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Doors Anon (doorsanon) wrote in doors,
@ 2012-06-09 11:13:00

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To the one I hurt:

I would like to speak with you. If you are not comfortable doing so, then I understand.

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	jukejoint 2012-06-09 04:21 pm UTC (link)
	[Publicly, because she DGAF anymore.] What? What the fuck could you possibly want? And don't tell me you want to apologize, because I don't want to fucking hear it, and it won't make anything better for anyone other than you. So, what? (Reply to this) (Thread)

Sam A/Anon

doorsanon
2012-06-09 04:26 pm UTC (link)

[not so public, sorry, Sam]

The word 'sorry' has lost a lot of meaning in our world, I think, so I won't try using it.

I've people asking me things. And it feels like they're attempting to punish me for what happened, which I will not argue is understandable. But you are the one who was hurt, and it is your opinions that I believe carry the most weight right now. I will not approach you, I will not seek you out beyond this post. I don't pretend that anything that is done will make what happened 'right', as one cannot rewind and take back past actions.

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jukejoint
2012-06-09 04:32 pm UTC (link)

[Fuck that. Publicly, with his commented quoted in her messy hand.]

The word 'sorry' has lost a lot of meaning in our world, I think, so I won't try using it.

I've people asking me things. And it feels like they're attempting to punish me for what happened, which I will not argue is understandable. But you are the one who was hurt, and it is your opinions that I believe carry the most weight right now. I will not approach you, I will not seek you out beyond this post. I don't pretend that anything that is done will make what happened 'right', as one cannot rewind and take back past actions.

So you're contacting me because people are giving you shit? That's what all those fucking words boil down to? I didn't tell them to talk to you, and I didn't tell them to fucking "punish" you. So don't come bitching at me about it.

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	doorsanon 2012-06-09 04:34 pm UTC (link)
	[at the public outing of what he said, he just... stares.] Forget that I said anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jukejoint 2012-06-09 07:05 pm UTC (link)
	No. You went through all this trouble to contact me again after I ignored you the first time. What do you want? I already tried to call them off, the only people I told, so what am I supposed to do now? Hire a fucking skywriter? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doorsanon 2012-06-09 07:07 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not asking you to do anything to them. I want to know what you want. That is all. Not what they want of me. What you want of me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

jukejoint
2012-06-09 09:06 pm UTC (link)

I don't want anything from you. We can't rewind. I can't make you a decent fucking person. And I can't go back and grow balls and shove you the fuck off like I would right now. So we can't change shit, and you just have to deal with the crap you said, and the crap you did, and the fact that somewhere inside you really just want to fucking hurt people and get off on it. I have to deal with the fact that I have issues I didn't know I had. We can't do jack shit, and you remain a motherfucker, so just fucking deal.

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	doorsanon 2012-06-09 09:14 pm UTC (link)
	Very well. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	the_huntress 2012-06-12 12:30 am UTC (link)
	You're the one that hurt my cat? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	doorsanon 2012-06-12 05:11 am UTC (link)
	I didn't hurt any cat, sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_huntress 2012-06-12 05:12 am UTC (link)
	She tells me you did. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doorsanon 2012-06-12 05:14 am UTC (link)
	I apologise. But this is between me and her, and I think the matter has no where else to go. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_huntress 2012-06-12 05:17 am UTC (link)
	I don't give a damn about your apologies. You don't even have the balls to deliver it beyond the safety of anonymity. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doorsanon 2012-06-12 05:18 am UTC (link)
	I don't want attacked for what I have done. If she wants my identity, I would give it to her, and her alone. No one else. I have physical problems as it is and cannot continue to work should someone make them worse. My apologies. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_huntress 2012-06-12 05:21 am UTC (link)
	[...] And who do you think was doing her work after you hurt her? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doorsanon 2012-06-12 05:22 am UTC (link)
	I am not discussing this further with you. If she wishes to speak to me, I will talk with her. Not with you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_huntress 2012-06-12 05:23 am UTC (link)
	You will not speak with her again. If she comes to you of her own will, fine, but if you so much as breathe in her direction again, it's me you'll meet motherfucker. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doorsanon 2012-06-12 05:24 am UTC (link)
	As I have told other people, you have no control over who I do and do not speak with. Do not threaten me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_huntress 2012-06-12 05:36 am UTC (link)
	Consider it a friendly fucking warning. You talk to her, you come after her again, I will hunt your fucking ass down and leave you a bloody smear on the fucking ground. I will use your fucking guts like tinsel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doorsanon 2012-06-12 11:50 am UTC (link)
	I'm not - I'm not going to bloody come after her again! [the writing gets sloppy, angry] I don't know what the lot of you think about me, but this isn't a fucking 'thing' that I do. I fucked up, you've rubbed my nose in it. I'm not going to bloody do it again. So save your blasted warnings. You're wasting them on me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

the_huntress
2012-06-12 12:21 pm UTC (link)

[She's so mad, it comes out in all caps.]

