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Tweak says, "fight the fairies!"

Akuba Maeko (giantfruitbyday) wrote in disappear_rpg,
@ 2009-11-17 19:41:00

Entry tags:

maeko, misaki

Who: Misaki, Maeko
What: Discussion
Where: Dorm room
When: After exams
Why: I was envious of Bel and Alice's girly threads.

There were two desks in the dorm room, each facing the wall. Maeko had claimed one for herself when they first moved in and in the month or so that followed she had slowly built what seemed to be a fortress made of clutter. It looked something like a puzzle, everything was organized so carefully and the desk was so very full that if even one thing was out of place the whole set up would be in grave danger of collapsing upon itself.

This was force of habit more than anything. The desk drawers were functional but unused despite the fact that they would probably make the desk area a lot less dangerous. It would become a little safer once she cleared her revision material away, maybe.

Maeko sat in the centre of this mess with her back to Misaki, clicking away madly. She had been there for the last hour or so, with a look on her face that communicated very, very effectively that she was working on something and it would be a bad idea to distract her.

And then, as if she was intentionally trying to bring the rediculousness of the whole situation to a peak, she sent a message to Misaki. Misaki, who was in the same room as her. And who would have to look for her phone.

[Hey, look at this.]

She stood up from her chair and stretched, moving to the side to allow Misaki to see the screen.

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	pinksunbeam 2009-11-19 05:11 pm UTC (link)
	Misaki was getting more and more excited and she was pratically jumping with excitment. "Oh my gosh. Oh my gosh. That would be amazing. I'll scan in all my drawings. Oh but won't we need someone to take pictures and movies and stuff?" Misaki blinked some, "What about Retsu-sempai! He's head of the Audio and Visual club. Bet he would know how to make video." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	giantfruitbyday 2009-11-19 05:18 pm UTC (link)
	"Retsu-senpai?" Maeko shook her head, waving a hand. "With his current reputation, I think a lot of people'd be creeped out if he was the one recording videos of girls." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

pinksunbeam
2009-11-19 05:29 pm UTC (link)

"Maybe, but wouldn't it help him a bit to show he's not a bad guy. You know in the hospital he came in when he had breaks to play cards with me and he taped some of my shows that I couldn't see there. He was actually really nice." Misaki fingered her sleeve.

"I mean it would be really bad if I told Kanaye-sempai to give Kazuya-sempai a second chance, and then not give it for Retsu-sempai?"

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giantfruitbyday
2009-11-19 05:35 pm UTC (link)

"If he's been nice to you then it's not your place to decide he deserves a second chance." Maeko said painly, deciding now would be as good a time as ever to try out this 'honesty' thing. "Rumours like the ones he spreads can destroy people. Playing cards and taping shows for other people doesn't change what he's done and it doesn't mean he's done even so much as apologise."

And with almost a hint of anger. "It's not your place to decide if Arai-san deserves a second chance, either."

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pinksunbeam
2009-11-19 05:54 pm UTC (link)

"I see, well maybe you should talk to him about saying he's sorry. Or talk to Asabi-sempai. He might be able to talk to Retsu-sempai. We all do bad things Maeko-chan, and while I don't agree with what he did, that still doesn't mean that he can't change and that if he does, he should be given a chance to prove that he's not that bad a person."

She paused, "I just think that Arai-san...he actually talked to me after the PA inccident and got me to understand why what I had done was wrong. I just...there's something really wrong with his situation and well, getting mad at him the way that Kanaye-sempai did, even though Arai sempai tried to appologize for doing that."

Misaki went over to the computer and brought up her journal, "He showed me this. (http://puppetofhisown.insanejournal.com/762.html) When we were talking."

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giantfruitbyday
2009-11-19 06:23 pm UTC (link)

Maeko shook her head. "Telling someone to say they're sorry defies the point completely. They're supposed to realize what they did was wrong, not just apolozise to save face. If he changes then that's fine but the fact that he might change doesn't mean a thing."

"How people act toward you doesn't change a thing about how others should react to them." Maeko said, deciding to ignore the implication that she, Kiriko and Kanaye doing that exact same thing meant nothing. "And their situations don't change that either and they don't that make thier actions any better or worse."

She sighed, looking over Misaki's shoulder. She wondered for a second why she hadn't seen that entry before. The date answered that question at first, it had been put up while she was gone.

"The date." She said calmly. "He's attacked senpai again since then. When you apologise there's an implication that you recognise what you've done is wrong and don't intend to do it agai-"

She paused, reading the first few comments and then quickly scrolling back up, and frowned. She'd finally noticed the privacy settings.

"I don't know why you can read this and it doesn't really matter." She said, anger returning to her voice. "But you do realize what a massive violation of privacy showing this to me is, right?"

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pinksunbeam
2009-11-19 07:39 pm UTC (link)

"He was the one that unlocked it for me. A person can't say their sorry until they can understand why something is wrong. But there are times that a person thinks they're doing right in order to protect someone else." Misaki calmly explained and shook her head.

"So you're saying it's okay for Kanaye-sempai to act one way but not Retsu-sempai? I know what sempai did was wrong, and I know it hurt people. But look at what my shadow did and I'm taking full responsiblity for that. I'm sorry but, I don't think it's just fair to assume that everything he does is out of malice."

Misaki looked honestly at Maeko, "Maybe I am as naieve as Sempai says, but even so, I just don't like the idea of being angry and hostile at someone because of what they did before. It's like saying that no one can change and that even if we try to change people will only regard us for what we did that was wrong rather then looking at what we do that's right."

She sighed, "Retsu-sempai kept me from getting suspended. He talked the board into a more leniant punishment. I'm grateful for that. You think he's a creep because what he did before, but just becuase you don't agree with what he did doesn't mean I have to see him as a bad person Maeko-chan."

Misaki thought a moment, "My brother used to be a terrible flirt. Worse then anyone at this school. He probably had three or four girls on his arm. But you know what, he changed, and Retsu-sempai could too if given the chance."

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giantfruitbyday
2009-11-19 08:03 pm UTC (link)

"Retsu-senpai has been told that he's doing it wrong and has continued to do it. If he wanted to change then he would have by now." She paused, forcing herself to see Misaki as anyone else at all. "I don't understand what you're saying about Satou-senpai, you'll need to elaborate."

"Shadows don't count. They just just what people want. People are more than that, they take the effects of thier actions into consideration when making decisions. Retsu is not a shadow and has no excuse for not being able to recognize the difference between what he should and shouldn't do."

She hesitated for a second, frowning. Imagining Misaki as Tom was helping but was disturbing for all sorts of reasons, most of which involved the inherent creepiness of Tom being in thier room. After a few second's holding her breath, she spoke again. Slowly and deliberately, as if somehow verbally testing whether metaphorical ice could carry weight.

"Honestly..." Okay, no cracks so far. "It's selfish to say that other people should forgive someone just because of how they've acted toward you. It's insulting that you'd imply that how people treat you should have more of an impact than how they'd treat everyone else." She sped up and began to talk more quietly toward the end, physically flinching when she was done.

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