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Tweak says, "Look what I did to my ID"

It's a Graves thing (soundofwings) wrote in doors,
@ 2013-03-27 22:25:00

Entry tags:

death, gwen stacy

[Sam A]
[After this, in very poor handwriting and a smudge or two of ink.]

She and Neil didn't do anything.

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	Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 04:17 am UTC (link)
	[...] Who? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R soundofwings 2013-03-28 04:19 am UTC (link)
	[Smudge, hard press.] Elise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 04:27 am UTC (link)
	Oh. Yeah, he told me ~~things are kind of fucked up right~~. [...] Baby, are you ok? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R soundofwings 2013-03-28 04:31 am UTC (link)
	Then why did I [Visible for a moment before she scribbles it out.] No. You tell me to speak to people, and I do, but then things are worse than they were before. So I am simply going to stop listening to you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 04:35 am UTC (link)
	[...] WTF, Iris? What happened? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Sam A/Iris R

soundofwings
2013-03-28 04:39 am UTC (link)

I don't know. I said the wrong thing. Again. You said I should check on her, so I did. Because I wanted to know how she was, because you know I worry about people and I worry about her, but something went wrong and she stopped talking to me. Even after I tried to speak German, even though I don't understand any of it and need help with the translation. And I don't know why she stopped, but it was after I switched back to English and it was obviously something I said.

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	Re: Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 04:41 am UTC (link)
	Ok. [...] What did you say when she stopped? Or just before? We can figure this shit out, I. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R soundofwings 2013-03-28 04:43 am UTC (link)
	I didn't say anything after. She left. Said goodnight. Nothing comes after good night because the person is gone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 05:37 am UTC (link)
	Before that, baby. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R soundofwings 2013-03-28 02:30 pm UTC (link)
	I only said that I wanted to know her, but that I was doing everything wrong. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 04:21 pm UTC (link)
	And before that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R soundofwings 2013-03-28 04:30 pm UTC (link)
	I don't [Pause as she looks back.] We were talking about school. And music. And language. How I feel different now than I have. How I wished I wasn't always doing everything wrong. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 04:32 pm UTC (link)
	Ok, baby, it doesn't sound like you did anything to piss her off. What do you think you did wrong? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R soundofwings 2013-03-28 04:35 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know. But it has to have been something. It was fine until it wasn't. Or maybe it always wasn't and I just can't tell. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 04:52 pm UTC (link)
	What did you say, exactly, right when it wasn't ok? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Sam A/Iris R

soundofwings
2013-03-28 05:00 pm UTC (link)

[She takes a second for a shaky breath before trying to carefully copy the words:] me: Sometimes it seems to me that everything I have been doing with you has never been quite right. From the first moment in the hotel.
her: What about me is not right?
me: No, not you. Not at all. I've said the wrong things. I only want to know you somehow, but I don't know what to say or what to do.

And then she said she understood and told me goodnight.

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	Re: Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 07:20 pm UTC (link)
	Let me talk to her, ok? I haven't touched base in a week or so. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R soundofwings 2013-03-28 07:26 pm UTC (link)
	[Pause.] I don't even know if I want that. I just want to know that she's okay, that I haven't hurt her. But if I have, I don't want to force her to talk to me. I just [...] don't know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 07:48 pm UTC (link)
	Iris, baby. It's fine. I need to get in touch with her about some photographs anyway. Do you want me to tell her anything? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R soundofwings 2013-03-28 07:54 pm UTC (link)
	[A very long pause, with several dots of ink. Finally:] No. I just want to know that she's alright. I don't want her to be hurt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 08:12 pm UTC (link)
	~~I don't understand why the fuck she~~ Yeah, ok. Because you like her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R soundofwings 2013-03-28 08:14 pm UTC (link)
	[...] Because I worry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 08:14 pm UTC (link)
	Because you like her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R soundofwings 2013-03-28 08:15 pm UTC (link)
	~~And~~ Because I worry. And because I don't actually like it when I hurt people. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R ephemeras 2013-03-28 08:33 pm UTC (link)
	I don't think you hurt her, I. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Iris R soundofwings 2013-03-28 08:38 pm UTC (link)
	[...] I hope not. (Reply to this) (Parent)