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Bruce Wainright has (onerule) wrote in doors,
@ 2013-08-14 02:33:00

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adam w.
[A loooooot of cursor blinking. Then:] Hey.

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Re: adam/luke

onerule
2013-08-14 01:16 pm UTC (link)

[Blink. Blink. Blink.] ~~Fuck you~~ I'm not one of you anymore? Seriously? I remember how miserable I was, Adam. I remember sacrificing myself again and again and watching everyone I cared about suffer. I remember trying to make people proud and always feeling like a failure. So, what, I'm not me anymore because I'm not broken like I used to be? Because I don't kill people anymore and I don't hate myself so much I wish I was dead? I'm not eighteen anymore. None of us are. [...] I'm a cop so I can make a difference. And, you know what, I want you to be happy. You and MK both, because you're my fucking friends but it's pretty clear you don't feel the same. Nice to know how you really feel.

A miscarriage isn't anyone's fault. [Pause.] Yeah, she's with you. Sober for months and now she's drinking again.

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	Re: adam/luke flashofvenom 2013-08-14 10:17 pm UTC (link)
	Not eighteen anymore. Still miserable. Haven't left Seattle. You have. MK and I both wanted you and Wren to be happy. Still do. Stating facts. [...] Really believe that? Between putting tourists in drunk tanks and arresting Elvis impersonators? So what if she is? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: adam/luke

onerule
2013-08-14 10:50 pm UTC (link)

[Frustrated cursor blink.] You can't say you want us to be happy and then lay on the guilt trip, like we don't deserve what we have. Wren and I had to fight like hell for it, okay? I'm not saying we're, I don't know, entitled or anything, because we're not. But it's not a competition. I don't want you to be miserable. You and MK don't deserve the shit that's happened to you. [...] Maybe not right now, but I can work my way up. I can't do what I used to do, Adam. That part of my life is over.

Come on. I know you care.

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	Re: adam/luke flashofvenom 2013-08-15 12:09 am UTC (link)
	Fought like hell and won. We fought like hell and lost. Tired of fighting. Been through what we have, you'd be tired, too. [...] How many people over the age of 40 still have the same job you do? Many of them. How many of them have families? Very few. Do care. Care more about numbing the pain. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: adam/luke

onerule
2013-08-15 01:36 pm UTC (link)

~~This isn't winning~~ I know you're tired. You have every right to be. But are you really just going to give up and self destruct? I don't want that, and I can't just sit and watch it happen. [...] I know it's not the best job, but it's money and benefits I didn't have before and it's better than working security for some stupid hotel. What else am I supposed to do?

That's only temporary, and it doesn't actually make the pain go away. We both know that.

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	Re: adam/luke flashofvenom 2013-08-16 12:49 am UTC (link)
	What could you do about it? [...] Telling you, as a friend, to give up trying to be a hero. Find a better paying job. Be a family man. Don't think she's ever going to fully heal. Can't tell me you think she can. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: adam/luke onerule 2013-08-16 12:22 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know. What could we ever do about anything? Didn't stop us from trying or wanting to fix things. [That makes the cursor blink for a while.] ~~I thought~~ ~~Is it really~~ I'm not sure I know how. I want to be both. [...] She wasn't doing too bad there for a while. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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