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Maryanne Elizabeth Walker (maryanne_walker) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-05-08 00:25:00

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Besides Jay Gatsby's Daisy, has anyone else vanished? I don't mean in death either. I mean just... 'before your eyes' poof. ~~Daryl's here longer than I would have figured if this was some Island fuckery~~

I want to keep track of the people who just evaporate, to see if this is something new the island is doing with people or if this is the end to a whole new fucked up set of island fuckery.

Sorry for all the language for people who don't like it, but there's no better way to put it. This is FUBAR, ya'll.

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gatz
2013-05-14 09:15 am UTC (link)

Really? How odd. I can't imagine why it is so interesting to people. It is just the journal Nick kept for a summer.

You think so? I think I'm just an idiot. It's more apparent, reading it from Nick's point of view. I took the blame for her, died over it- she didn't even come to the funeral. ~~I know she couldn't, Tom wouldn't have~~ Ah, I'm just feeling sorry for myself, it's nothing really. I'm glad I was brought here, too. It is much nicer than home. The people are nicer.

I can imagine, certainly. You seem to be sane enough, to me.

No, he thought that he must have died, as well. He was trembling, but he was okay.

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maryanne_walker
2013-05-14 07:07 pm UTC (link)

Yeah, it's considered a classic, though. To be honest I didn't read it because the same teacher made us read the Lord of the Flies. And that had to be the most disturbing book I've ever read.

She was in your car? And she didn't step up? That's her bad not yours. And I seriously need to start talking to the people you're talking to.

It's put me on edge. Like I'm constantly either expecting something bad to happen or being afraid something bad is going to happen.

Poor guy. But he's okay now?

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gatz
2013-05-14 10:29 pm UTC (link)

Yes, I hear that I am a bestseller. Maybe it's something to be proud of, but I don't know. Oh, I haven't heard of that, perhaps it was published after my time. I wouldn't say my book is disturbing- well, it was for me, but only because the story was my own.

She was the driver, yes. But I said that it was me, to protect her. It wasn't at her suggestion, although I have to say that when she appeared on the island, she didn't seem particularly grateful about it all. Oh, it's just everyone, generally. I have spoken to a few unpleasant characters, but for the most part everyone is terribly accepting and friendly. I am so used to being judged based on my finances or my race that it has been refreshing to be among people who don't seem to be concerned with such things.

I can understand that. All I can say is that worrying about it isn't going to help. Bad things will happen whether you worry about it or not, but if you focus too much on what might happen, you could miss out on all of the good things.

Yes. Well, no-

[Maryanne.]

I don't want to say it publicly, because I do not want to cause unnecessary alarm, but Nick was seriously injured in an unprovoked attack by one of the island's residents. A Frenchman by the name of Montparnasse. He has broken ribs, and a great deal of bruising. The man in question has been- warned. But I believe he caused some physical harm to two people from his own world, as well.

Ah, and to think I was just trying to convince you of how pleasant I find everyone to be.

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maryanne_walker
2013-05-15 04:24 am UTC (link)

Oh you are! And you should be proud, because while you may have passed, you're remembered through the ages. I would recommend it, but I wont. Because it's creepy.

Well... that's just. Messed up. Really really messed up, no way else to say it. I'm used to being judged for what I am, but being mortal isn't one of them.

I know that, I do... I just have a hard time convincing my heart of it.

[Jay]

Does Nick still have the clothes he was attacked in? I'll find the bastard and show him why he doesn't do that.

Oh sugar, I already knew there were some creeps on the island.

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gatz
2013-05-15 07:36 am UTC (link)

I think I was afraid, from what Mr Salvatore said, that I was remembered as nothing more than a bootlegger, but having read it, I'm not too disappointed. Mr Carraway offers too forgiving a portrayal.

Do you think so? I don't think I realised it until she appeared here, and I could see that she truly didn't care about anything but herself. So perhaps the island did me a favour, in a way. Have you found yourself to be less judged here, than at home?

I understand- the communication between my heart and head has always been a troubled one.

[Maryanne.]

That won't be necessary. I've already dealt with him.

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	maryanne_walker 2013-05-15 08:56 pm UTC (link)
	You were a bootlegger? I hate that you had to learn it that way though. I hate women like that. It's probably the reason I'm so blunt. Yes and no. I find that people don't come after me with pitchforks and torches like practically did back home. It was easier before my kid was born. But now I have something to lose. [Jay] How? If you don't mind me asking. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

gatz
2013-05-16 01:10 pm UTC (link)

Yes, a very successful one. I realise there's very little point in being secretive about it here, given that so many already know, and that it's hardly a legal issue any longer.

