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Anairë | The Silmarillion (anaire) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-06-02 13:14:00

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!open, kytana montrose

I am weary. And I grieve for all those who have lost one dear to them, or who sit by the bedside of their loved ones and pray for healing that may or may not come. I have lost my son once, and I fear now that I must bear his death a second time. I do not know if I can bear such a thing.

Why must men always fight? What comes of it in the end but loss and despair?

All of my children, all of them, and my husband lost to me. And for what?

My heart is sore.

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	notdarthrevan 2013-06-02 05:24 pm UTC (link)
	Do not despair. I believe between you and I, that we can heal everyone in short manner. What say you? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 05:25 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, we will heal them - for what choice have we? But I wish the men would stop fighting and hurting. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notdarthrevan 2013-06-02 05:48 pm UTC (link)
	Unfortunately peace is not part of our fortune here. We must fight to keep those who cannot safe. Men and women. So is the way of many worlds beyond this one. Thus those who heal, those who make the damaged like new, must endure. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 05:50 pm UTC (link)
	I was born into a world of peace and bliss, and I long to return to it. But Arda is Marred, and there will be no true peace until after the Dagor Dagorath, when it is rebuilt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notdarthrevan 2013-06-02 06:38 pm UTC (link)
	I have only known peace and bliss through meditation. If you cannot find it here, you must seek it within your own mind. After all true peace only lasts for a short while. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 06:39 pm UTC (link)
	For more than two thousand years I knew peace in my home, before the Morgoth marred it. I knew the love of a wife, and of a mother, and I was glad. Peace abounds in some places. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notdarthrevan 2013-06-02 06:51 pm UTC (link)
	After the Sith War, there was only peace for two years. And even that was not whole, as men and Jedi fought to push the scourge out of the galaxy. But such sad thoughts should not plague your mind now. Your son needs you in good spirits, my lady. What room is he in, I will come meditate with you while he rests. And with hope he will be well. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 06:52 pm UTC (link)
	He is in room [number]. My husband and I, and our nephew are with him. You are welcome. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notdarthrevan 2013-06-02 07:00 pm UTC (link)
	It is good that he has so many of you around him. I will be there shortly. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	captain_srogers 2013-06-02 06:03 pm UTC (link)
	If they didn't fight those robots would have hurt and killed more than we lost. Fighting is never good or pleasant but sometimes it needs to be done. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 06:04 pm UTC (link)
	Truly? What if we had all hidden? Would they simply have let us be? We do not know. My husband is a warrior, and a brave one, but I have not the heart for it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	captain_srogers 2013-06-02 06:09 pm UTC (link)
	I don't think they would have. They're not like men, they don't tire or lose interest, I think they would have waited. And there is no way we could keep everyone hidden for very long. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 06:32 pm UTC (link)
	And yet two are dead, and my son and many others grievously injured. Is it worth the cost? What value must we put on a life? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	nolofinwe 2013-06-02 06:09 pm UTC (link)
	Your son will heal, my lady. You are not meant for fighting and so you do not see the merit of it. But we are soldiers here. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 06:29 pm UTC (link)
	Aye, I do not see the merit of sending our sons to die. I do not question your bravery, not at all. But I do challenge the wisdom of war. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nolofinwe 2013-06-02 06:32 pm UTC (link)
	We do not fight for ourselves, my lady, as there is no glory or honor in battle. We fight to give those we leave behind a better chance to live. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 06:34 pm UTC (link)
	And my life is somehow magically better without my husband or my children? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nolofinwe 2013-06-02 06:36 pm UTC (link)
	Nay, but neither are you a thrall to others. You are not tortured, led to endure the unasked for touch of man, or turned into the creatures we fight. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 06:38 pm UTC (link)
	But it is torture to live without you, and to know my babies have suffered. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

nolofinwe
2013-06-02 06:41 pm UTC (link)

And still in time you will find yourself healed. Scorn us not because we must fight, my love, but honor our courage and our bravery to do so. Even against the worst odds.

Many of our soldiers have never laid eyes upon or could conceive of those things we faced, and still we marched forth to face it.

We lost two, I hope we do not lose more to injury, but that is the nature of the fight.

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	anaire 2013-06-02 06:45 pm UTC (link)
	Will I? I think I will not, my lord. There are some griefs from which one does not recover, even if ones' spirit does not depart for Mandos from the pain. You underestimate my love for you and our children if you think my healing will be so easy. Of course I honor your bravery, and of course I honor your loss. But I would rather honor you, standing before me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nolofinwe 2013-06-02 06:48 pm UTC (link)
	Nay I do not think your healing will be so easy. If five centuries was not enough to ease our leaving then a thousand will do no more. But in the end, I think, you would come to a place of acceptance if not happiness. But do not think on it. Our son will live. I am alive and for now we are blessed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 06:51 pm UTC (link)
	He seems to be...stronger. And although I am loathe to admit it, I think Maitimo's presence good for him. Yes, yes, you are right. We should enjoy our blessings while we may. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nolofinwe 2013-06-02 07:00 pm UTC (link)
	Russandol has been a part of our son's life since the day he was born, my lady, they are good for each other. Russandol gives him strength in dark hours and he in turn tames the fiery nature of our nephew. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 07:02 pm UTC (link)
	I want our son to wed, to have children. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nolofinwe 2013-06-02 07:03 pm UTC (link)
	We must make do with Idril. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 07:07 pm UTC (link)
	She is lovely, I love her dearly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nolofinwe 2013-06-02 07:11 pm UTC (link)
	As do I. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 07:13 pm UTC (link)
	Where are you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nolofinwe 2013-06-02 07:15 pm UTC (link)
	Seeking our other son. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 07:17 pm UTC (link)
	Is he with Elenwë? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nolofinwe 2013-06-02 07:18 pm UTC (link)
	I shall inform you when I find him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	anaire 2013-06-02 07:19 pm UTC (link)
	Very well, my lord. (Reply to this) (Parent)