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Sirius Black (padfoot_dh) wrote in dhmaster_rpg,
@ 2007-09-20 21:39:00

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action scene, complete, harry potter, nc-17 scene, remus lupin, sirius black

Action Scene: Padfoot runs from himself only to find the past isn't ever far behind
OOC: NC-17 rated scene contained within. If you are underage, stay away.

Sirius left Lily alone, thinking about all he'd said to her, and wondering if he'd gone round the twist or not. Remus has always been the sane one, the calm, cool and collected one and now, was he actually trying to fill those world weary shoes? Did Harry even need either of them any longer?

Groaning, he rubbed his face and sighed as he looked to the heavens and did the one thing that had always calmed him in the past. He shifted into Padfoot, shaking his fur and turning his nose to the sky. He inhaled the late afternoon scents and looked around the grounds. Taking off at a dash, running full out and hard, he tried to exhaust himself and his mind. Things were so much easier as a dog.

Skidding to a stop and panting, he spotted a figure in the distance. He sniffed the air, snuffling softly as he recognized the scent. He loped closer and changed back, leaning against a tree and breathing heavily as he closed his eyes.

"Come on out, I know you're there."

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	fear_the_moon 2007-09-21 03:17 am UTC (link)
	Pretending the sad tone in Sirius's first question and the softness in the second one didn't make him shudder inside, Remus shrugged. "I'm good." He paused. "I'm alive... I have a family... I have-" He pretended he hadn't been about to say 'you,' "I have everyone back that I've ever cared about. I'm good." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

padfoot_dh
2007-09-21 03:29 am UTC (link)

Sirius licked his lips as he watched his friend, resisting the urge to reach out and pull him into his arms. He crossed them over his chest, tucked his hands under his elbows and nodded. "So I've heard and that's great, by the way. Same here... sorta."

He cleared his throat and continued. "Harry tells me congratulations are in order." He paused. "So salutations and all that rubbish."

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fear_the_moon
2007-09-21 03:44 am UTC (link)

"Thanks," Remus muttered, shocked and amazed at himself at just how little control he had managed to build up when it came to Sirius, even after all these years. There he was, thirty-seven years old, married, a father, and all he wanted to do was touch his friend's dark hair like he used to, and embrace him until the sparkle that once lit up his gray eyes returned. He blinked and scrambled for something to say. "Teddy's lovely. You'd like him."

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padfoot_dh
2007-09-21 03:59 am UTC (link)

Sirius bent his head, looking down at the ground. He knew better than to keep staring at Moony. The man wasn't his any longer and he was having a hell of a time remembering that even though Remus had repeated it more than once. The fleeting thought of just who it was that Remus was trying to remind ate at him. "I'm sure your sprog is great. I'd love to see him sometime," he said softly.

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fear_the_moon
2007-09-21 04:26 am UTC (link)

Remus watched the smooth, shiny hair flick over Sirius's face as he looked down, and his breath caught. Jesus, this was harder than he could have imagined it would be. How could he still... still love someone this much even after everything? It didn't make any sense.

Sirius's voice seemed to reflect everything Remus was feeling. It was just so... so quiet and restrained and *longing.* Remus bit his lip and reached out to lightly touch his friend's shoulder. "Padfoot..."

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	padfoot_dh 2007-09-21 04:50 am UTC (link)
	Sirius looked over at the hand on his shoulder; his eyes followed the length of Moony's arm up and met the Remus's. Eyeing Remus's straight even teeth biting into his lip, he groaned softly and leaned foward, running his tongue across his lips. "Moony, you're killing me, you know that, don't you?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fear_the_moon 2007-09-21 05:00 am UTC (link)
	Remus flinched and took his hand away quickly. He'd been protesting starting anything again with Sirius for a reason, a good reason; he had to remember that. He had to hold himself back. He had a family now, a duty, a responsibility. Sirius couldn't be what he used to be to Remus anymore, no matter how much he wanted it. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to... sorry." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	padfoot_dh 2007-09-21 05:06 am UTC (link)
	Sirius snorted and looked at him. "Somehow, I don't think you are. Because I'm not." He reached out and grabbed Moony by the lapels and smashed their mouths together. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

fear_the_moon
2007-09-21 05:22 am UTC (link)

Remus's eyes snapped open wide and he fought to ignore the shockwaves of relief and joy coursing through him. He couldn't... no, no, he couldn't lose himself in this... he had to push it away, make himself forget... he couldn't let them down... but oh, he'd longed for this for so long.

All those nights after the battle in the Minsitry, those long, horrible nights that he'd spent alone, waking in a cold sweat and reaching automatically for a warm body that no longer shared his bed. All he'd wanted was Sirius back... all he'd wanted was to hold him again, kiss him, remember what it felt like to know that true love and soul mates and all those soppy, poofy things that filled the books he cherished truly existed, and that he'd found his.

And bloody hell, Sirius was back, and all those things could happen again. Were already happening. The lips on his felt perfect... but fuck, they couldn't do this! He ripped himself away before another thought could change his mind. "Sirius, we can't!"

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padfoot_dh
2007-09-21 05:36 am UTC (link)

Sirius arched a brow as he licked his lips and hung his head for a moment. "No, I suppose you're right. We can't." He tightened his fingers in Remus's robes, pulling him closer once more. "Thing is, you see, I think we just did. And I'm going to do it again."

He leaned in again, softly kissing Remus's mouth this time. "Just tell me no, that you don't want me to do that and we'll stop." He slid his tongue along the line of Remus's lips, gently asking for his acquiescence.

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fear_the_moon
2007-09-21 05:46 am UTC (link)

Remus's heart exploded. He'd been fighting a losing battle from the beginning, and he knew it. This was *Sirius Black,* for Merlin's sake. The man he'd been in love with since they were fifteen. Who had he been trying to kid?

He melted into the kiss this time, shakily lifting a hand and resting it on Sirius's jawline, lightly brushing his thumb across the cheekbone. "I... don't want to stop..." he admitted when their lips parted.

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	padfoot_dh 2007-09-21 06:02 am UTC (link)
	Sirius smiled at him. "No one said you had to," he mumured softly and sucked Remus's thumb into his mouth, moaning quietly as he closed his eyes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fear_the_moon 2007-09-21 06:11 am UTC (link)
	Remus let his own eyes slip close, breath hitching in some strange mixture of fear and delight. "Padfoot," he managed, "I... Tonks..." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	padfoot_dh 2007-09-21 06:28 am UTC (link)
	"Shh... Don't say anything." Sirius murmured as he let Remus's thumb slip from his mouth. He turned and pressed his lips to Remus's once more. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

fear_the_moon
2007-09-21 06:40 am UTC (link)

And Remus didn't say anything, finding himself drowning in Sirius for the third time that night. It was soft, slow, and sweet this time, comforting and tender. Remus wrapped his arms around Sirius tightly. He was done resisting, done fighting, done pretending. Now he just wanted to feel. And it felt wonderful.

The kiss soon came to its natural end, and Remus pulled away just enough to breathe, leaning his forehead against Sirius's. He moved forward to kiss him again quickly before wrapping him in a tight embrace. "I missed you so much, Padfoot.

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