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Turgon the Wise | Sarafinwë Turukáno (turukano) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-07-08 21:47:00

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I'm.. I'm not as altruistic as I pretend. I'm not as good of a person as I let others imagine me to be. It's a good feeling to be appreciated and admired, and I think part of my cowardice disallowed me to contradict popular opinion, no matter what direction it came from.

I have nothing against humans. My daughter, I argue, married one after all, and my grandson is was half-elven. But the truth behind that decision was not altogether because I thought it would make her happy. Though it did make her happy and for that.. I will always be glad.

But the truth behind Idril and Tuor is that.. there was a prophecy spoken to me that said from my House and the House of Huor the hope of men and elves would come. That a new star would arise and that birth would bring us salvation. I sacrificed my daughter to 50 years of happiness and an eternity afterward of pain, because I needed her son to be born, so that he could throw his life away to save us all.

Things are not always as they seem. And people are not what you imagine.

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	vanya_elenwe 2013-07-09 05:05 am UTC (link)
	But is not sacrificing your daughter for the good of the people entirely altruistic? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	turukano 2013-07-09 05:07 am UTC (link)
	Is it? I don't know. But if I had to make the choice again, Nyara, I would. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vanya_elenwe 2013-07-09 05:10 am UTC (link)
	I think that it is. And I also think you are too hard on yourself by far. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	turukano 2013-07-09 05:12 am UTC (link)
	I try to be better than I am. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vanya_elenwe 2013-07-09 05:18 am UTC (link)
	There is nothing wrong with the way you are. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	turukano 2013-07-09 05:20 am UTC (link)
	I know you love me. I love you too. I'd.. I'd have you sit with me tonight, Nyara, but I don't want company. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vanya_elenwe 2013-07-09 05:21 am UTC (link)
	I know. I am sorry. I wish this hadn't happened. But reach for me, Sara, and I will hold your hand in my heart. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	turukano 2013-07-09 05:23 am UTC (link)
	Always. I When you are parted from your partner.. I would like to set the soldiers on the sea. For our grandson. He's so much better at building ships than I am, but he left the model. I hope to make one float, finally. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vanya_elenwe 2013-07-09 05:24 am UTC (link)
	Yes, I think it would be nice to do that, for our grandson, and for our daughter. Cathartic, I think. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	turukano 2013-07-09 05:25 am UTC (link)
	I hope so. (Reply to this) (Parent)

maryanne_walker
2013-07-09 06:07 am UTC (link)

I've got to say I agree with Elenwe. Not because of the bonds at our feet either. You did what had to be done.

I've also got to say that I love you both. Did before I knew either of you, and probably will for the rest of my life.

If you want to be together, we can figure something out, either I can sleep on the couch, and you two can have my bed I think that's right about ten feet up and down. Or we can go to Stark Tower, and have the same arrangement there, but through the wall and master bedroom with some furniture adjustments.

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	turukano 2013-07-09 06:08 am UTC (link)
	Apologies, but I have no desire to leave Vinyamar. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-07-09 06:45 am UTC (link)
	No need to apologize sugar. I have less desire to leave Honolulu Heights, myself. If it weren't for Clint and Sean I probably wouldn't. And the needs of many exceed my need. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

turukano
2013-07-09 06:49 am UTC (link)

Of course.

Though, if I may make a request, I know we are on familiar terms in the moment.. but if you would please stop referring to me as 'sugar' I would be grateful. I have several names to go by.. and well, I am several thousand years old and well beyond the age of respecting elders.

Anyway, rambling.

The point is.. that it bothers me, and Nyara is encouraging me to speak when things bother me. My name is Sarafinwë Turukáno, in Quenya, and Turgon in Sindarin.

Sorry.

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maryanne_walker
2013-07-09 06:59 am UTC (link)

Of course. It was never a disrespect thing, quite the opposite actually. I know you've probably never heard of it, but it's referred to as southern hospitality. Treat strangers as friends and friends as family. But I realize, especially here, that not everyone does that. ~~Least of all elves~~

I'll refrain from any farther acknowledgement. Because it's so ground into my culture that I'm not sure that I could keep from. And out of respect for you... Yeah.

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	dawnmod 2013-07-09 01:33 pm UTC (link)
	I can't say I've ever been in your shoes sir, but I understand about having to make sacrifices for the good of the whole and I'm not going to judge you for it. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	turukano 2013-07-09 03:02 pm UTC (link)
	That's the plight of soldiers. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dawnmod 2013-07-09 06:45 pm UTC (link)
	Yes sir it is. (Reply to this) (Parent)