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Gabriel (archaic_rival) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2010-10-30 14:51:00

Entry tags:

!closed, castiel, gabriel

Who: Gabe and Castiel angelofnowhere
What: A meeting of ~~brothers~~ friends
When: Friday morning, 11am
Where: A cafe near the Roadhouse
Warnings: TBD

Gabriel had been regaining feeling in his being, little by little, after he had retreated within himself to mourn the death of Jade and the loss of Castiel's wings. He rejoiced that Jade had been restored, but he was still sore at Elaine for allowing things to go as far ash she had. He hoped that Michael's presence would serve to keep the young ruler of creation--or at least the corner of it that was Colligo--in accountability. But he didn't know Michael. Nor was he any closer to making a decision about whom he loved more deeply; Jo or Jade.

But all of that was secondary at the moment. His one-time brother and friend was in need, and Gabriel was here to minister.

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	heavenslancer 2010-11-05 04:06 am UTC (link)
	"Gabriel frowned, almost as frustrated. "Everyone makes mistakes. Gabriel. Mine are obvious. Sam's are spectacular. Jade is aware of your imperfections. How is inflicting them on Joanna better than inflicting them on Jade? I am missing your logic, Gabriel. I love Sam despite his flaws and mistakes. Isn't that how it is for everyone?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	archaic_rival 2010-11-05 04:21 am UTC (link)
	He sighed then, head hanging. "I love her, Cas. I'll never stop loving her. But emotions...they aren't logical. Even I don't understand what I'm feeling. I just...I need to talk to her. I won't know what's going to happen between us until I do." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

heavenslancer
2010-11-05 04:28 am UTC (link)

Castiel's fire cooled. His voice softened. "Sam and I... we almost parted ways two weeks ago... I loved him but I wasn't sure I could be with him. I didn't want to leave but I didn't think I could stay. We spoke, in desperation. We are... still together and we are stronger together but... love isn't all you need," he conceded.

His was still soft as he asked, "Do you love Joanna too?"

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archaic_rival
2010-11-05 04:42 am UTC (link)

Gabriel swallowed, folding his hands in his lap to still his nerves. "I care for her more than I ever thought I could care for a human--and you know I've always had a soft spot for the little ones. I never realized I could fall so quickly into the feeling of love. The euphoria and the infatuation of it. It makes me doubt myself. I know I love Jade...but I think I love Jo too. Is that even possible?"

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heavenslancer
2010-11-05 04:59 am UTC (link)

"I believe it is possible to love both..." Castiel said. "But you can only give yourself to one unless they agree to share you. I understand loving a human, I truly do. The surprise, the joy... I have felt those things. I do not think loving her is a mistake. Remember there was a time when I loved Joanna too. Not as I love Sam now, we never had that long, but I felt what you feel."

Castiel met his brother's gaze. "I wish you to be happy too. I wish for you to have love. I trust you care for Jade. I trust you do not want her hurt but... she will be. I already can see where this will go. I will be there for Jade when she needs me. I will be here for you when you need me. If you are truly moving towards love, genuine love, I will make no protest. Besides, I don't think Jade wants me to hurt you," he added.

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	archaic_rival 2010-11-05 05:15 am UTC (link)
	"Thank you," he murmured, "I appreciate it. But if you do ever feel like decking me," he added, "I could probably bounce back fast enough." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	heavenslancer 2010-11-05 05:27 am UTC (link)
	"I will let you know," Castiel said solemnly, the smallest smile in his eyes. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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