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Lothíriel, Queen of Rohan | Lord of the Rings (queenofrohan) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-04-16 05:20:00

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[Private to Freda]

I am sorry for how I acted towards you. It was quite a surprise, but that is no excuse.

Would you - could you teach me how to ride a horse? I should like to learn, and show Éomer as a surprise.

[Private to Éomer]

I have fought with my father. He is having relations with a woman younger than I am. I...I feel very sick about it.

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	Éomer \| Lothíriel third_marshal 2013-04-16 09:34 am UTC (link)
	Why? Not why is he But why are you feeling ill about it? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Éomer \| Lothíriel queenofrohan 2013-04-16 09:36 am UTC (link)
	Because of my mother And because... I have looked up to him for so many years, and then he did something like this. And doesn't even see how it is wrong or doesn't care I don't know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Éomer \| Lothíriel third_marshal 2013-04-16 09:39 am UTC (link)
	His choices are his, Lothíriel. I don't expect you to agree with them but we might reserve our judgment. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Éomer \| Lothíriel queenofrohan 2013-04-16 09:40 am UTC (link)
	Ai! Of course you defend him. Men are like wild dogs, working in packs. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Éomer \| Lothíriel third_marshal 2013-04-16 09:42 am UTC (link)
	I don't mean to defend him, not really. We have a standard that we hold ourselves to. He's not wrong for not fitting into it. he simply doesn't fit. But you have every right to feel upset. I don't deny that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Éomer \| Lothíriel queenofrohan 2013-04-16 09:44 am UTC (link)
	If he is so wrong about this, what else is he wrong about? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Éomer \| Lothíriel third_marshal 2013-04-16 09:46 am UTC (link)
	A great many things. The way he treats you, for one. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Éomer \| Lothíriel queenofrohan 2013-04-16 06:19 pm UTC (link)
	I have never noticed that he treated me differently than anyone else. But perhaps you are right. I think maybe... I think maybe I do not like the way he treats me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Éomer \| Lothíriel third_marshal 2013-04-16 06:33 pm UTC (link)
	His manner of treating you is very cruel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Éomer \| Lothíriel queenofrohan 2013-04-16 06:39 pm UTC (link)
	Cruel? Would you truly go so far? Surely he only did what he felt to be right, he was simply mistaken. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Éomer \| Lothíriel third_marshal 2013-04-16 09:10 pm UTC (link)
	What he thought to be right, yes. But I think it wrong. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Éomer | Lothíriel

queenofrohan
2013-04-16 09:17 pm UTC (link)

Éomer, I am full of feeling right now. I am very confused, about so many things. If he was wrong...if he was wrong in the things he told me...there are so many possibilities. I do not even know where to begin. If his commands were wrong, and it is appropriate for me to disobey them, then what shall I do? I have thought so little about what I want in my life, or what I think to be right. I was not encouraged to think for myself.

