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Tweak says, "Son of a bitch"

It's a Graves thing (soundofwings) wrote in doors,
@ 2013-11-25 16:28:00

Entry tags:

death, harry osborn

[Joey A]
[She doesn't have anything to lose any more. Much calmer than she was with her last scribble. And willing to write, even though she feels like she should know better, though she doesn't care about that part at the moment. At least she's pretty sure Joey hasn't shouted at her for anything. It's very likely that the calm and the not-caring is chemical, as she knows her new doctors have been switching her medications. It doesn't stop the loose curl of letters from appearing.]

I'm sorry everything has been awful since you arrived.

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	Joey / Iris sybarite 2013-11-27 08:48 am UTC (link)
	Are you ready to talk? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris soundofwings 2013-11-27 03:59 pm UTC (link)
	They switched my medication, so even though I know I shouldn't be talking to any of you, I am. Just you though. You haven't shouted at me before. Or whatever shouting would be in the book. And I know that you probably can't hate me any more than you already do, but I wanted to say something. Plural you, not you you. Your family you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris sybarite 2013-11-27 11:59 pm UTC (link)
	What pisses me off about you, Iris, is when you don't listen to what I fucking say. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris soundofwings 2013-11-28 12:29 am UTC (link)
	[...] What? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris sybarite 2013-11-28 12:29 am UTC (link)
	I never told you that I hated you, so shut the fuck up. I'm sick of this shit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris soundofwings 2013-11-28 12:32 am UTC (link)
	Oh. [A very long pause.] Alright. I'm sorry. [After another moment.] You don't? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris sybarite 2013-12-03 01:26 am UTC (link)
	You're my sister, you don't hate you sisters. Rules. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris soundofwings 2013-12-03 01:37 am UTC (link)
	[Yes, another pause.] But I thought I was no longer part of the family. That would make me no longer your sister. [...] We've never even met, except on here. I can't see that it would be that much of a loss for you. Or the family. [...] It seems as if everyone else's decision is already made. I thought you would feel the same. I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris sybarite 2013-12-03 02:10 am UTC (link)
	The only way you'd stop being a part of the family is if you didn't want to be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris soundofwings 2013-12-03 02:41 am UTC (link)
	I [...] don't know. I don't want to not be. I don't think. But I'm so tired of doing things that hurt everyone. If being part of the family means continuing to hurt all of you, then I would prefer not. I don't know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris sybarite 2013-12-03 02:50 am UTC (link)
	Maybe its time you tried to think about what is IS you want, Iris. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris soundofwings 2013-12-03 03:13 am UTC (link)
	[Pen rest on the page.] I don't know. And I don't know if it matters at this point. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris sybarite 2013-12-03 03:16 am UTC (link)
	If it don't matter to you, sure as shit ain't goin to matter to no one else, Iris. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris soundofwings 2013-12-03 03:29 am UTC (link)
	No, I mean that even if I figured it out, what I want, I don't know if it matters any more. [...] I am here now and I don't know if I am going to be able to leave again. They would likely not recommend it, I am nearly positive of that. Either the doctors or the police. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris sybarite 2013-12-03 03:52 am UTC (link)
	They wont keep you in there forever. You'll be out eventually, get yourself a house full of cats. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris soundofwings 2013-12-03 04:01 am UTC (link)
	They might. [Pause.] Joey, they might. They keep coming to ask questions. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris sybarite 2013-12-03 05:54 am UTC (link)
	They only keep sick fucks in those kinds of places forever. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris soundofwings 2013-12-03 06:10 am UTC (link)
	Like the kinds that give their family over to be kidnapped and hurt and raped and tortured? That helps it happen and who knows what else in addition to that? I think they would keep those sorts of people forever, don't you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris sybarite 2013-12-03 06:24 am UTC (link)
	Kid, they don't even keep forever the people who who kidnap, hurt, rape, and torture. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris soundofwings 2013-12-03 06:30 am UTC (link)
	That's not what they say when they come to talk. One said that Ian was killed too soon and that someone has to be responsible for the things that happened. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Joey / Iris sybarite 2013-12-03 07:20 am UTC (link)
	The doctors said that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Joey / Iris

soundofwings
2013-12-03 02:46 pm UTC (link)

No, the detectives. They come and ask questions. And then they leave and think of more questions and come back to ask those. One is always nice and one is always mean, and I think they think I don't realize what they're doing. One says they want to help me. The other says that I'll always look like this or worse if I go back to prison, until someone kills me like they killed him. And I don't always understand how people don't realize that I can have good days and bad days with certain things, but I'm not stupid. Though I suppose there are plenty of people that could argue that as well. But I wasn't part of the things he did. I had thought he stopped. I hoped. I stayed there, he took care of me. There was never a time when he told me about things he may have been doing. He had promised me once that he was done. If I stayed with him. I had hoped that had held. [The ramble finally dies for the moment.]

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