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Tweak says, "it is what it is"

otherbuck (otherbuck) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2021-02-05 06:07:00

Entry tags:

!open, bucky barnes (au), johnn redel, miguel o'hara (other)

I am still here.

I don't know why, I just didn't get sent back with the others once that asshole died. if it bothers you, I'm on Wheel 4 at [location that's near within walking distance of the Other camp but isn't particularly close]. I don't care if you come after me but there's a young girl staying nearby, do not bother her.

to anyone in the medbay:

I am an amputee. my left arm was surgically removed 6 inches below my shoulder about 15 years ago. other than low-level pain and occasional phantom limb sensations, it has not bothered me in a long time and I'm able to do what I need to on my own. is there any reason I can't continue to live without a prosthetic?

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	otherbuck 2021-02-08 08:52 am UTC (link)
	so not being nice is a "problem" now? I didn't know that was going to happen (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2021-02-08 08:59 am UTC (link)
	Well considering you're not working for any of the food... yeah it is a problem. Just what did you think was going to happen? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-02-08 09:07 am UTC (link)
	I haven't eaten any of your food in days. that we would come here and survive. that we would exist alongside the others. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

maryanne_walker
2021-02-08 09:17 am UTC (link)

Yeah, the stocked food doesn't last as long as you'd like to think. And you have a family that was brought here through natural means, there on wheel four with you. Who still pull their weight. One actually risks his life on a daily basis. So I don't think asking you not to be an asshole is a big ask. It is in fact the least you could do.

Yet, when you found out that wasn't the way, you had to act like the victim, like we invaded your station.

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	otherbuck 2021-02-08 09:23 am UTC (link)
	I dont know what you want me to do here. what the hell does that mean? I never said that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2021-02-08 09:41 am UTC (link)
	Make an attempt to be nice. You've treated everyone you've come in contact with, if they aren't from your station, like garbage. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-02-08 09:43 am UTC (link)
	why? what difference does it make? only if they've done the same. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2021-02-08 09:48 am UTC (link)
	It's called gratitude. Like I said, for the food you take, it's the very least you can do: Holding your tongue when a facile rude thought comes to mind. Yeah, I doubt that. Name one person you haven't been an asshole to, that isn't from your station. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-02-08 09:51 am UTC (link)
	then maybe yours could hold theirs when the threats come to mind. Dr. Cuddy. I'm not an ass until given reason. I get that you're mad that I was mean to your daughter but if she had listened when I said no it wouldn't have been that way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

maryanne_walker
2021-02-08 09:58 am UTC (link)

Yeah, see most of us work for our food, and are here naturally. And name a threat you haven't deserved.

See, that's just good common sense, she is the only medical Doctor we have here. So that's life or death choice right there, it doesn't count. Try again.

No, you were an absolute asshole last time we spoke. And my kid can take care of herself. The way I heard it, was you insulted her, when she was just trying to be kind. And I'm going to take her word over yours. But if it had been any one of my other kids? We would be having this conversation with me standing over you, and your back in the snow.

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	otherbuck 2021-02-08 10:07 am UTC (link)
	I'm not doing this again. I'm an ass hole, got it. I'm not going to be a different person just because you say so. I don't need you in my life. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2021-02-08 10:16 am UTC (link)
	No see, you do. I'm one of the people that provide the fresh food. And fill the shelves once they're empty. So do yourself a favor, act like you're a guest in our home, because that's what you are however uninvited, and we wont continue to have this problem. Continue to be an asshole, and you'll have a very big problem. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-02-08 10:19 am UTC (link)
	there's an entire separate world just through a door right now. I can get as much food as I need and it will have nothing to do with you. I'm not letting you hold this over my head. I'm sorry I'm not the person you want but my life has not let me be kind, if you don't want to deal with that, just leave me alone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2021-02-08 10:27 am UTC (link)
	Okay, since that one ask is too much to ask, I'll be sure that the Graham family is well stocked once the food runs dry, but your friends can blame you when they don't have anymore. You are hereby banished from wheel three. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-02-08 10:31 am UTC (link)
	why would you punish them for being mad at me? I'm sure they don't really like me either ~~I thought you were~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2021-02-08 10:37 am UTC (link)
	Because I'm asking one thing of you Bucky. One thing. I'm not asking you to help AJ hoe the fields, I'm not asking you to help me cull the live stock. I'm asking you to make an attempt to be respectful and grateful to those who do these things for you, and if you wont listen to me, I figure the people that matter will force you to listen. Or they'll ditch you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-02-08 10:44 am UTC (link)
	I literally don't know how fuck leave them be. I don't mean much to them either. I'll go somewhere else. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2021-02-08 10:52 am UTC (link)
	I wont do anything to them, as long as they are respectful and grateful. Because you are all unwelcome, uninvited, guests in my home. The Other Miguel is trying. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-02-08 10:54 am UTC (link)
	you've made that clear and I've said I'll stay away. I dont know what else you want. I'm just as stuck here as everyone else. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2021-02-08 11:03 am UTC (link)
	All you have to do is say 'I'll try' it's not like I'm asking you to go cold turkey. I'm not even asking you to be nice. I'm asking you to keep your fingers still and mouth closed when you feel the urge to be nasty. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	otherbuck 2021-02-08 11:07 am UTC (link)
	so you can shit on me when I fuck up. I'm a grown fucking man and you're not my mother and you're not in charge. leave me alone and you won't deal with me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

maryanne_walker
2021-02-08 11:28 am UTC (link)

I'm not like that Bucky, I'll make sure that you check yourself when you fuck up.

If you're a grown fucking man then act like a grown man instead of a spoiled ass brat. I had to do a lot fucked up things to get food before I got brought here. I turned tricks, I danced on a stage, I shoplifted... but one thing I didn't do was be rude to my meal ticket. I may have been insincere, but I knew damn well when to keep my fucking mouth shut.

And tell me again that I don't have some authority when the next threat comes and I'm one of the ones that rounds up the troups.

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	otherbuck 2021-02-08 11:31 am UTC (link)
	leave me alone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2021-02-08 11:36 am UTC (link)
	Grow up. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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