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	Éomer \| Lothíriel third_marshal 2013-04-16 10:24 pm UTC (link)
	Do as you want to. You have a mind of your own and the ability to exercise your own desires. That is what I want from you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Éomer \| Lothíriel queenofrohan 2013-04-16 10:28 pm UTC (link)
	But, my lord, I do not know how to do so. I do not know where to begin. I do not wish for you to tell me what to do, but I feel as if I have been cut loose in a rather frightening world. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Éomer \| Lothíriel third_marshal 2013-04-16 10:31 pm UTC (link)
	I'll not abandon you in it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Éomer \| Lothíriel queenofrohan 2013-04-16 10:37 pm UTC (link)
	I know you will not. But still I must go forth alone, even without you, if I am to find a way that is truly mine. And...I do not wish to be led. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Lothíriel / Freda riddermark_maid 2013-04-17 04:36 am UTC (link)
	You are forgiven, my Queen, as I am quite sure I would have responded the same way, if not worse, had I been in your place. Of course. I will even permit you to ride Madginelle. At least for a short time, then we will see if we can find you a mare, or stallion, that is more suited to you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda queenofrohan 2013-04-17 04:47 am UTC (link)
	I will warn you that I am very, very frightened of horses. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda riddermark_maid 2013-04-17 06:22 am UTC (link)
	Madge is gentle and patient. We will get you used to her, and her used to you, before we even give mounting her a try. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda queenofrohan 2013-04-17 06:38 am UTC (link)
	I don't really want to learn. But I know I must. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda riddermark_maid 2013-04-17 07:05 am UTC (link)
	You do not have to, there are few on the Mark that do not ride. Though it is more because they cannot afford a mount. Though it will be strange having a Queen that cannot ride. I can promise you, that mine is not one to fear. Even in her wilder days she did not buck, or toss. She has a very kind soul. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda queenofrohan 2013-04-17 10:26 pm UTC (link)
	Very well. I shall meet you soon, then? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda riddermark_maid 2013-04-18 03:07 am UTC (link)
	Yes. You know where Eomer keeps Firefoot? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda queenofrohan 2013-04-18 03:28 am UTC (link)
	I...do. But he terrifies me. He hates me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda riddermark_maid 2013-04-18 03:38 am UTC (link)
	He is very spirited, as is Eomer, they are a perfect pair. But you will not be riding him. And we will not go into the pin with them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda queenofrohan 2013-04-18 04:02 am UTC (link)
	No, I do not wish to. Even the idea scares me. Horses scare me, but that one in particular. And I...I am very small next to Éomer. And next to the horses. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda riddermark_maid 2013-04-18 04:27 am UTC (link)
	Size is not really relevant to a horse or to a man. Unless you are a halfling. Or perhaps a dwarf. If you have a good horse, and a good man, they will help you where your size lacks. Firefoot is a good horse, he is simply spirited, and loyal to just one person. ~~He will make fine foals.~~ They are not bad qualities to have in a horse, or a woman. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Lothíriel / Freda queenofrohan 2013-04-18 04:38 am UTC (link)
	I am loyal to Éomer. But I would not wish on Firefoot the injury that I am certain that horse wishes upon me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda riddermark_maid 2013-04-18 05:12 am UTC (link)
	I think it may be an issue of trust. When he trusts you, and you him, there would hot be an urge to cause you injury. You may have to endure a few bites to earn that trust though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda queenofrohan 2013-04-18 05:19 am UTC (link)
	I think the horse is jealous of me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda riddermark_maid 2013-04-18 06:33 am UTC (link)
	There could be that, did you kick him out of Eomer's bed? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda queenofrohan 2013-04-18 06:36 am UTC (link)
	Oh, dear! I hope not! I mean, I know Rohirric men love their horses. But I'm quite certain they don't love their horses. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda riddermark_maid 2013-04-18 06:41 am UTC (link)
	I would hope not myself. But you did hit it on the head. I meant in more of a simple sense. On cold nights, just to keep warm. Rather than what the rest of the great hall was doing to keep warm. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda queenofrohan 2013-04-18 06:45 am UTC (link)
	Perhaps that is true, I fear perhaps it is. But he is my husband, and my love, and I will not give him up for the feelings of a horse. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda riddermark_maid 2013-04-18 06:51 am UTC (link)
	Aye that is good to hear! But it also means that we may have to resort to pure bribery to win that horse over. They say Mûmakil have long memories, but so do horses. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda queenofrohan 2013-04-18 07:02 am UTC (link)
	I shall do what I must, I suppose. I do love Éomer, my Lady. I truly do. He is so tender and gentle, how could I not? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lothíriel / Freda riddermark_maid 2013-04-18 08:17 am UTC (link)
	It's not hard to bribe a horse though. Apples, carrots, and and a bit of sugar now and then. Which is where you might get a bite. Please, call me Freda. I am no lady. But I trust that you do. And he you. (Reply to this) (Parent)