I was dazzled by everything about her ~~but I wasn't the only one~~ It was a complicated situation, but I have noticed that people here are much more open about their feelings. Why were they so prejudiced against you? If you don't mind me asking-

Of course, I can understand that. Was your child born on the island?

[Maryanne.]

Just with my fists- oh, I didn't kill him, its just that I know there is no form of justice system on the island, and I couldn't just let him get away with that. I told him that if he so much as looked at Nick or Eponine the wrong way again, I wouldn't be so... forgiving.

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maryanne_walker
2013-05-17 12:00 am UTC (link)

Did you do the making of the liquor or just the running? There are still dry counties around the country but usually they're only that on Sundays.

I'm not exactly human. I'm what my world calls a mutant. I can change from my simple 5'6 build to a 9' long Mountain Lion. And that doesn't count my tail.

Yes. He wasn't conceived on the island though.

[Jay]

Good on you sugar. I would have been so forgiving the first go. He would have been dumped in the Oubliette without even a wet match for a friend.

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Maryanne

gatz
2013-05-17 12:51 pm UTC (link)

Both, although most recently I operated a chain of- "drug stores". We had people working for us- my business partner and I- who would do most of the running. That is to say, we had suppliers, but we were the distributors. As I mentioned to Mitchell previously, I am also able to make liquor, if the pub is ever at risk of running short. It's mostly rye whiskey and gin, but it's something.

I see, how unusual. And this is known, in your world? I can hardly comprehend it. But I am sorry that you were a victim of discrimination, I understand that well enough. People feel threatened by that which they don't understand, and they lash out. I wish it wasn't so.

I see. It must be frightening, looking out for him here.

Ah, I appreciate your understanding. Many would have thought I should have kept my temper. I wasn't aware of any Oubliette on the island. Good to know.

[ooc- I'm assuming that he's replying to this before going through the door, just fyi. I know some people take net things to be 'real time'. Just in case you were confused.]

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Jay

maryanne_walker
2013-05-18 04:47 am UTC (link)

Oh, so you were almost at the top of the chain. It seems like it would be exciting and scary all at the same time. And Whiskey and gin beat Moonshine anyday.

Yeah, my Dad had my name put on a list that pretty much told people that I was a mutant. Not what I could do exactly. At least I don't think. It was meant to be for government agencies only, but you know how that goes.

Yes and no. I have a lot of people helping me, the only thing I really have to worry about is his Uncle George kidnapping so his daughter and he could be the youngest elopers ever.

Beating on a woman? I hope no one would accuse you of not doing the right thing. It's hard to find. Unless you're not looking for it, then you run a risk of falling into it.

[ooc- It's all good! I figured that was what was going on. I only usually say they're 'real time' if someone ask about it.]

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Maryanne

gatz
2013-05-18 10:35 am UTC (link)

Yes, exactly so. I suppose Wolfsheim was the top, and he started me up in business. It was- it was frightening in the beginning, but after a while, not really. Ms White used to ask if I was not afraid of the cops, but truthfully, they were some of my best clients. Yes, the whiskey isn't too bad at all.

I see, that is unfortunate. I do know how it goes, yes. Word spreads so quickly, often exaggerated through rumour and gossip until it is only a fraction of the truth any longer. I often heard people whispering at my parties that I was a German spy during the war- absolute nonsense, and yet rich men who didn't even fight for their country were always considered more truly American than myself. And it's not as if I have any mutations or powers, so I can scarcely imagine how much worse it must have been for you. I'm glad that you don't feel the same persecution here. If anyone gives you any trouble- well, it sounds as though you can certainly take care of yourself, but I am here for back-up, if required.

I'm glad that you have the help you need, that is good. Ah, how adorable.

Yes, quite. I'm glad that you think so.

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Jay

maryanne_walker
2013-05-18 09:30 pm UTC (link)

So you were the guy to rub elbows with?

Well, having the mutation gave me an upper hand. It allowed me to survive and take out some of the oppressors that were trying to kill me and the kids. They don't persecute me as a mutant, just someone with loose morals.

The kids get along real well. Neither one seems to fuss at all, which can both be a blessing and a curse, when they're with each other.

He's lucky he got off with what he did. If anyone else would have caught up with him, he would have probably been missing a few limbs, or a few key male parts.

