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Akuba Maeko ([info]giantfruitbyday) wrote in [info]disappear_rpg,
@ 2009-09-25 05:26:00

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Entry tags:maeko, misaki

Who: Maeko, Misaki
What: Discussion.
Where: Outside school, whereever they end up.
When: After Misaki's detention is done with.
Why: There is a time and a place (and, really, a correct method) for friendship speeches. This was only really the first and not quite that.

Maeko sat on the wall outside the main entrance of the school, kicking her legs. The student council meeting had ended about half an hour ago (Kiriko's absence was notable but not particularly surprising) and she was waiting for the detentions to do the same. It was as good a time as any to start on the day's homework and she pulled faces at the notebook on her lap, clearly because it was confusing her deliberately.

She'd already called Misaki's mother, telling her she knew Misaki was in detention but they'd already had plans to update the school website and would it be okay if they still did that, casually mentionning offhand that she was doing it because 'maintaining website for Nanakamado' looked good on a college application. After a few years fruitless mediation she generally knew how to do this.

She frowned and pouted and tapped her pen impatiently on the notebook, waiting for the questions to answer themselves (or at least be less confusing). When they didn't and she noticed a mass of pink approaching she replaced her notebook in her back, pushed off the wall onto her feet, and waved. "Hey, Misa-chan!"


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[info]apathyisboring
2009-09-26 09:23 pm UTC (link)
For the duration of the student council meeting and then some, Kiriko had been arguing her case to the authorities. She had jumped through all of the correct hoops, contacted all of the right people, and entered what she felt was the correct plea bargain, and while she had succeded in verifying that the ban from student council was impermanent, there was only so much you could do when a cleanup crew was spending the week replacing the wiring and undoing the nails from school property. An impasse was reached when the council president would do nothing but remind her that she was lucky not to have to pay for the renovations, and she had finally given up for the day. She bitterly remembered that he had never much liked her anyway as she pushed open the school doors and started out of them, running into Maeko and Misaki.

She paused, adjusting the strap of her back. Was this the time to intrude? Really, she should talk to both of them. Maeko certainly had the sense to know that Misaki shouldn't have done that, but most likely would never be firm enough to get the message across. Meanwhile, she might be able to ask Akuba to put in a good word for her. She approached the two, despite the fact that the scene looked almost uncomfortably intimate from her perspective (but then, that may be the gossip tinting her reaction).

"Hi." She meant to follow that up with something, but played like she was still busy with her bag as she cast around for something else to say. "I guess you're both talking about today?"

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-09-26 10:35 pm UTC (link)
Letting go of Misaki, Maeko looked up quickly. She hadn't thought there'd be many people still around. At least it wasn't Kanaye. The last thing they needed right now was jokes.

"Yeah." Maeko said, nodding. She considered adding more but she couldn't think of anything neutral enough.

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[info]apathyisboring
2009-09-26 11:10 pm UTC (link)
She canted her head and waited for more, but nothing came. Her eyes shifted from Maeko to Misaki. Well, no time like the present...

"Could I talk to you about that, Misaki-chan?"

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[info]zealousemperor
2009-09-27 04:49 am UTC (link)
Kanaye sighed as he walked out of the school building. He lost Misaki and managed to be late to class anyway. He spent most of the day in varying stages of boredom, and soccer club didn't help any.

This is why it was a rather pleasant surprise to find Misaki, Maeko, and Kiriko in one nice spot. "Oh, there you are, Misachan!" he said, walking over. "Sorry about earlier, I just wanted Yoshichan to feel better, yaknow?" Kanaye nodded to Maeko and Kiriko. "I take it that's what you were talking about?"

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-09-29 10:52 pm UTC (link)
Misaki looked down, her hair brushing her cheeks some. Was it true? Could people not change like that? She had, despite what she wanted, she'd changed herself into what others wanted in a way. Rubbing her arm she thought of what Maeko had said. Maeko was strong, she understood things better, and she felt certain ways about things. She wasn't scared of being honest or strong...

