Dear You,

Wow....I make all the decisions. You never get to voice your opinion. I'm the contolling one. When did that happen?? Because I still don't see it. I have never made a damn decision in my life. Don't worry, I don't really need your friendship, I have other friends. I just thought that your BEST friend was supposed to be there for you through thick & thin. Isn't that what people always say? Oh well, I guess those people have no idea what they're talking about. At least I don't become friends with a person so that I can use them. I don't need a ride back and forth to school and I don't need to use up someone else's cell phone minutes to call and argue with my boyfriend. Just so you know I think this friendship has been over for a long time and both of us have just been denying it. I hope you have a good life with the boyfriend you hate and the friends that you hate and that you don't get knocked up before you get married, because then your virginal lies will be shot. Have a nice life.

-Me

Current Mood: pissed off

Dear you,

Do you suspect what I'm thinking? Do you worry about the same things? I want to tell you how I feel, but I can't because it will affect these decisions you have to make. It's such a big risk you will be taking, and although I'll support you all the way, I do not want you to be doing it because of me, even just a little.

What if I tell you afterwards? Will you reject me? Will you go along with it just because you'll need me. I know you'll be relying on me, and I really don't mind. I know I can rely on you. But I don't want you to feel that you owe me.

I have a friend here. He jokes that you are my girlfriend. He's trying to be funny, but it just makes me sad.

I miss you stroking my hair when I'm sad.

If I hadn't had to leave I could have told you how I feel already. But you probably know anyway. You're smart like that. I wish I had the confidence to think you feel the same way. I know you don't want to make another mistake.

I hope you get everything you dream of.

-Me.

Current Mood: nostalgic