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Tweak says, "Cookies are afraid of you."

Maryanne Elizabeth Walker (maryanne_walker) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-07-23 23:59:00

Entry tags:

!open, maryanne walker (oe), ~clint barton (comic)

Ugh I forgot tonight was Werewolf night. So... anyone else that was hunting after dark please vacate the woods ASAP. And I see that George didn't do a notification.

As for me. I'm gonna chill in the meadow. Because this is where I was one year ago today when the Train kicked my pregnant ass off. But tonight I'm counting my blessings and not Raging at the Machine that put me here.

Edit: Also, Clint, darling, sugarbutt. The most awesome Special Friend I've ever had. If you don't answer this I might have to come hunt you down. Though I wouldn't mind you becoming fuzzy and bity once a month, seeing what George and Nina go through I'm pretty sure that's not something you would want to do.

Or you know, if he doesn't read this, anyone that's seen him in the city since the bad moon rose over the horizon, I will totally glomp you when I get back in the morning, if you say so. Or point him this way.

Edit 2:By this way I mean the post, not the meadow.

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	Maryanne \| Clint like_a_hawk 2013-07-24 10:43 pm UTC (link)
	You know I couldn't talk to you anymore right? Why would you want that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne \| Clint maryanne_walker 2013-07-25 12:44 am UTC (link)
	Why couldn't you talk to me anymore? And saying something doesn't always have to involve words. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne \| Clint like_a_hawk 2013-07-25 01:18 am UTC (link)
	I wouldn't know what you were trying to say to me, I can't answer you. I can promise, writing notes gets old fast. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Maryanne | Clint

maryanne_walker
2013-07-25 01:33 am UTC (link)

I'm going to tell you a story. It's a true one, but it's relevant but it's also one I don't like talking about. I was in this relationship once, and I can count on one hand with at least a finger left how many relationships I've been in though... that's not relevant. Anyway. In the said relationship a day would pass and we wouldn't speak a single word to each other. We didn't have too. Some days it was only three words that would be said. But we didn't pass a single note between us, and I knew when he wanted to say something without actually saying it.

There are ways around you not being able to hear me. If I wanted to say something to you that was important or profound I'd make sure you got the message.

But. If you aren't interested in all that I need to know. Before I get in too deep. ~~I probably already~~

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	Maryanne \| Clint like_a_hawk 2013-07-25 02:29 am UTC (link)
	I just...why me? I'm god knows how much older than you, I'm damaged, inside and out, I really don't have much to offer and I was a terrible husband the last time I tried. You know you could do better right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Maryanne | Clint

maryanne_walker
2013-07-25 03:03 am UTC (link)

Instead of quoting Elizabeth Browning, I think I'll go with this instead:

First: Do you think age matters to me? There's only one guy that I've even looked at twice that was younger than me, and we both know how well that went. Everyone else has always be older than me. Some more that twice my age. Does me being so much younger bother you?
Second: I don't think anyone from our corner of the universe ever escapes anything undamaged. You can't see my scars because when I shift my body doesn't hold wound memory. Except for the three scars on my back and those aren't from our universe. You understand me without me having to explain. Or I feel like you do. I want to be like that for you.
Third: I've never had anything in my life, and I've learned to live with that. You give me warmth when I'm cold, you make me laugh when I want to cry, and you often make me want to rip your clothes off when I want to rip someone's face off. What more can a girl ask for?
Fourth:No one says we have to be husband and wife. We can just be. I've been married once, I'm not entirely sure I want to do it again. But I'd still cook breakfast for you in the morning. And wash your spandex.

So as far as I see it I don't think I can do better. My heart wants what it wants. And she's a damn stubborn bitch.

As you can see, I'm pretty deep already. So I'll ask again. Do I need to try and dig my way out?

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	Maryanne \| Clint like_a_hawk 2013-07-25 03:14 am UTC (link)
	No, you don't. Sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne \| Clint maryanne_walker 2013-07-25 03:31 am UTC (link)
	Why are you sorry? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne \| Clint like_a_hawk 2013-07-25 03:55 am UTC (link)
	That it all went this way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne \| Clint maryanne_walker 2013-07-25 04:28 am UTC (link)
	It's not like it turned out bad. You don't want me to dig out. That's something? I wish there were something I could do so that you weren't so self conscious about your hearing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne \| Clint like_a_hawk 2013-07-25 04:39 am UTC (link)
	There's nothing to do about it, it's always been a weakness, now it's just worse. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne \| Clint maryanne_walker 2013-07-25 04:51 am UTC (link)
	Usually when you lose one sense the others compensate. So it doesn't have to be a bad thing unless you want it to be. And this battery thing is probably just temporary, unless you have an Xgene that's suddenly decided to rear its head. Do you know sign language? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne \| Clint like_a_hawk 2013-07-25 04:59 am UTC (link)
	My eyes can't really get any better, it's already a near physical impossibility to see the way I do without some kind of enhancement or mutation and there's only so much good being able to feel things can help in the field. How long do these things last? Yeah. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Maryanne | Clint

maryanne_walker
2013-07-25 05:10 am UTC (link)

