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Tweak says, "And that's my final answer!"

Sakuraba Masami 桜庭雅美 (sakurabamasami) wrote in disappear_rpg,
@ 2009-12-25 20:52:00

Entry tags:

masami, toru, yoshimi

Who: Masami, Toru, and Yoshimi
What: Collective despair
Where: The Butterfly Room
When: At some point after Renju's dungeon and the drama explosion
Why: WE'RE IN DESPAIR~!

Masami swung her katana down with a shout. She was wearing a white gi and black hakama, which she normally wore for kendo, and her hair was tied back in a long ponytail. Beads of sweat glistened on her forehead, and her breathing was beginning to grow heavy, but she reset and swung again. And again. And again.

She had lost control during the fight with Renju's shadow, and she knew it. Had that been the only reason they'd won? Maybe the others had just written it off as her being caught up in the moment, but... Masami still felt like she shouldn't have lost it like that. If everyone knew what she was holding back... Well, she just needed to be extra careful to maintain control of herself. On top of that, Masami couldn't shake the nagging feeling that she wasn't strong enough after all, and needed to train. If she wasn't good for defeating shadows, what use was she at all?

She'd been training for at least a couple hours before someone else entered the butterfly room.

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omgboyskissing
2010-01-02 02:45 am UTC (link)

"...you can use my given name, if you want." On a better night, this statement would have been accompanied by Yoshimi grinning like a cat, imitating the we're friends, right? bit from USF7, and offering Toru the spare key to her apartment and a guaranteed place to crash for as long as Kanaye kept being a stupid downerface. Tellingly, she did none of these things, and instead looked just as distant as she had after that last battle in Paradise.

"It's not a cold. It's... you shouldn't feel sorry for me." She sighed and drew her knees up to her chest. Getting undeserved sympathy from her teammates was just making her feel worse.

"Besides, it's not like you have to worry about me." Deep breath. Best to get the announcement over with quickly, like ripping off a Sticky Band (a concept that Yoshimi, through her constant clumsiness-related injuries, had become quite with). "Because I'm, um, I-I'm quitting the investigation team! S-so we won't be teammates or anything."

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sakurabamasami
2010-01-02 03:05 am UTC (link)

"I could try to talk to Sagaki-senpai for you, Ishinomori-san. I think he would at least let you stay until all this blows over," Masami offered.

Masami was surprised at Yoshimi's announcement, but given the circumstances, she couldn't really fault her. "Tachibana-san... well, I can't say I blame you. What we went through last time was... really hard," began Masami.

She looked down at her tea. "I'm sorry, Tachibana-san. If I had been stronger, you wouldn't have had to deal with that. I feel like I can't really help the group with much besides defeating shadows, and... I guess it was a failure on my part that I wasn't strong enough to keep the situation from getting as bad as it did. That's why I've been training here so much since then..."

"I think we're all stuck in this together, but if you don't think you can keep going, then I won't make you risk your life in there against your will. It's tough in there, even for me. I just... well, you did really well in there last time, even in those tough conditions. It'd be nice to have someone as reliable as you in there though..."

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2dbeauty
2010-01-04 07:47 am UTC (link)

Toru stood and walked over to the couch, then sat down, leaning against one side of it. The position was far better if he was going to have a conversation.

"S-sagaki-senpai..." A hint of trepidation crept into his tone. He wasn't over those warnings about Kazuya quite yet, but he was trying now, wasn't he? "I-I guess it'd be okay... he wouldn't mind me that much, would he?" It was better than a sulky Kanaye, at least.

Looking over his shoulder, Toru fixed Yoshimi with a serious look. "...you... Yoshimi-san... no. You're part of the team, w-whether you like it or not. It's not like there's anyone to take your place! You're a Persona-user. L-like it or not, we're a finite group. Every person counts..."

He then turned his face back away, giving an unfocused gaze towards the paintings on the wall. "'Sides, y-you could be the next victim. They've... we've, rather... all been Persona-users... It'll be safer for you to stay close to us. W-we can protect you.

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