i know we havnt talked as much lately, the few days leading up to your departure were sad for me. i knew all along we had to part, but i loved the times we spent in the park, i loved driving in your car, i loved laughing with you and i loved how you forced me into liking a rap song. its funny how now that everytime i hear that song i think of you or i want to call you. you were an awesome part of my summer. you taught me a lot and i really hope you have fun in college. chico is going to be great for you. youre so smart and sweet, and so im afraid for you. im afraid some girl will use you, im afraid youll forget me, im afraid youll get sucked into being something you dont want to be. i just want you to do what you want.
i never told you i was somewhat attached, i never told you i could have actually loved you. and i bet there are one million things you never told me.
you taught me that anyone can come to be your sweetheart.
now i bet if any of your friends saw you with me they would have laughed, you silly little white boy. they would have asked why you were with some tree hugging hippie. but we connected. you once told me i showed you things you never saw. i believe that. you were honest and i thank you.
i hope you find a real girl you can love in chico. i hope shes awesome, smart, funny, and beautiful. i hope shes everything you wanted.
you deserve it. ill try to call when i have the time, but i dont want to bother you and you.
good luck,
much love,
me