DON'T GIVE ME YOUR FUCKING EXCUSES. I WILL FUCKING END YOU IF YOU COME NEAR HER AGAIN. DON'T FUCKING APOLOGIZE, DON'T WHINE AND QUIBBLE LIKE THE LITTLE BITCH YOU ARE, STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM HER. DO YOU FUCKING GET THAT? I WILL USE YOUR EYES LIKE FUCKING OLIVES IN MY MARTINI AND WEAR YOUR FUCKING PINKY BONES FROM MY EARS. I WILL CARVE YOUR FUCKING HEART OUT AND EAT IT AS YOU DRAW YOUR LAST FUCKING BREATH IF YOU DO NOT STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM HER. GOT IT? ANY FUCKING QUESTIONS? KEEP THEM TO YOUR FUCKING SELF.

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	doorsanon 2012-06-12 10:06 pm UTC (link)
	WHERE THE HELL DID I EVER SAY I WOULD GO AFTER HER? ARE YOU AS BLIND AS YOU ARE PRESUMPTUOUS AND RUDE? FUCKING HELL. JUST SHUT YOUR GOD DAMNED MOUTH. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_huntress 2012-06-13 12:51 am UTC (link)
	GIVE ME ANOTHER ONE OF YOUR PITHY LITTLE RESPONSES ABOUT HOW YOU'LL TALK TO WHO EVER YOU WANT AND DO WHATEVER YOU WANT AND YOU'LL SEE HOW FUCKING RUDE I CAN GET. STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM HER. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT YOU DO AS LONG AS IT'S NOT NEAR MY CAT. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doorsanon 2012-06-13 12:57 am UTC (link)
	Did you not read the part where I said I had no intention of going near her? Apparently not. Learn to read, love. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_huntress 2012-06-13 01:13 am UTC (link)
	BEFORE OR AFTER YOUR "I'll do what I want." FUCK YOU. DONT CALL ME LOVE. I WILL HUNT YOUR ASS DOWN TO THE PITS OF HELL AND ROAST MARSHMALLOWS OVER YOUR BURNING SOUL MOTHERFUCKER. DO YOU GET IT? DONT TALK TO HER DONT COME NEAR HER DON'T EVEN FUCKING THINK ABOUT HER. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doorsanon 2012-06-13 01:17 am UTC (link)
	Sorry. Thinking about her now. You can blame yourself for that one, love. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anon / Clare J nonelementary 2012-06-13 01:23 am UTC (link)
	[She's been back-reading, catching up from all of John's time in London.] Micah, stop it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Anon / Clare J doorsanon 2012-06-13 01:24 am UTC (link)
	[...] This isn't your conversation, Clare. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Anon / Clare J nonelementary 2012-06-13 01:32 am UTC (link)
	[This comes after she's agreed to return to the apartment.] Yes it is now. Why are you doing this? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Anon / Clare J doorsanon 2012-06-13 01:34 am UTC (link)
	Are you saying I deserve to be treated like this? That I should just sit quietly while people all but threaten to kill me? Do you realise how many people have practically promised to kill me since this happened? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Anon / Clare J nonelementary 2012-06-13 01:39 am UTC (link)
	I never said you deserved it, but there's a difference between sitting quietly and purposely provoking people! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Anon / Clare J doorsanon 2012-06-13 01:45 am UTC (link)
	I'm provoking. It's good to know that you think I should simply sit here quietly and take the abuse that's being heaped upon me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Anon / Clare J nonelementary 2012-06-13 01:57 am UTC (link)
	You are not listening to me. I don't want someone to hurt you. But what else are people going to want to do if you say that you're still thinking about the woman you hurt? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Anon / Clare J doorsanon 2012-06-13 02:04 am UTC (link)
	I think about it all the fucking time, Clare. I have nightmares about that hotel, about what I did. I guess best policy according to the lot of you is to simply shut up about it. So I shall. We'll simply pretend it never happened. Shall I have dinner waiting for you when you come home? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Anon / Clare J nonelementary 2012-06-13 02:11 am UTC (link)
	[There's a delay as she tries to figure out how exactly to reply. In the past she'd probably let it go. But she's been changing lately because of the people she's been spending time with.] You're being a ~~dick~~ jerk to me when I'm trying to help you. [...] Don't bother. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Anon / Clare J doorsanon 2012-06-13 02:13 am UTC (link)
	[no response] (Reply to this) (Parent)

	the_huntress 2012-06-13 01:47 am UTC (link)
	Oh the sparkling wit. I AM ASTOUNDED YOU MISERABLE EXCUSE FOR A DEWY CUNTRAG, THAT THEY HAVEN'T THROWN YOU OUT OF THE FUCKING GENE POOL. You're boring me now. Stay away from her if you can scrape up enough brain cells from the bottom of your shit stained shoes to do so. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doorsanon 2012-06-13 01:48 am UTC (link)
	Part of me just wants to make your nightmares come true by paying her a visit. I won't touch her. I won't even talk to her. You won't even know it was me who was there. Do fuck off kindly, love. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_huntress 2012-06-13 01:59 am UTC (link)
	Worst nightmare? Please. Don't make me laugh. Rest assured if you are ever on fire, I will be happy to drink gasoline and piss on you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doorsanon 2012-06-13 02:04 am UTC (link)
	[No response to this] (Reply to this) (Parent)

	jukejoint 2012-06-13 02:07 am UTC (link)
	[She sees this, even though she shouldn't be looking, and it just panics the everliving fuck out of her.] (Reply to this) (Parent)