"I guess not, it's just," she sighed some and wiped her eyes. "I thought that if they could see that they're really nice people, that they might find something similar, but...I guess Horoko-neesan is right, people like me are going to get squashed one of these days because we don't get that people can't be nice..."

Misaki clenched her fist hard and shook her head, "But I don't want to believe that! I can't! It...it's stupid to think that people are just all jerks and full of themselves! I mean...is it so wrong to want people to be happy?"

It was a redundant question, it wasn't like Maeko was going to answer that, yes, people wanted to be miserable. So why was it so hard for them to get along, just for a while? When Maeko hugged her Misaki sighed, sometimes she wished that Maeko was her sister, but then she reminded herself that Maeko would probably get annoyed with her like her own sisters did, so it wasn't worth the wish.

Hearing Kiriko's voice Misaki looked up and blinked and slowly nodded, looking at her feet. "You're...You're going to say I disappointed you...aren't you Kiriko-chan."

Looking up she paused when Kanaye came in and she hid behind Maeko, it was one thing for Maeko and another for Kiriko to be there, but Kanaye...he thought she was an idiot, plain and simple. She nodded in response but cringed some, and said in a soft voice, "I...I didn't mean to hurt her...I just...just thought that..."

Tears were forming again, why did she have to cry like this. Maeko didn't cry, Kozue, didn't cry, Kiriko...well Kiriko only cried when something was really clearly upsetting her and it was worth crying over. Right now Misaki was sure that they saw her as a baby.

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-09-29 11:20 pm UTC (link)
"Hey, hey. Don't cry..." Maeko began, shaking her head. "You can apologise to Tachibana-san tomorrow. If you like we can buy some sweets for you to give her, too. Or you could make something."

Maeko didn't particularly want to force Misaki to talk if it was going to upset her but she doubted she'd be able to get through to her herself. She had, afterall, been trying and failing for years. She trusted Kiriko at least not to be malicious.

"Let Ikeda-san talk, okay? Nobody thinks you were trying to hurt anyone."

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[info]zealousemperor
2009-09-29 11:25 pm UTC (link)
Kanaye had to resist the urge to either: A) Take a picture, or B) sigh. Misaki really did have a fractured psyche, didn't she? He just stood still, keeping quiet. Anything he could say would just probably make it worse. Naturally, he started talking. "We know you weren't trying to hurt her, just..." Kanaye shut up, for once.

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-09-30 12:00 am UTC (link)
"Just...Just what? Just you being dumb you again, right Satou-sempai! Of course everyone knows that Aoi-chan is just some pink haired little sugar puff with nothing under her head. She's nothing but a pale pink cotton candy that sees the world only with shades of roses. Right?" She burst out and looked down at the ground.

"I'm just a selfish person, I know I am. I just want people to be nice to one another so...so that they can be nice to me, but that's not how the real world works, is it," she wiped her eyes as hot tears leaked out. "Everyone's out for themselves and no one really cares about one another. It's a stupid idea..."

"Maybe Sagaki-sempai's right...maybe I see the world too happily. There's no such thing as people really caring. I mean...heck, people are just probably feeling sorry for me because they think I'm just an idiot who only got this power by chance. I just happened to be at the wrong place at the right time, or is that the reverse..." Misaki cried out and pulled up her knees not caring if she looked like a child in doing it. "Maybe I should stop caring too..."

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[info]zealousemperor
2009-09-30 12:10 am UTC (link)
Kanaye just stared. Just stared a bit before glaring. "Ok, you know what? Fuck this. Fuck this to hell. Everything I touch turns to crap anyways, why not my relationships and friends as well! Hell, were you even my friend or do you just act like a nice little person to EVERYONE?" he said, stamping on the ground, trying not to cry and failing miserably. "How the fuck can you say that people don't give you the respect you deserve when you insult me AGAIN at the same time. Just...FUCK! You can't expect people to get along with people when you don't even notice when you insult people or say things or say things that shouldn't be said and you shouldn't say them out loud in front of everyone and...FUCK!" he shouted, running away.

