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Akuba Maeko (giantfruitbyday) wrote in disappear_rpg,
@ 2010-01-30 04:44:00

Entry tags:

kanaye, maeko

Who: Maeko, Kanaye
What: Talking.
Where: The garden.
When: Post-dungeon, before beach.
Why: Because it's a safe place.

After her outburst in the dungeon, Maeko had been almost completely silent. Her ability to speak had left her the second Keiichi's shadow had fallen. As had, after struggling through an evening shift and back home and up the stairs on sheer adrenaline, her ability to stand.

Without the energy to even unroll her futon, she'd just slept with her head rested on the stupid cat doll.

The energy hadn't yet returned but Maeko was no stranger to forcing herself to stand and moving on sheer stubbornness. She picked up her phone at what felt like a horrible horrible early hour but was actually 8 and how had she slept for nine hours without not feeling not-tired and her neck hurt, she should have just unrolled the stupid futon.

And she sent a typo-ridden 'I'm headed for the garden. I'll meet you there if you show up'. And began stumbling down the stairs.

She didn't live far from noodle alley so she made it there quickly enough. The hands had attempted to but another blanket on her (why did they keep thinking she needed blankets? it was august) as she shuffled through the butterfly room into the garden.

She made it to somewhere in the centre before she let herself sit, in what was less sitting more her legs giving out and toppling to the ground.

And then she waited in silence. Sat on the ground, the various flowers were above her head. It was difficult to tell she was even there.

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	zealousemperor 2010-01-30 06:59 pm UTC (link)
	Kanaye nodded. "Everyone's scared. You're all just too brave to let that stop you. Me..." He shook his head. Accepting the hand, Kanaye stood up. "Exactly! You could always whine to me, Maeko-chan, but if you don't want to...Well, I'm looking forward to the beach trip, just the same as you!" He offered an arm. "Shall I walk you to your door?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	giantfruitbyday 2010-01-30 08:20 pm UTC (link)
	"You...what?" Maeko paused for clarification. She took Kanaye's arm, at least for while they were here and nobody could see. "I shouldn't be whining, we're all in the same boat right now." She shook her head. "I have to go into town first to pick some stuff up." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zealousemperor 2010-01-30 08:26 pm UTC (link)
	"Nevermind, Maeko-chan. Nevermind." Kanaye shook his head again. "So? You don't think any of them are whining to themselves, or to their friends? We're humans, Maeko-chan. Teenagers. We shouldn't have to deal with this stuff..." Kanaye smiled. "Well, can I come along, then? I've got nothing to do all day, so..." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

giantfruitbyday
2010-01-30 08:35 pm UTC (link)

"You sure?" Maeko asked but decided to stop prying and instead used the time to take one more look back at the garden. It was the only place she'd ever been that felt safe. But that was exactly why she shouldnt stay here too long. She'd get weak.

"We might not be humans anymore..." She mumbled, squeezing Kanaye's arm for a second. Her smile returned almost instantly. "If you want, I guess. It's just grocery shopping and picking up some stuff I forgot about until last minute."

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	zealousemperor 2010-01-30 08:40 pm UTC (link)
	Kanaye was confused. "Why wouldn't we be humans? It's not like that place is changing us. At least, not so far, at least. I haven't noticed anything. Is something wrong, Maeko-chan?" He asked, confused. "Yay! Let's go, Maeko-chan!" Kanaye started to walk, slowly, towards the door leading to the butterfly room. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	giantfruitbyday 2010-01-30 08:54 pm UTC (link)
	Maeko just shook her head. "It's probably nothing. I was just worried that those things might be having an effect on us." She nodded and started to walk, not hurrying Kanaye's pace at all. It was nice here, after all. She couldn't stay but taking her time leaving was always an option. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zealousemperor 2010-01-30 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	"Why would they?" Kanaye asked, confused. "We're fine, aren't we? If you're worried, we could ask someone else..." As they finally got to the butterfly room, Kanaye waved at the hands again (Kou/Masami? Ugh...) and was about to leave until he noticed Maeko was still on his arm. He let go, rather hesitantly. "Uh, sorry, Maeko-chan. Shall we go?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	giantfruitbyday 2010-01-30 09:08 pm UTC (link)
	"You're probably right. I'm sure we're fine." Maeko said, shaking her head and apparently shaking the concern off. Letting go was probably for the best. And as she did and passed through the door she once again found herself immersed in the stupid, not-safe world. "Are you all ready for the trip, then?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zealousemperor 2010-01-30 09:13 pm UTC (link)
	"Oh, certainly." Kanaye looked around. "I've been ready for a while, now. It'll be great. There will be beaches, and fireworks, and..." Kanaye smiled. "Well, I'm done for it." "Hey, speaking of which..." Kanaye looked at Maeko oddly. "Your parents are letting you go? I'm kind of shocked, really." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

giantfruitbyday
2010-01-30 09:33 pm UTC (link)

"Ah. I left everything until last minute in case-" She cut off suddenly. 'in case I needed to do last-minute bloodstain laundry' had a 95% chance of making the conversation really awkward. "-well, it certainly sounds fun."

"Why wouldn't they? They let me move out before." She shrugged. "The overprotective thing stoped mattering when I learned to talk. Since then... I said it was club activities anyway."

