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Tweak says, "Its real for us..."

Steve Rogers (captain_srogers) wrote in compass_comm,
@ 2015-12-12 18:13:00

Entry tags:

!closed, steve rogers, ~peggy carter

How's your head?

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	captain_srogers 2015-12-13 12:51 am UTC (link)
	Motherly, yes. Soft, never unless she wants to be. She does. She's never yet had to know real sadness. I know I won't shield her from that forever but we try our best. ~~She's starting to~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offthepeg 2015-12-13 12:54 am UTC (link)
	What are you trying to do to me, exactly? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	captain_srogers 2015-12-13 12:58 am UTC (link)
	I don't really know. Try and help you remember maybe. Figure out what does and doesn't make you want to kill me. Give you as much company as I can. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offthepeg 2015-12-13 01:01 am UTC (link)
	Your mother's name was Sarah too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	captain_srogers 2015-12-13 01:04 am UTC (link)
	It was. We named her after my mother. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offthepeg 2015-12-13 01:06 am UTC (link)
	You were a sickly child. Weak. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	captain_srogers 2015-12-13 01:08 am UTC (link)
	Yes. I wasn't supposed to live past 5. My mother took good care of me, she was a nurse. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offthepeg 2015-12-13 01:11 am UTC (link)
	What is that like? Being taken care of? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

captain_srogers
2015-12-13 01:19 am UTC (link)

It's hard at first, as an adult. After she died I told myself I didn't need it, that I could take care of my own needs and I'd be fine, because that's what I thought it took to be strong. But Bucky worked on me, got me to realize that wasn't really true and it's...nice. It's comforting. To know someone cares about you enough to do that and that you'll be okay even if you're not.

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	offthepeg 2015-12-13 01:20 am UTC (link)
	Even if you fight it, he cares about you that much? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	captain_srogers 2015-12-13 01:28 am UTC (link)
	Yes. He's always been that way. One of the best things that ever happened to me was getting punched by a kid from his orphanage. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offthepeg 2015-12-13 01:29 am UTC (link)
	I'm sure you didn't deserve it (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	captain_srogers 2015-12-13 01:31 am UTC (link)
	I was dumb enough to think I could stop a kid twice my size and three years older than me so I probably deserved it at least a little. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offthepeg 2015-12-13 01:35 am UTC (link)
	You're not the first man to overestimate his strength. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	captain_srogers 2015-12-13 01:37 am UTC (link)
	Won't be the last either. Thankfully Bucky is smarter than I am. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offthepeg 2015-12-13 01:38 am UTC (link)
	I wouldn't know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	captain_srogers 2015-12-13 01:39 am UTC (link)
	You do now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offthepeg 2015-12-13 01:41 am UTC (link)
	I know he doesn't want to see me. I get that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	captain_srogers 2015-12-13 01:43 am UTC (link)
	He does. It's...probably my fault he hasn't come. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offthepeg 2015-12-13 01:49 am UTC (link)
	Did you tell him not to? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	captain_srogers 2015-12-13 01:53 am UTC (link)
	I haven't been home as much as I should be. I think he's worried about leaving the kids. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offthepeg 2015-12-13 11:07 am UTC (link)
	I thought you had friends these days. Or you burned those bridges too? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	captain_srogers 2015-12-13 04:40 pm UTC (link)
	Can I send him to see you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offthepeg 2015-12-13 05:06 pm UTC (link)
	It won't do any good but it's a free country, I think. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	captain_srogers 2015-12-13 05:48 pm UTC (link)
	He'd be a good one to show you how it feels to be taken care of. And I think he needs it too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)