InsaneJournal

WHO: Gabriel and Jade
WHAT: A reunion.
WHEN: Not long after this.
WHERE: A diner near the Grand Library.
RATING: TBD [language and mentions of adult themes at the very least]
STATUS: In Progress [likely slow going]

Gabriel was here. Not the (admittedly funny) Gabriel from Cas' reality, nor the one from Aziraphale's either. No, her Gabriel was here. He was here after having been in Purgatory, in fact. He was here and he knew who she was and what had happened to her. He was here and she had willingly suggested meeting up. Why, she wasn't sure. She also wasn't sure how she felt about seeing him again. In fact, there was only one thing Jade really was sure about at the moment.

She had picked a bad time to try and cut back on the drugs.

It hadn't been easy to start with. The urge to shoot up was one she wasn't sure she'd ever really get rid of without help of some sort, and Jade was far too proud to ask for it. However she had managed to avoid dosing herself up since the insanity had settled down in the city. She had drank plenty of absinthe, and had smoked a little with Cas, but for the most part she was actually sober more often than not. Jade wasn't really sure how she felt about that fact. She missed the numbness that came from the smack, of course. She missed the muted emotions that reminded her so very much of what it felt like to be an Arc, too. Yet being able to remember the day before, knowing for sure that she hadn't said or done something to upset someone else, and being able to maintain a job (even if it was just in Aziraphale's bookshop) was... nice. Strange, but nice.

That niceness had allowed her to stick to her decision to try semi-sobriety for a while, unfortunately, didn't do much for her current situation. She was scared and nervous, worried and angry. All negative emotions and all major triggers for her to want to use. Yet she was refraining, at least until after she'd met up with Gabriel. And as she managed the streets leading from the apartment where she stayed with Cas and Dean, to the diner where she'd agreed to meet her (former) fellow Arc, Jade tried to sort through her emotions as best she could. By the time she'd reached the door to the diner, she was pretty sure that her anger was mostly directed at the Lord. Nothing new there, just compounded by the fact that Gabriel had been sent after Michael, to deal with Sammael. And as for the rest, well, Jade could only hope all of that would fade once she'd reached her destination.

Or possibly once she'd actually started talking to Gabriel, because she was already at her destination and so far the emotions seemed to be growing rather than shrinking. Determined to see this through regardless, Jade simply drew in a steadying breath, opened the door to the diner, and stepped inside.