Dear Me,

Why are you so angry and irritated? Why do you let stupid things bother you like this? You know better and you don't need to be on a string. Cut the string and move on! He isn't worth it if he can't do what he has to do. You don't want to be kept up here and wondering. He loves her and not you. Let it go and let him go. If he can't even decide between you who was his first love and first everything to another whom he barely knows, you know that isn't right. You know that something is up. Love is strong, pure, and truthful. Is that what you want? Pain and hurt isn't worth this is it? Stop it now. Let him go on with his life b/c he's happier inside. You want him to be happy, don't you?

Why did you let this other guy down? You could've moved on and made it work, right? You're not very smart at the moment. Stop being a whiny b*tch. He cares a lot about you. Maybe you can just find someone else more your type, right? Don't let your past mess with your head. You are a good girl even if the other guys wanted someone else, they aren't for you. You can find someone for you--it takes time.

You have good friends who care lots about you. Tell them everything; be truthful. You don't have to lie or hold back if you feel it isn't right. You made plenty of mistakes, you don't need to keep secrets b/c the other is at fault or/and ashamed. It isn't fair to you. You know that you are very honest and tell anyone everything if you need to. Stop holding back. If you need to talk to someone, just do it, okay? Don't be afraid. You know you don't like secrets and it bothers you.

You know deep down that your family does care even though they never show it. You dad does try, but he's just not the affectionate type. Your mom is really screwed up right now and she does love you, but she also doesn't care to show it much unless you go to visit her or call her. Why is it she can't call you? I don't know. Just get over it and realize that they do care even though they have other things on their minds.

You are smart. College is for you. You will succeed and make the best of yourself and show all those who royally screwed you over that you can be successful and happy. You can show them what they are missing out on.

Forget the past and stop dwelling. This is the present and you need to move on to the future. Go for it... I know you can. Feel better. You're not at fault. You're right to feel the way you do; you've been hurt a lot but you are strong and will make it through anything. You are a fighter. Go and make yourself proud.

Love, yourself.

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