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-09-30 12:22 am UTC (link)
Maeko rubbed her forehead slowly. She was already way too exhausted for this. They were supposed to be moving into the dorm room tomorrow and now this. She'd have to argue her case to Mrs Aoi again, too, after that incident. An arguement about living for herself making her more self-dependant would probably win her back easily enough but it was trouble she didn't need.

"Senpai-" She began uselessly, a little too late since Kanaye was already gone. She shook her head. One thing at a time, even if things were continuously coming up faster than she could deal with them.

"Misa-chan..." She started again, doing her best not to make the whole thing worse than it actually was. Walking on eggshells indeed. "Nobody thinks..."

"Please calm down. Nobody thinks you're stupid and nobody hates you. Making people get along is a difficult thing, it's natural that you won't manage it al the time and there's nothing that can be done about it now. Just calm down and don't do it again. You can apologise to everyone and I'll fix whatever damage has been done." She shook her head and smiled. "If you have an idea like that in future then tell me about it first, okay? That way if it's a bad idea it doesn't hurt anyone and if its a good idea I can help you."

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-09-30 12:46 am UTC (link)
"I...I didn't mean to...damn it...why is it that I can't..." Misaki gritted her teeth and got up. "Just being nice... maybe he's right Maeko-chan. Maybe I'm just being nice to everyone because I can't be nice to myself."

She looked after Kanaye and then down again, "He's right you know. I am nice to everyone Maeko-chan. I...sometimes I can't tell really who I really like and who I'm being nice to just because I want them to like me."

Misaki started to laugh but she was still crying, "It's amazing how cruel I really am. I try to be nice but it only hurts others. Satou-san's right. I'm a horrible person, I'm worse then the shadows we've met. I...I don't deserve to have friends in the long run."

Trembling Misaki looked down at her hands and shook. Would they be able to forgive her for this? She doubted it.

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-09-30 01:00 am UTC (link)
"There's nothing wrong with being nice to people, Misa-chan." Maeko began. "Even if you think you're doing it for the wrong reasons it's still the right thing to do. It's only hurting people when you don't think it through first and that's what we're trying to fix."

Were any of her words even getting through? She sometimes doubted it.

"Everyone deserves friends, don't say things like that..."

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-09-30 01:08 am UTC (link)
"I just don't feel very good Maeko," Misaki mumbled. True what Maeko said was getting into her head, and mushing around with other things that had been planted in there by Misaki's old 'so called' friends from when she was younger. Smiling, turning off her emotions...it was then that something hit her and she crumpled more so against Maeko.

"Oh god...oh god...Keiichi-sempai...Maeko-chan, I kissed him and didn't even think about...Oh god..."

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-09-30 01:48 am UTC (link)
Maeko suddenly wondered if physical harm toward Keichii would solve anything. It probably, she resolved, would not. The temptations was thill there, though. How dare he take advantage of Misa-chan in the way she had just jumped to the conclusion that he had?

She shook her head, trying to calm herself down. Later.

"It's okay. Don't worry." She looked pleadingly at Kiriko, fast running out of things to say. "Once you've spoken to Ikena-san, we'll go get something to drink and you can calm down, okay?"

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-09-30 01:55 am UTC (link)
Misaki nodded weakly. She knew Kiriko was going to ring her out for this outburst. She was sure of it and it only made her tremble even more. Why...why did she have to be so weak. Why couldn't she be stronger or smarter. Why couldn't she just do the right thing, know how to calm down a situation. It...It was just too much.

"O-o-okay," Misaki said with a quaking voice.

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[info]apathyisboring
2009-09-30 02:54 am UTC (link)
Kiriko shifted uncomfortably. She had very clearly lost control of the situation and was not entirely certain what to do about it other than clear her throat and watch Kanaye darkly throughout his outburst and subsequent departure.

