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Tweak says, "What if god was one of us?"

Sam Winchester [Supernatural] (fireinthesoul) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2011-06-06 16:07:00

Entry tags:

ruby, sam winchester

Who: Ruby and Sam Winchester, with possible appearances by Dean and/or Claire Winchester
>What: Ruby and Sam are reuniting
Where: The Crisis Center
When: Today
Warnings: Will update if necessary

Sam's heart beat just a little too fast. He wasn't nervous, but he was apprehensive. Like when he learned to drive. There was a certain level of excitement, but there was also the innate knowledge that this was something huge, and potentially life altering. Meeting Ruby face to face, again, could go either way.

He'd met her on the street when she first arrived. Caden had been with him then. Sam had had something of an upper hand, because Ruby had been new to Colligo, and a little disoriented. Sam had been thinking a lot about her since then, and the unresolved feelings he harbored for her.

He had cared for her, far more than he would ever admit. She had been there for him when Dean was dead and gone. She had carried him through those horrible months without his brother, and even though the promises she made were lies, she'd offered him comfort he couldn't get anywhere else. The blood and the sex had been bonus, and Sam wasn't just ashamed to think of tall that now, but he was...excited by it. Turned on. He tried to deny it, but damn, the sex had been good and the blood had made him feel invincible.

He cleared his throat as he approached the crisis center. Dean and Claire were somewhere near by, which gave him a sense of both security, and violation. He'd asked them to back him up for their benefit more than his own. He knew neither of them would be happy with him if he met with Ruby on his own, but he felt like a child dragging them along. He could handle Ruby, he could take care of himself. He wasn't going to fall in to any traps she might try to lay for him, because there was no need for her promises in Colligo. Dean was alive and well, twice over. Lucifer had come and gone, Azazel too. Whatever threats they faced, they could face head on. Sam didnt' need Ruby's blood any more than he needed her lies.

What he really wanted was her friendship. But Dean would never understand that, and Sam knew he'd have a fit if Sam ever said as much out loud. So Sam would play by Dean's rules and expectations. At least on the surface.

"Ruby," Sam greeted her with a forced and awkward smile.

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	wedoitmyway 2011-06-10 04:40 pm UTC (link)
	Ruby looked him over, ignoring the increase in her own heart rate. God, she'd forgotten what it felt like when she was near him. How much she enjoyed it when they were together...but that wasn't what they were there to talk about, now. "You don't look so bad yourself," Ruby said, making smalltalk. "How are you?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

fireinthesoul
2011-06-10 08:12 pm UTC (link)

Sam shrugged. He half glanced over his shoulder, and put his hands in his pockets. "Didn't realise you liked the cave man look," he said with a little smile. He hadn't shaved since Caden came home, though it looked like he had a perpetual five o'clock shadow.

"I'm good. One day at a time, you know. Getting by." He wanted to relax, and he wasn't sure if his tension was because Dean and Claire were near by or because he was so close to Ruby. So close, and yet so far.

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wedoitmyway
2011-06-12 04:58 pm UTC (link)

"It's a good look on you," Ruby said with a small smirk.

"Good. I'm glad to hear it." She felt like an awkward teenager. She had so many things she wanted to say to him, but she didn't how to say them or where to start. The tension in his body didn't go unnoticed, either. She chalked it up to it probably being that he thought she was going to pull something on him, which she didn't blame him for.

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fireinthesoul
2011-06-13 02:03 pm UTC (link)

"Yeah," Sam nodded. He cleared his throat and hunched his shoulders with his hands in his pockets. "Here's the thing," he voice dropped low. "Dean and his wife, they're here." He shifted his stance, trying to keep his body language guarded and suspicious. "I want to talk to you, without them watching."

He really hadn't meant to tell her about their audience, but the words just sort of tumbled out of his mouth. He had to fight to keep from relaxing after he'd said it. he needed Dean and Claire to think he was on guard, and not letting that guard down.

"I don't want to jerk you around, Ruby. But as long as they're here I can't really talk, you know?"

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	wedoitmyway 2011-06-14 03:04 am UTC (link)
	Ruby's face tensed at the mention of Dean watching them, her annoyance noticeable at first. Her face softened after he said that he really wanted to talk to her. "Is there a place we can go where they won't spy on us?" She asked him in a hushed whisper. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

fireinthesoul
2011-06-14 01:54 pm UTC (link)

"Anywhere we go in the city, it's likely to get back to them." Not that everyone knew who Ruby was, but Sam had been around long enough that people talked. He hated to evade Dean and Claire like this, but he wasn't going to be able to get a good read on Ruby if he couldn't relax, and get her to relax too.

"Out toward the edge of town, we'd be off the radar, for the most part." He knew it was risky. Ruby was a demon, and she'd used him since before. She'd played him like a fiddle, he'd fallen right in to her trap. He wanted to believe she wouldn't do that again, but he knew it was as likely as not. He wasn't sure why he felt compelled to take the chance, but he wanted to give her the benefit of the doubt.

She'd been his rock, when Dean was dead. he knew if not for her, he wouldn't have survived those agonising months that Dean was in hell. She'd preyed on his weakness, he knew that now, but she was till mostly responsible for keeping him alive. He didn't eel that he owed her, but he felt...something. Some kind of twisted loyalty. He was going to give her a chance, at the least.

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wedoitmyway
2011-06-14 05:12 pm UTC (link)

"Is there even a point of doing this if your brother and his wife are going to come running in the second it looks like I'm 'screwing' with you and start flinging the salt and holy water?" She trusted Sam. She didn't trust Dean.

"I want to talk to you, Sam. I really do...but I don't want to do it knowing that someone's hovering over us, waiting to pounce at the right moment. It's nothing against you, really. But it has everything to do with the fact that Dean is not my biggest fan."

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fireinthesoul
2011-06-14 05:30 pm UTC (link)

"I know," Sam scrubbed a hand over his face. "That's why I told you they're here now. I want to see you, alone, without them influencing every breath I take. The second I look like I've let my guard down, they'll swoop down and come in for the big intervention." Sam sighed. "And I get it, I do. They want to protect me. I've got Caden now, and can't be reckless and stupid and" Sam waved a hand. he hoped it looked convincing to Dean and Claire. He hated deceiving them, but he didn't see much choice.

"Hopefully the fact I agreed to see you like this, with them tagging along will appease them, and they'll back off. They mean well, and I really wouldn't have them any other way, but..." Another waved of his hand, a shift of his hip. "But I'm a grown man and I want to see you. Alone." There was nothing suggestive in his tone or his stance, he wasn't thinking of getting her alone to do anything inappropriate or immoral.

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	wedoitmyway 2011-06-14 06:51 pm UTC (link)
	"I know you have a life here, Sam. I respect that, I do. I know Dean is just trying to look out for you, but I would like to be able to talk to you without Big Brother watching us." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fireinthesoul 2011-06-15 12:47 am UTC (link)
	"I know. I want that too." Sam dropped his gaze for a moment. "Give me a fay or two. I'll contact you, we'll figure something out. but for now, I can go and they can see you kept your hands to yourself and everything" Sam's expression turned mournful for a moment, but he recovered quickly ad returned to his neutral expression. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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