Hey in your field maybe hearing would be a hindrance rather than being helpful, I can't tell you how many times I saw Robin whisper something in Marian's ear and throw her aim completely off. But feeling things can help you in other places rather than the field. What about your sense of smell? And Taste?

Two weeks, usually, but Annie's been human for ~~over~~ a month. So it's hard to say.

How much? I mean I don't know a whole lot... But one of Laura's kids was deaf, and I learned a few things so I could talk to him in person when he was here.

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	Maryanne \| Clint like_a_hawk 2013-07-25 05:35 am UTC (link)
	I'd be more distracted thinking someone was close. I can usually talk fine while I'm shooting. I haven't really noticed anything that different there. Right. Thanks. I know enough to communicate with someone who knows it pretty well. That was real nice of you. ~~It's isolating when no one else~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Maryanne | Clint

maryanne_walker
2013-07-25 06:06 am UTC (link)

That's where feel comes in, the shift of the breeze. It's like... malicious things can change the air, almost. We'll have to test the others. Maybe make it... fun?

If it worries you, Bruce has a sample of my X gene and Laura's in his lab from the other Bruce. So he'd be able to tell you if it's that.

I'm going to ask her to teach me more so I'm a little more fluent. ~~I think watching your hands will be~~

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	Maryanne \| Clint like_a_hawk 2013-07-26 05:12 am UTC (link)
	Maybe. I'll figure things out. I don't think it's that. How long has the girl with fishfeet been...like that? You don't have to do that Maryanne. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Maryanne | Clint

maryanne_walker
2013-07-26 05:31 am UTC (link)

If you want to, on your own... There's a huge live oak in forest. I can't tell you exactly where I've never had my phone on me when I've found it, but the higher branches are enough to hold me fuzzy they'll definitely hold you.

Micha? I don't know. A while? But she attacked the spire from what I understand. You haven't done that have you?

I know I don't have to. I want to.

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	Maryanne \| Clint like_a_hawk 2013-07-26 06:51 am UTC (link)
	I've found a few the past...however long I've been here. But, thank you. I'll...I just don't know yet. But it means things can last longer. I've been over there, never attacked but uh, observed. ~~I still don't underst~~ Thanks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Maryanne | Clint

maryanne_walker
2013-07-26 07:12 am UTC (link)

The one I'm talking about looks like it was read out of Winnie the Pooh or something. Up at the top, you can't hear anything but the wind. You have to let your other senses do the work. After... The power came back on I had to go up there to get used to everything again. That's why I mention it. Maybe it'll help you.

Everyone that has something that seems permanent, or has something constantly tug them, has attacked the Spire. Tony's always getting tackled. Mitchell can shape shift, and Micha turned into a mermaid. I don't know if AJ did anything to it, or if she's just in the line of fire being friends with Mitchell and Tony's wife to be. It's never done anything to me, but take people away and I've never done anything to the Spire.

Anything, Clint. I mean it.

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	Maryanne \| Clint like_a_hawk 2013-07-26 08:11 am UTC (link)
	Yeah...that sounds real nice. Winnie the Pooh was how I learned to read. I found a book cleaning up at the circus one night, some kid must've lost it. I hope you're right, even if it's cause I'm being selfish as hell. I know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne \| Clint maryanne_walker 2013-07-26 08:35 am UTC (link)
	I... might have stolen my copy. Who was your favorite? If it's not, if... We don't have a few resident geni for nothing. You could always bribe Tony with a cuddle puddle. I don't offer that to many people. You, Mitchell, Sean, and Tim. And possibly Tony. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne \| Clint like_a_hawk 2013-07-26 08:51 am UTC (link)
	I brought it back the last time we were back in that city but...I doubt it ever got back to it's owner. I always felt bad for taking it. I...I always liked Kanga. I'm not gonna bother anyone like that, they're dealing with more important things. You know you'd have the same from us too right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne \| Clint maryanne_walker 2013-07-26 09:07 am UTC (link)
	Mine got burned. I had wanted to return it, but I never got back to the same place. Eeyore has always been mine. From what he's said to me, it wouldn't be a bother. I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I'm a huge pain in the ass. And I hate it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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