair stuck to her sweaty face. Her breath knifed in and out of her chest. Her feet ached. Her vision swam. She straightened slowly, hands pressed to her leaking eyes. More running was out of the question. But she could keep walking.

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[info]germhater
2024-02-10 08:43 pm UTC (link)
Eddie had always been fast, as long as his asthma didn't get in the way.  It hadn't done that in a long time.  He practically flew down the street until he made the realization that Pam was nowhere nearby.   He slowed, turned around and started retracing his steps.   "Pam?"  He called out as he went, smoke-free lungs made running and talking easy.  Different worries made their way into his mind at once.  She'd gotten lost, gotten stung by a lobster that had made its way into the town, a night vampire came out in the day and ate her, or...she hadn't really wanted to be around him.  That last one was the most likely in his mind.

He hadn't been prepared for the sight that greeted him when he finally found her.  "Hey, hey, stop."  He called out as he made his way over to her.  "Not you, asshole."  He told a local that was passing by and staring.  "You, Pam, stop."  He stood in front of her, not too close.  He didn't want her to feel crowded.  "Look at me.  Copy my breathing.  Breathe in slowly, through your nose, then out through your mouth, like you're blowing out a candle."   He said and demonstrated.

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[info]ilbastone
2024-02-11 05:48 am UTC (link)
He'd come back.

It was a good thing Pam was blotting her eyes with the heels of her palms or they might've looked a little glossy just then. She made sure to smudge her eyeliner extra hard as she lowered her hands. Just in case. Stupid eyes, nearly giving her away.

"Once... a mom friend," she got out between exhales. "Always a mom friend... huh?" Eddie had been that way back in '97, too. Toned down a bit, maybe. But he'd given a fuck. More than one.

Pam's breathing slowly returned to normal, in no small part thanks to Eddie. "It's the shoes. I could keep up with you fine. If it weren't for the shoes." Total lie, of course, and she knew he'd know that. She also knew he wouldn't hold it against her.

Friends didn't.

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[info]germhater
2024-02-11 06:19 pm UTC (link)
"A proud mom friend."  Eddie declared, he was glad to be able to take care of his friends.  His mind struggled to come up with examples that wouldn't be too buzz-kill for her.  "You need someone to hold your hair back when you puke and leave water bottles by your bed for the next morning."   There.  That sounded cooler than the rest of the shit he actually did.

"The fucking shoes."   He muttered, deciding to go along with her excuse rather than the lengthy speech about getting into shape. "You need shoes that cushion your feet, that have support with flexibility, that don't put pressure on the wrong spots, and that fit properly. It's fucking batshit how many people don't get their damn feet measured." 

"C'mon,"  He said, slowly draping his arm around her shoulders and guiding her towards a nearby bench.  He'd move the arm if she objected, of course.  It seemed like a mom-friend move.  Or big brother-friend.  He'd come up with a term that wouldn't embarrass himself.  "Let's call a fucking uber before you decide to go barefoot on a public street."  

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[info]ilbastone
2024-02-12 05:46 am UTC (link)
"I do, huh?" Pam huffed, but didn't argue. How dare he call her out like that? It was like he knew her. But he didn't. Not this him. Not this her.

She didn't object to the arm or being steered. The bench wasn't far; she could've made her way to it solo. She told herself she was indulging him more than anything else.

She'd let him pay for the uber, whatever that was, for exactly the same reason.

"I did that once," she said, once he'd ordered them a ride. "Threw my shoes at you after a gig, so I had to walk home barefoot." It made her smile to think about now. "Missed your big head, too, somehow."

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[info]germhater
2024-02-12 07:43 pm UTC (link)
Eddie rolled his eyes.  "People do.  The point is mom friends are cool and you know it."   He didn't even really believe that.  As long as he could cling to the idea that they were needed, he was fine. 

He sat down next to her on the bench and toyed with his phone after he'd ordered the uber, then slid his phone back into his pocket and looked at her.  "My head is average sized.  Like the rest of me.  Like most of the rest of me, except the part that's huge."  Fuck, that was what he'd say to Richie.  That friend-level shit had come out of his mouth far too easily. Maybe because the image of a shoe coming flying at him was almost as gross as Rich throwing stuff from grey water.  But he might have offended her. 

He paused before continuing.  "Did you mean big head like arrogant?"   He asked, quietly, unable to have even considered that initially. 

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[info]ilbastone
2024-02-13 01:09 pm UTC (link)
Maybe for Eddie the friend-level shit-talk was shocking. For Pam, it fit like a glove -- albeit a glove worn on a phantom hand. She rolled her eyes toward him and said, completely straight-faced, "No, idiot, I was talking about your dick.

"Of course I was calling you arrogant. You're so fucking full of yourself. Or the other you is. It's irritating. Especially since it's not all without reason." Her Eddie was talented and stubborn, and often right. Pam slid down on the bench until she could prop her head on the backrest. "Not much of a mom friend, but..." A friend. A best friend.

And there she went again, moping.

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[info]germhater
2024-02-13 05:41 pm UTC (link)
"It is worth talking about.  You know, it's hard to ignore the giant in the room."   Eddie quipped back at her, with an internal sigh of relief.  He hadn't fucked up and he could treat her like one of his friends, at least in that sense.

Eddie felt an instant pang of sympathy.   The things that irritated him most, would also be among the things he'd miss most if any of his friends were fog-fucked away.  "It's not, huh?  I'll tell the other me that if he shows up here."   He didn't think she'd want outright support, but he'd managed to work in a bit of hope.  It was Dunwich.  Anything was possible. 

"The friend that can be an ass to you, and you can be ass to them and you still love'em.  The best kind?"  He asked.

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[info]ilbastone
2024-02-14 05:03 am UTC (link)
Pam swallowed hard and still couldn't quite shift the lump in her throat. "Yeah. That's the one." The best kind of friend.

And while she missed him -- the other him -- terribly, the thought of something dragging him to this fresh hell of a timeline made her itchy.

Eddie was better off where he was. So too were John and Sylvie.

So would Pam have been, if her other self weren't so fucking stubborn.

A car pulled up to the curb and the driver leaned toward the open passenger side window. "Uh, Kas... something?"

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[info]germhater
2024-02-14 08:34 pm UTC (link)
"I'm sorry I'm not him."  Eddie said, feeling as if that would have somehow made things simpler. A different Eddie and Pam with this world and this Bryn.  Or better, Pam in her time where she belonged with her friends.   And a Pam in his time that he could justifiably yell at. 

"Yeah, Kaspbrak, that's us."   He said and stood, opening the door to the backseat for Pam.  "C'mon, you don't want to miss your chance to see Chez Loser."

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[info]ilbastone
2024-02-15 09:46 am UTC (link)
"Invitation like that, how could I?" Pam scoffed and clambered in less than ladylike fashion into the car. Maybe the other Pam would've thanked Eddie for holding the door. Maybe other Eddie would've left her to fend for herself.

Maybe there was a little good, and a little bad, with every roll of the dice.

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