Dear you,
It's amazing how even now listening to this music and thinking of you makes me tremble. All the feelings that still reside in me are still because of you. It's akward because now I have him. He is the one that now makes me happy and lights my days. Why do you still have the power to make me feel this way? It's not fair to him. He doesn't know but.... it's not fair. Even when we have a problem... it's not the same. For you I'ld cry for hours from him it's nothing more than just a sad feeling that goes away. For you I would have died for him... it's different. And it's not fair because he cares so much for me. He's told me he loves me something you never did... mainly because you never did. It wasn't your fault and now it's not his fault. It's mine. When kevin and I started going out I saw it as a new beginning but maybe you took all I had and now I have nothing to offer him. I can't feel the same anymore. I can't give myself entirely anymore because there is nothing there. Even if there still is something in me it's yours. It will always be yours. Why can't I give it to him! I'm sorry I'm so sorry that it's like this. I am going to try and forget you. I will try to take away all those feelings. They shouldn't be there. They shouldn't...

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