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Tweak says, "I'm going with him."

Hansel (hunterofwitches) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2014-04-20 00:57:00

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!closed, ~hansel

Email to Robin

I owe you an apology. I knew that right away but I figured I would give you at least a little bit of time before contacting you. And I'm pretty sure that Marian will be annoyed with me for not waiting a lot longer.

It was wrong of me to react the way I did. You have every right to be upset at the situation and I apologize. I'm not really sure what else to say other than that.

She is very glad that you're back, even given the situation. Knowing that Robin will actually get to know his father from more than just stories is a very good thing.

Hansel

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robinofthehood
2014-04-20 08:25 am UTC (link)

You don't need to worry. She's made it clear where her heart lies. Her love for me died when I did. ~~I may as well be a ghost to her~~ I could not win her back even if I tried.

I've seen back, when he was older. He called you his father. I want to know him and I intend to. But I'm not going to pretend I have any sort of important place in their lives now only to feel disappointment later. It hurts more than I can bear.

I appreciate this. I do. But I don't know what I should do with it. Let alone with being here.

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hunterofwitches
2014-04-20 08:35 am UTC (link)

I can assure you that her love for you didn't fade as quickly as you think. We spent the first few months of our relationship strictly as friends. She needed someone to listen that understood what it was like to lose someone you love and I was there. My heart had been broken just as hers had.

It was impossible not to fall in love with her. But I'm sure you can understand that.

Robin may have called me his dad, but you were and always will be his father and we have been making sure he knows that. You'll always have a special place in his life no matter what the circumstances.

I really wish that there was a way for all of us to come out of this happy, but I know it's naive of me to think that. Regardless of how things end up, one of us is going to get hurt.

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robinofthehood
2014-04-20 08:56 am UTC (link)

No matter how I say it, it will sound selfish and cruel. But the truth is I could not love another so quickly. I never could. I know she needed someone and I am truly glad she had a friend in you. But it will always seem so soon to me. So quick.

But you're right. About the hurt. I know she did not intend it. I know you didn't. But she has broken my heart. ~~I don't think either of you realise I can not be without her. She was my whole worl~~ And I don't know how to see the two if you together yet and be okay with it. Because she will not hurt you. I know her. I know how she cares for people. And I do not come first in that.

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	hunterofwitches 2014-04-21 12:26 am UTC (link)
	You don't have to be okay with it. Like I said, you have every right to be upset. Just know that she does want you to be part of her life. And part of your son's. You will always have a connection with her that I will never have and that scares me more than you can know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robinofthehood 2014-04-21 12:33 am UTC (link)
	I don't know how to be in her life when she is happy with someone else. I think jealousy and worry there are the least of your worries. Any connection we have now can simply be put down to having known each other so long. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	OOC: Hate it when I do that. hunterofwitches 2014-04-21 12:43 am UTC (link)
	I'm not going to tell you that time will make it easier because I don't know that for a fact. I know that you can see your son any time you want and I'll be sure to not be around if that would make it easier for you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robinofthehood 2014-04-21 01:57 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. I can't say I know either. But I doubt it. This would almost be easier if you were someone I could blame. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hunterofwitches 2014-04-21 02:15 am UTC (link)
	You can hate me if it'll help. I won't say anything to Marian because you know that she'll box both our ears if she finds out about it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robinofthehood 2014-04-21 02:37 am UTC (link)
	I do not hate for no reason. And this was not your doing, Hansel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hunterofwitches 2014-04-21 05:49 am UTC (link)
	I'm going to be taking my daughter to the park. If you'd like I can let you know when I leave so you can spend time with your son and Marian. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robinofthehood 2014-04-21 06:06 am UTC (link)
	Not yet. Thank you, but...not yet. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hunterofwitches 2014-04-21 06:10 am UTC (link)
	Just let me know whenever you want to see him and I'll get out of the way. (Reply to this) (Parent)