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dawn summers | anything but ordinary (niblet) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2011-06-06 22:51:00

Entry tags:

dawn summers, sam winchester, spike, willow rosenberg

Who: Dawn Summers, Willow Rosenberg, Spike, & Sam Winchester
When: Tonight
Where: Dawn's apartment
What: Dawn tries to do something stupid
Rating: High for attempted suicide. WARNING: Subject matter may be sensitive for some people. Please be warned before clicking.
Status: In Progress

The deaths were her fault, despite what Willow, Crowley, and Adam had said. Dawn knew the truth - if she hadn't been there, if the monks had never turned her human, no one would be in danger from Glory. No one would have died. Eliot, Molly, so many others. Too many others. Too many were going to die yet, if Glory had her way. Dawn knew that she couldn't turn herself over - that would be condemning them all to death. And she also knew if she tried to get to Ben, Glory would surface in a heartbeat. There was just one thing left to do, and that was to end her own life. Like Ben had said, if she was dead, Glory wouldn't have a reason to ever surface again. She'd never be able to get home, and would go back to lurking in his mind, trapped forever. Really, it hadn't been that hard of a choice.

Usually when peopled died in Colligo, they came back. Dawn hoped that was the case, but in case it wasn't, she had asked Sam to take Katie...in case she didn't come back. She'd written notes while pretending to watch TV with Spike. Letters to Parker & Jude to tell them how right they'd been, a letter to Sam, letters to Willow and Spike, and one for Buffy that would likely never get read. As she moved around the apartment, she was well aware of Spike following her, watching her, so she acted as normal as she could. The letters were tucked under Katie's blanket as she put her to bed, and then went into her bedroom to get her pajamas. Finally, she turned and faced Spike head on. "I'm going to take a bath. Are you going to follow me in there, too? 'Cause...creepy, even for you."

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niblet
2011-06-07 04:01 am UTC (link)

She crossed her arms over the clothes she was holding, mirroring his stance without even realizing it. Her head tilted a little, as she tried to keep from being uber depressed, or change her mind. She just had to hope that she'd be brought back after this was all over. "That doesn't include following me into the bathroom." Pushing her hair back from her face, she started to walk past him.

"I won't be long, Spike." And that was true. It shouldn't take long for her to bleed out...right? A part of her couldn't believe she was going to actually do this, but it had to be done. "Keep an eye on Katie, okay?"

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1ofthegoodguys
2011-06-07 04:11 am UTC (link)

Spike sighed and ran a hand through his hair, which wasn't slicked back as it usually was, leaving it a little wild. He didn't like the idea of letting Dawn out of his sight, even for a few minutes, but it wasn't like Glory could get into the bathroom without going through the rest of the apartment first and Spike would be well aware if she showed up, "Fine. Ten minutes." Even that felt too long, but he knew from experience that suffocating Dawn wasn't a good idea either.

Moving aside, he allowed her to walk past her and followed her as far as the living room where he sat back down on the couch and began flipping channels, the volume turned down so he could pay attention to everything despite his more sensitive hearing.

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niblet
2011-06-07 04:18 am UTC (link)

She nodded her agreement, then went into the bathroom after he sat on the couch. She locked the bathroom door quietly, then stepped over to the tub and started the water. Closing her eyes, she took a deep breath, then reopened them and began to get undressed.

When she finally slipped into the water, she picked up the razorblade she had set on the edge and studied it for a long moment. Swallowing hard, she leaned her head back and just thought about it all. First to come to mind was Katie, her gorgeous daughter. Her eyes welled up with tears at the thought that she might never see her again, but then Molly's face flew into her thoughts and she had to close her eyes again. The tears began to spill over as she began to think of all that Jude and Parker had said, and of all the others who had already been hurt, and who still would.

Dawn took a deep breath, opening her eyes, and slowly drew the blade across her left wrist, hissing in pain as she did so. She closed her eyes again to take a deep breath, then opened them and did the same to her right wrist. The blade slipped out of her fingers and onto the bathroom floor, and Dawn slipped her wrists beneath the water, leaning back with her head against the wall. Maybe now she could make things right again, she figured, as the tears started to fall more heavily.

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fireinthesoul
2011-06-08 12:12 am UTC (link)

Sam had gone to see Ruby earlier in the day. Caden was still with Juno, and after talking to her and reassuring himself that both she and the two month old were perfectly fine, he decided to stop by Dawn's apartment before he went to collect Caden. Something she'd said earlier, just her general tone when they'd spoken over the network had put Sam on edge. He wanted to check on her, maybe offer her a shoulder to lean on for a bit, before he went home.

He knocked at her door, softly at first to try and not wake Katie if she was sleeping. He knew all too well how precious that time was, when the little one slept and all was quiet. He cherished every moment had had with his son, but when Caden slept, Sam enjoyed that time too. "Dawn? Hey, it's Sam. Open up."

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1ofthegoodguys
2011-06-08 12:26 am UTC (link)

Unaware yet that anything was amiss in the bathroom, Spike had continued to flip channels until he heard the knock at the door. He didn't think Dawn was expecting anyone and if it were Glory she would have probably knocked down the door instead of knocking on it, but he still proceeded with caution until Sam spoke. Spike knew very little about Sam, only that he'd been around a few times since Katie was born and had a kid of his own, but he was a friend of Dawn's and from what he'd heard, a hunter as well, so he didn't see any harm in letting him in.

"Kind of late to be visiting, don't you think, Jolly Green?" Spike smirked, quirking a brow at the much taller man. He didn't let Sam linger in the hall too long though, moving aside to let him in, not wanting to advertise the fact that Dawn was there to anyone who didn't already know.

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fireinthesoul
2011-06-10 12:08 am UTC (link)

Sam looked down his nose at the smaller, shorter man. He had a feeling looks were deceiving, and Spike could take him in a fight. "As far as nicknames go, I prefer Moose."

Sam stepped inside, and glanced back out into the hallway before shutting, and locking the door. "I talked to Dawn earlier. Said I might come by and see Katie. Guess she's probably sleeping?" Sam didn't see Dawn or Katie, and assumed Dawn was in the bedroom putting the infant down.

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1ofthegoodguys
2011-06-10 02:26 am UTC (link)

"Moose? You're serious?" Spike had heard more ridiculous nicknames, but he hadn't thought that anyone outside of a high school comedy was actually branded with that nickname. "If you insist."

Spike closed and locked the door once Sam was inside and started back towards the living room, not waiting to see if Sam followed before he began talking, "Mini Bit is sleeping and Dawn is taking a bath. Tried to convince her to wait, but women are funny when it comes to hygiene." It wasn't until he sat back down on the couch that the smell hit him. A familar smell. A very familar smell. A rich metallic smell. Blood.

"Shite!" Jumping up from the couch, Spike shot towards the bathroom door without even an explaination to Sam, "Dawn! Dawn, open up." The smell was stronger once he reached the bathroom door and he pounded on it twice before backing up, getting ready to throw himself at it.

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