I'm your daughter, the one you try to change to your standards(but with good intentions).

I like being myself, will change a bit of my flaws so that work is a little easier for me.
You know Im afraid of being kicked out of work for being myself, the autistic 18-year-old who has feelings like everyone else and wants to be non-disabled.

You and I have a good relationship, You're a good mom, I don't understand why you want me to view things your way instead of my way. After all, I do want to feel and think my own way, because that's the only way I can be unique.
I love you, Mike and Dad too. I accept your flaws, but to me you're not a person with flaws. You're my mom whose a great human being who would like her daughter to be good as her.

I'm sorry Im not that girl. I'm sorry Im superficial, egotistical, and moody. I know I've been the bitch, and in the wrong.........I dont know where my life is headed, dont know what'll happen to me and I'm scared. Without you, I know you'd die one day, I'm vulnerable and can't take care of myself(also clueless about it).

I need your help more than ever. Can you tell me how you think my life's gonna turn out, give me insight on the things you know will happen to me in my future. Again, I know I am selfish. But I need to know because I'm scared about my future.

My life depends on you, and yours on mine.
Love,
Rachel

P.S. I believe you'd give me up whenever you had an oppertunity, I dont doubt it for a minute. I know Jennifer Carpenter is the ideal daughter you'd like to have, but I'm not her= nor is she my aggressive self.

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