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zealousemperor
2010-01-30 09:37 pm UTC (link)

Kanaye blinked but shrugged. "Well, I certainly hope so! I want everyone to have a good time." He laughed. "It'd defeat the purpose if no one had fun, after all."

"Fair point. Saying "I'm going over to an ex-boyfriend's house for a week or so" can't exactly work out, right?" He chuckled. "Well, I'm glad everyone can come. I really wouldn't want Kiriko-san or Shirai-san to come, but..." He shrugged. "I want to include everyone."

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giantfruitbyday
2010-01-30 09:43 pm UTC (link)

"I'm sure everyone will. It's the beach, right? So I'm sure people'll like being there."

"Yeah, that probably wouldn't go so well. Especially since I never actually told them I had a boyfriend in the first place." She shrugged. "It's important that we stick together as a group just in case someone...I don't think it'll happen but. Besides! Ikeda-san is Kondo-san's friend, right? She'd probably be upset if she weren't included."

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zealousemperor
2010-01-30 09:46 pm UTC (link)

"Of course! Everyone likes the beach. Except for, like, crazy people." Which includes everyone in our group, but... "So we should be fine."

"Oh? Why not? You'd think you'd tell your parents these things. My parents knew we were dating, but that's more because of rumors." He shrugged. "Yeah, that's what I was thinking. Kozue-chan and Kiriko-san are friends..for some reason. She probably would, yeah. And Reizo would break things if I didn't invite him, probably."

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	giantfruitbyday 2010-01-30 09:54 pm UTC (link)
	"Really? It's not like they ever asked or anything. And my dad doesn't exactly hear rumours." She said, shrugging. "Yeah, it's best to avoid annoying Shirai-san too much if it's possible." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zealousemperor 2010-01-30 09:56 pm UTC (link)
	"I don't know. It's just...something I'd think people would share, especially if their parents were like yours. "I'm dating" would be something you might want to say." He winced. "Uh, sorry. Didn't mean that." "Seriously. I really wish I could hurt him, but..." He sighed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	giantfruitbyday 2010-01-30 11:49 pm UTC (link)
	"Really? I just thought since they never asked they probably didn't care that much." She lied, shrugging. "It's just a phrase. It doesn't bother me that much unless I'm annoyed already." "It's not something that's going to change. Wishing'll just make you disappointed." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zealousemperor 2010-01-30 11:52 pm UTC (link)
	"Parents always care for their kids, Maeko-chan. I'm sure they would want to know if you were dating. If you didn't tell them, things might get ugly if they found out otherwise." Kanaye laughed sheepishly. "Well...sorry, anyway." "I already am. It's so fucking annoying that they get to do what they want!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

giantfruitbyday
2010-01-31 12:09 am UTC (link)

Maeko shrugged again. "I'm not sure if they'd approve of dating." There was a slight pause between 'approve' and 'of dating' but not enough to merit ellipsis. "If they don't know about it they can't tell me not to so."

"There's not much point in wanting it to be any different, though. There'll always be untouchable jerks in the world. All you can do is ignore it and try to stay on thier good side."

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zealousemperor
2010-01-31 12:45 am UTC (link)

"Well, we are teenagers. They'd just have to deal with it, especially if they know someone was treating you right and you liked them back." Kanaye shrugged. "That doesn't mean you have to listen to them."

"If there are untouchable jerks in the world, I want to make them realize they are touchable. I don't care what happens to me. I just want to show them they're the same as all of us."

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	giantfruitbyday 2010-01-31 12:55 am UTC (link)
	Maeko shook her head. "I don't think I could not listen. It's much less trouble to just not let them know." "You should care. Other people care." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zealousemperor 2010-01-31 12:58 am UTC (link)
	"Well, if you think so. I tell my parents about it, but that's just so my mom stops asking if I have a girlfriend. It's quite annoying. I think she wants grandkids." "...Sorry, Maeko-chan." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	giantfruitbyday 2010-01-31 01:13 am UTC (link)
	Maeko laughed. "I'm not sure my parents care about that at all." She squeezed his hand briefly and smiled. "I care what happens to you, even if you don't." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zealousemperor 2010-01-31 01:17 am UTC (link)
	"Well, if you're not sure, you could always ask. I mean, you could just ask 'Are you ok with me dating' or something." He shrugged. "Or you could not." He squeezed back. "Thanks, Maeko-chan." He was quiet a bit. "...Have you decided?" he asked quietly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

giantfruitbyday
2010-01-31 02:21 am UTC (link)

"They might say no. And then I wouldn't be able to."

-And ste stopped in her tracks. That was a really awkward question to ask.

But she kind of had. Worked it out. At least as far as she needed to. They might all die, still, after all. But words weren't really so great for expressing anything.

So she just nodded, squeezed Kanaye's hand again, and continued walking.

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	zealousemperor 2010-01-31 02:27 am UTC (link)
	"You don't have to listen to them, yaknow. Just make sure they don't find out. And which would be worse: Doing so, and finding out they didn't like it, and doing it anyway and maybe getting in trouble, or not doing so, do it anyway, and definitely get in trouble." Kanaye squeezed her hand back. "...So what was it?" He said under his breath. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)