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Tweak says, "You make my chest tweak"

jude campbell ☆ logan echolls. (snarky) wrote in dunhavenic,
@ 2019-07-23 12:37:00

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!network, * kit, c: amanda campbell, c: connor reed, c: jack morehead, c: jasper atwater, c: jude campbell, c: mariela rodriguez, c: miles mckinnon, c: shahid khan

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	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-23 10:39 pm UTC (link)
	I promise I'll tell you if it's too much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA snarky 2019-07-23 10:50 pm UTC (link)
	Her name was Lilly. She was my girlfriend, Veronica's best friend. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-23 10:58 pm UTC (link)
	She died. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA snarky 2019-07-23 11:06 pm UTC (link)
	She was murdered. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-24 12:10 am UTC (link)
	By him? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA snarky 2019-07-24 12:29 am UTC (link)
	Not to Logan's knowledge, but I'm sure. [...] His dad is cut from the same cloth, though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-24 01:25 am UTC (link)
	No wonder you've been upset. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA snarky 2019-07-24 01:30 am UTC (link)
	It's non-fucking-stop, Manda. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-24 02:25 am UTC (link)
	I'm sorry if I've been adding to the stress. So...Veronica. That's who Mari is dreaming about? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA snarky 2019-07-24 02:28 am UTC (link)
	You don't. [...] And I know you hate her but, when I'm with her, I feel quiet. It's just when she's gone again that it feels so much fucking louder. [...] I probably shouldn't be outing her, so this has to stay entirely between us. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-24 02:35 am UTC (link)
	Can I ask what you mean when you say everything is louder? I promise. No matter what my feelings toward her are, I would never doing anything with this information. I only ask so I can better understand what you're dealing with. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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snarky
2019-07-24 02:39 am UTC (link)

It's like I can never get out of my own head, like I'm always remembering, always feeling, always thinking. I'm always trying to make it stop, even just for a little while.

Yeah, she's dreaming of Veronica. And we were friends once, until Lilly was murdered. Her dad relentlessly thought it was Lilly's dad who did it and [...] I made her choose between us and her dad because of it.

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	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-24 02:54 am UTC (link)
	I had no idea it was still this bad for you. But she makes that go away? And if Veronica is anything like Mari, it wasn't a choice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA snarky 2019-07-24 03:00 am UTC (link)
	[...] It never stopped, not really. But, yeah, she does. Only when it's good, though. When we're good, I'm good, but it's like my brain just holds everything I would have been feeling in reserves for the moment it goes bad and opens the floodgates. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-25 10:18 pm UTC (link)
	And there's nothing I can do to help make things quieter? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA snarky 2019-07-27 01:20 am UTC (link)
	It's not that. It's just [...] a different sort of quiet, I guess. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-27 02:42 am UTC (link)
	I just...want you to know I'm here. I wish there was more I could do. But if she makes it easier on you, I'll play nice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA snarky 2019-07-27 06:20 pm UTC (link)
	I know that, I do. It's always going to be you and me, Manda. I know it's crazy, I know it's self-destructive, but I love her. I'm not me when I don't have anywhere to channel that into. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-27 06:50 pm UTC (link)
	I know you do. That's never been in question. Don't laugh at me for suggesting this, but what if you two tried therapy together? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA snarky 2019-07-27 07:17 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not laughing, but I'm also not sure I want to pay someone to rehash everything I want to forget. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-27 07:30 pm UTC (link)
	Because maybe by dealing with those things you and Mari can have more good times and less bad. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA snarky 2019-07-27 07:33 pm UTC (link)
	I mean, I get what you're saying, but there are just some things that I don't want to talk about with anyone. I can't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-27 07:38 pm UTC (link)
	Even if it means missing out on creating a healthy relationship with the person you love? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA snarky 2019-07-27 07:45 pm UTC (link)
	[...] I just don't know, Manda. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	JUDE \| MANDA wisdomsdaughter 2019-07-27 07:59 pm UTC (link)
	It's just something to think about. I love you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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