With Misaki apparently officially turned over to her, she felt the firm, nigh-parental stare she had earlier decided on melting away. Instead, her eyes darted, her fingers coming up to touch almost nervously to her temples. She stepped forward and placed one hand firmly on Misaki's shoulder.

"Misaki-chan. I know you were just trying to help, but these things need to be planned out better. The next time you get an idea like that, please come to me first, okay? I talked to Tachibana-san, and I'll talk to the rest of them for you. You have to keep in mind, we don't want to make our associations any more obvious than they are, either. Just be more careful next time."

She looked to Maeko for backup on this one, only half expecting to recieve it. Akuba coddled her. Kiriko was accessory to that crime now, but right now it seemed like anything firmer would be like stepping on a kitten. Once she was calmer, then...

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-09-30 03:56 am UTC (link)
"I...I...I'm a horrible person," Misaki was trembling and bit her lip. "I kissed Keiichi-kun without thinking about how he would feel about it. I said things to Kanaye-sempai just because I got jealous of Shiori-chan, I got jealous of Kozue-chan because I thought that she...she was going to be special to Keiichi-kun so I...I..."

The pink hair girl shook her head, "I'm like one of those horrible mean girls in Anime or dramas. The one that acts nice but under that she's nothing but a shallow person. I'm the worst to think that I deserve anyone to be friends with me..."

Her eyes were wide with horror, "Dear god...Satou-sempi's right...I'm terrible...just..."

If not for Kiriko's hands on her shoulder Misaki would be on the ground. She was breathing harder then she should and swallowing things. "How Sato-kun must have thought of me, no wonder Oubai-sempai hated the idea of being chained to me...I would hate it too if I were him."

"I was...was so scared that I wouldn't see Kiriko-chan again I didn't think of anything else...I...I'm scared...I don't...I can't...I don't know what to do anymore! I don't...I can't think...I just...who am I...I'm Misaki but...who...who is she...I don't know...I..."

All that came out then was a burbble of sobs and hic ups.

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[info]apathyisboring
2009-10-01 08:50 pm UTC (link)
Kiriko was at a complete and total loss. She gave Misaki's shoulder a squeeze, followed up with a tentative smile and then patted the girl on the back as she steered her gently back towards Maeko, rather regretting having intervened at all by this point.

"Honestly, don't beat yourself up over it that much. We can talk later and go eat something together like you said, okay?"

She flashed another smile that felt sufficiently reassuring on her face and gave a quick bow to each of them.

"I'm sorry I interrupted.. Misaki-chan, it isn't that important. We'll talk later, alright? You just need to rest up, and I'm sure Akuba will take care of you."

She would have preferred a hasty retreat, but waited a bit impatiently for something resembling dismissal, eyes trained on Maeko since she seemed the most likely to provide.

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-10-02 12:09 am UTC (link)
Maeko nodded, trying to figure out how to deal with this situation as painlessly as possible.

"Thanks for your time, Ikeda-san." She said, distracted and focussed on Misaki. She guided the distressed first year back to the bench so she wouldn't fall down.

"It's okay, Misa-chan. Everything'll be fine. I'll- There's nothing you've done that can't be fixed. You're just stressed right now, it's natural with everything that's been happenning."

She faked the best smile she could, trying not to think too much about how exactly those problems could be dealt with.

"Let's visit the skypark and watch the streetlights get lit from above, okay?" She suggested. "Your head'll be clearer in a high up place."

...though they'd have to take the stairs.

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-10-04 03:14 am UTC (link)
Misaki slowly nodded, she was still shaking and knew that her family would wonder why she was late. Her mind was a mess, she'd hurt everyone, she'd just hurt Kanaye, god knew how the others saw her now. Crazy, was a word that came to mind, troublesome too.

"Maeko-chan, I feel so tired," she whispere and shook her head, "I don't know if I can keep this up."

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-10-04 03:27 am UTC (link)
"Don't worry." Maeko said. "I'm sure they'll all get along sooner or later. For now just don't worry about them so much and try to rest your head."

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