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Aoi, Misaki (pinksunbeam) wrote in disappear_rpg,
@ 2009-11-27 22:19:00

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maeko, misaki

Who: Misaki and Maeko
When: After the whole discovery of S!Tom
Where: Dorm room
What: Talk about the party and what happened after
Why: Because we're evil I tell you...

Misaki was sitting on the bed and sighed as she read what happened at the party after her little vanishing act with Keiichi. She felt bad about what had happened earlier in the evening and knew that Maeko was going to probably have something to say about it. She was mentally prepared for anything.

Her body was still sore, and she had to wonder if her clothing still had a smell from...No she wouldn't dare to think like that. Maeko would probably freak out if she knew.

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giantfruitbyday
2009-11-29 12:32 am UTC (link)

"That's not what I meant. Fighting with Satou-senpai in front of me. Following me just to have an audience for you fighting with him more. Demanding I and others forgive people just because they were nice to you once. Even what you've just said now. 'Oh, I know Keiichi would care if I vanished and never came back but I don't think you would'. All of it, manipulative."

"It doesn't matter. I'm not going to leave him anyway, it's the same result."

Maeko pulled her hands away, hiding them in the opposite sleeves. "Before I could talk. Does it really matter?"

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pinksunbeam
2009-11-29 04:30 am UTC (link)

"I didn't follow you to argue with him. I followed you because I was worried about you! Satou-sempai has a very very bad habit of drinking to the point where he's...well beyond being an idiot at times! I'm worried he's going to do something that's going to hurt you!" Misaki said and looked up at her. "I was fighting with him because you looked uncomfortable, that's why I was doing that. I didn't want people to see and get the wrong idea. That's all you need is for someone to start talking about how Akuba-san just let Satou-san go all over her."

Misaki was fuming now, "And so what if I ask you or the others to give people a second chance. It's selfish to assume that if someone does one wrong thing that means that they're a terrible person! Yes I know that Gendou-sempai isn't the nicest of people, and I know Arai-sempai can be mean, and I know Reizo-kun's a jerk at times. But there are other sides to people! It's like me saying that Toshi-chan is a jerk because she smiles all the time. Is that right of me to just assume that because I didn't like the fact that she couldn't do much but smile when we were trying to save you?"

Misaki looked at her directly, "Because I believed that you wouldn't really miss me. Because, I didn't believe that you really would miss me if I left. Because right now it seems that Satou-sempai gets the real Maeko Akuba and I don't get to see her! That's why I feel that way! Because I can't tell if you WOULD miss me or not! And it's not fair."

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giantfruitbyday
2009-11-29 04:50 am UTC (link)

"I don't need you to do anything like that. Even if he would do anything to hurt me I'm more than capable of taking care of myself."

"It's far more selfish to demand that everybody feel the same way you do about something. Or justify thier behaviour by saying that that their victims are somehow the ones at fault. And comparing smiling a lot to attacking others or sprreading rumours that could destroy people's lives?"

Maeko didn't look annoyed at all anymore but her tone carried it better than her face ever could.

"And if one fuck is more proof to you of devotion than five years of friendship then I might have made a mistake with this after all."

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pinksunbeam
2009-11-29 07:21 am UTC (link)

"I know you are, but at times...it just seems like you...you let him get a way with things that you never used to let me get away with at all. I'm just worried that he's going to wind up doing something or saying something that's going to hurt you." Misaki tried to explain.

She crossed her arms, "I'm not DEMANDING anything. I'm just defending the fact that I don't think that you can assume that everything has to be black and white. One thing or the other. And I'm not justifying the behavior at all. I didn't say it was okay for Ginjiro to do that to the dorms. I don't think it's okay for Retsu-sempai to spread rumors, and I don't think that anyone has a right to call Kozue-chan names either!"

Misaki paused, "You don't get it do you. You said yourself to me that you forced yourself to like me. Then you come back after my dungeon and I said okay to being friends again. You said you worry that I'm manpulativie, well I worry that you're still forcing yourself to like people, and not just me in this case." She bit her lip. "I'm not saying he's devoted to me, I never said that at all. All I said was that I know he would miss me, but you...I want to believe you would miss me. I want to believe you would care that I was gone, but I'm terrified of the fact that you might be forcing yourslf to like me again."

Misaki stared at her and said softly, "I'd just like it if I could actually feel something off you Maeko. I know you care about me, you show me that all the time. But showing you care by looking up facts on a computer and showing you care physically are...they're different. I'm not looking for you to do something that you can't do. Just...I don't know, Touch my arm, flip my hair, do something that shows that phyisically you care about me. Toy with me, tease me. That's what best friends do. They walk around and hang out linking arms, hold hands a times, play around with one another. "

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giantfruitbyday
2009-11-29 04:58 pm UTC (link)

"What wouldn't I have let you get away with before?" She sighed. "He's not going to hurt me. I'm well prepared for anything he could say and I already know the whole thing's probably just some stupid joke anyway. I just want to take the bait and be tricked and believe that someone actually might care about me that much. I'm not pretty like you and I can't afford to use what little precious studying time I have to bake and bribe people with sweets. Something like this might be my only chance."

"It's demanding when you refuse to drop the subject until you get your way. It's justifying thier behaviour when you tell people that they should tolerate and forgive it just because Retsu-senpai's doing it for is boyfriend. Or when you say senpai deserved for Shirai to attack him for defending Sonozaki-san and-" she paused. She wanted to mention Shiori but there was no way Shiori could have been at that meeting. "-that other girl."

"Missing someone implies devotion. You really think he'd miss you? He'd just use you as an excuse to skip school for a week again and move on to the next girl he thinks he'll be able to talk sex out of easily. It took what, less than two weeks for him to move on from Kondo-san to you? Komdo-san who he apparently loved just as much?" Maeko's voice took on a tone of disgust. She'd been suspisious already but willing to trust him for Misaki's sake. Her opinion of Keiichi now? At an all-time low.

"If that's what you wanted the whole time why did you not just ask?"

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