Dear you,

I never properly thanked you or realized the extent that your love has helped me.  If you hadn't been here, I probably would either be dead now or at the very least more entirely depressed.  I highly doubt I could have gotten anything from that whole experience if you hadn't been here for me.  I'd feel so trapped.

I know I haven't treated you very well for the past week or so.  We've had our share of arguments, haven't we?  I'd like to say I'm sorry, and I have, and I really could tell this all to your face without fear, but I'd sound so stupid. 

I miss you when you're gone.  I wish you could be here beside me like you were and just be able to say hi to you and maybe kiss you in passing.  I need you to be here, but it can never happen.  We were lucky.

And now I have to go and I will tell you all of this eventually.  Maybe tonight on the phone. 

I miss you,

Penny