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Jeremy Gilbert (savedbythering) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2012-07-02 01:21:00

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bonnie bennett, jeremy gilbert

Who: Jeremy Gilbert & Bonnie Bennett
What: Talking about their share insecurities about their impending parenthood
When: Sunday, July 1st. Evening
Where: Their apartment
Warnings: There shouldn't be any
Status: In progress

It had been a few days now since Jeremy's accidental mass text, which had been meant only for Damon, Lyle and Matt, about all his insecurities about becoming a father and so far it had been the elephant in the room whenever he and Bonnie were together, which was quite often considering they lived together. Jeremy knew that they needed to talk about it, because Bonnie now knew exactly how he felt and to be honest, the only way this was going to work, both their relationship and their impending parenthood, was if they were open and honest with each other. He knew that they were a lot better off then most teenage parents their age, both money wise and support wise, but he still couldn't help but worry and he knew that he was only going to continue worrying if they didn't talk about it; besides, he couldn't help but wonder if Bonnie shared any of these worries.

After he finished getting ready for bed, Jeremy headed into their bedroom, where Bonnie already was and sat down on the bed, glancing over at his girlfriend, "Hey, Bonnie..." He paused for a moment, taking a deep breath. He'd never been very good at big, serious talks when it was about himself like this. If Elena or Bonnie were in danger then he had no problem telling them why they shouldn't do something or laying his feelings out in that type of situation, but for some reason this, he had a hard time talking about, "....we should probably talk...." He watched her, nervously, waiting for her response.

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im_a_witch
2012-07-04 03:20 am UTC (link)

"I did," Bonnie said, closing her book and resting it on her stomach. It was a useful place for resting things, with it being so huge. "I didn't say anything because I knew it wasn't meant for me, and I didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable. You seemed a little shaken after everything."

She paused. "You're not going to be a terrible dad, Jere. I know we're both really still not completely ready for this, but you're going to do just fine. I promise."

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savedbythering
2012-07-04 04:41 am UTC (link)

As Bonnie spoke, Jeremy couldn't help but be relieved that he had a girlfriend who didn't pry and let him have his space, even when it was clear that he was freaking out, but let him come to her in his own time instead of confronting him, "I just wish that I wasn't so freaked out. I try to tell myself that everything is gonna be alright, but then I start thinking about all the things that could happen. I don't want you to resent me later on or to have to raise Sheila along if I get sent back," As he said her name, he rested his hand on Bonnie's stomach. They had gone back and forth on whether it would be Sheila Miranda or Miranda Sheila and had finally decided that the first sounded better. "I just wish that my dad or Ric or John were here to help me with the whole father thing. I mean, I know I can always got to Damon or Dean, but they're busy with their own kids and I guess I'd just feel better if it was my own family." Jeremy had considered Ric family even before he'd become his and Elena's guardian.

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	im_a_witch 2012-07-05 04:16 am UTC (link)
	"If you weren't freaking out, I'd be a little concerned. I'm pretty sure that everyone freaks out before they have a kid. Even if they've already had one. I'm not saying I'm not doing my own share of freaking out. I have. I just...I don't think we're going to screw up. Yeah, we're young, and it's going to be difficult, but we're going to do our damnedest." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

savedbythering
2012-07-05 04:49 am UTC (link)

Jeremy felt better knowing that Bonnie was freaking out about this too, "What are you most worried about?" He asked, figuring that they should probably get everything out in the open now and it helped that they couldn't actually lie at the moment, which he hoped she didn't think was the only reason he was asking now. As he waited for her answer, he rubbed her stomach lightly and smiled when he felt a kick. When Sheila had started kicking, for awhile, practically everyone had felt her kick but him and he had started to think that she didn't like him or something when one night he'd had his head on Bonnie's stomach and Sheila had kicked him right in the head. It had been quite an experience and one that Jeremy would never forget.

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im_a_witch
2012-07-05 03:42 pm UTC (link)

Bonnie sighed. "I think I'm most worried about not really being a good mom. I mean, yeah I had Grams and your mom there for me when I was younger, but my mom was never really around. She left when I was younger, so it's not like I really have much to go off in terms of maternal advice or anything like that. Aside from Grams and your mom. And while they were both great...it still wasn't really exactly the same as my own mom being there." She paused, just relaxing and feeling Sheila kick. "If that makes any sense at all.

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savedbythering
2012-07-05 11:26 pm UTC (link)

"Well with my mom and your Grams as role models, how could you possible be a bad mother? I have it on good authority that they were pretty awesome." Having gotten the memories of the last year, back home, Jeremy knew that there were a lot of unresolved issues that Bonnie had with her own mother, not only her leaving, but her becoming a vampire and he knew that it was still going to take some time for her to work through all of that, but he was determined to be there for her whenever she needed him for support. "But yeah, I get it. I mean it's kind of the same with my dad dying. Sure, John and Ric were there, but it wasn't the same as if my dad was there and I know it's not exactly the same cause I had both of my parents until I fourteen, but I get it."

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im_a_witch
2012-07-06 02:46 am UTC (link)

"They were, don't get me wrong. I just wish that my actual mom was around more...and didn't abandon me when I was little." It stung even more that she'd basically adopted a boy who wasn't even her own son, and cared about him more than Bonnie. She didn't like when she got those memories from back home. "But we do have each other, and that's the real important thing."

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savedbythering
2012-07-06 11:12 pm UTC (link)

As Bonnie talked about her mother, Jeremy moved even closer, if that were possible and moved his free hand to lace their fingers together, "As far as I'm concerned, it's her loss. She missed out on seeing how awesome and caring you are and I know that you'll do everything in your power to be there for Sheila the way she wasn't for you," Jeremy hoped that what he was saying would make Bonnie feel better and that she wouldn't take it the wrong way, because he didn't want to get into an argument when things were going so well at the moment, "We do. And even though we're missing some people we've still got a pretty great support system."

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	im_a_witch 2012-07-07 04:25 am UTC (link)
	Bonnie leaned her head on Jeremy's shoulder, sighing contentedly. "I will," she said. "I honestly never planned on having kids, but I'm going to make damn sure that I'm there for my little girl. We might have a pretty good support system, which helps a lot, but I'm going to make damn sure that I'm the best mom I can be." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

savedbythering
2012-07-09 01:38 am UTC (link)

"If we're being honest, which we can't not be right now, I never thought I'd have kids either. Once all the vampire stuff came into our lives, I just kind of figured that I'd either wind up getting killed or get turned somehow, so I'd never get a chance." Jeremy said, squeezing Bonnie's hand, "And I know that you're gonna be an awesome mom. I have no doubts about that. I just wish I didn't have so many doubts about whether or not I'll be a good dad."

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