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Maryanne

gatz
2013-05-18 09:39 pm UTC (link)

I suppose so, yes. I wouldn't say that many people actually knew me. Of me, certainly, but even that was all gossip and very little substance. Nick really is the one person who knew me best- real me, not public persona me- so you understand why I would take it so personally for someone to harm him in any way.

They tried to kill you? I'm so terribly sorry. I suppose I can imagine it would have been the same in my own world, sadly. They felt strongly enough about anyone who wasn't of the Nordic races, goodness knows what they might have thought of mutation. Here? Why, everyone seems to have loose morals by my world's standards. But then, I suppose I've always been persecuted for that, as well. Screw their morals.

That's really good. It's interesting that there is a whole generation of children who will grow up here, thinking that this is- how the world is.

Ah, it was tempting, really. It took some self-control not to kill him, but it seemed more fitting to make him live in fear. Goodness, that was much crueller sounding than I intended.

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Jay

maryanne_walker
2013-05-19 02:49 am UTC (link)

Of course, and you do seem very honorable. And like most honorable men, or women, you stick by your friends.

Hah! I love that 'screw their morals'. I have to be honest that would have been the last thing I would have thought you would say. Don't ask me why, but you saying it just tickled me pink. Anyway, they tried a number of times. I kind of wish I was in the books that follow a select few of my kind around, that way I'd know if I'd live or not if did get dumped back home. But what can you do?

Yeah, that hate will be mild. Which is always nice.

Fear is good though! I personally might find it hard to fear you, but it's not anything you did or didn't do, it's more to the fact that you look like a friend of mine.

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Maryanne

gatz
2013-05-19 04:31 pm UTC (link)

I do? Well, thank you.

Really, I think I surprised myself a little! I've just found people to be incredibly hypocritical. I have been harshly judged for bootlegging, by people who are drinking the liquor while doing their judging. Or judged for losing my temper by a man who once broke his mistress's nose. And countless other things that are in no way just my own personal experience, but the way of the world, sadly. Well, I understand what you mean, but perhaps it is better not to know. It might change the way you lived you life. You might live in constant fear about what you knew was coming, or you might live more recklessly assuming nothing could hurt you.

Oh, I wouldn't want anyone else to fear me. I wouldn't want to give anyone a reason to fear me unless they deserved it. I look like a friend of yours?

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Jay

maryanne_walker
2013-05-20 05:00 am UTC (link)

You're welcome.

You're full of surprises, Jay. Hypocrisy is so ugly. I don't understand why people enjoy using it so much. I think it would make me want to stay here more. I don't know that I would want to live my life much differently.

Yes, his name was Ira Spencer. He helped me run the cafe. I did breakfast and dinner, he did lunch. He had a smile that could light up a room. And I don't think he would want even a fly to fear him.

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	Maryanne gatz 2013-05-20 01:50 pm UTC (link)
	Oh, well good, I would hate to be dull and predictable. I don't know, I think it just makes them feel superior when they can beat others down. No, perhaps it is a blessing that you cannot read of your future. I see. He sounds like someone I should be glad to share an appearance with. What happened? He died? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jay maryanne_walker 2013-05-20 08:22 pm UTC (link)
	Well, to me, they only look like jackasses. Maybe. My kid will keep me rooted to this place as much as anyone else, I suppose. He got turned into a vampire. I don't think it went well. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne gatz 2013-05-20 08:29 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, I'm inclined to agree with you there. That's true, yes. It certainly complicates matters. Oh, goodness. That's- well, I'm terribly sorry to hear that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jay maryanne_walker 2013-05-20 10:08 pm UTC (link)
	It does, but it also keeps me from doing stupid stuff. I miss him. He's part of the reason I can't go in there anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne gatz 2013-05-20 10:10 pm UTC (link)
	Into the restaurant? Yes, I can imagine. I don't think he would want you to avoid the place, especially if cooking is something that gives you pleasure. Perhaps with time, it will get easier. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jay maryanne_walker 2013-05-20 10:24 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. But Daryl, and Bruce and... I start having a panic attack when I stand in front of the window for too long. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne gatz 2013-05-21 01:19 pm UTC (link)
	I'm so sorry to hear that. I know how it is to be haunted by the past. But I'm sure that you have some pleasant memories of the place as well? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jay maryanne_walker 2013-05-21 09:23 pm UTC (link)
	They're all pleasant. That's kind of the problem. That's why I cook at Mitchell's part time. So I'm not bombarded with... ghosts. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Maryanne gatz 2013-05-21 09:25 pm UTC (link)
	I understand. I'm sorry. I hope that you can find peace with the past, some day. Until then, I'm glad that you have a place to cook without the pain. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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