Sorry I wasn't around to help when things got really bad. I panicked and went off the radar, I hope you can forgive me.
As a measure of "doing my part" and helping, I know that Higgs employed some awful tactics and these things can leave scars we can't see. I am a qualified and practised Psychotherapist, so if you need to talk and have someone listen and help you through some of the darkness, I'm here.