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Tweak says, "THIS IS SPARTAAAAAAAAA"

Gabriel "Sylar" Gray (inaworldsocold) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2010-06-25 16:59:00

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!@event, !closed, claire winchester, gabriel 'sylar' gray

WHO: Gabriel "Sylar" Gray & Claire Bennet
WHAT: Gabriel needs to learn how to forgive himself. Claire is elected to help him.
WHERE: Gabriel's own mind.
WHEN: After Gabriel's chat with God
RATING: PG
STATUS: In Progress

The sudden shift hadn't been expected to happen again, and when it had happened, he hadn't expected the surroundings that they had arrived in. Gabriel had been far too baffled to really catch him after the last few words had tripped off his tongue, and he had disappeared again. In his own mind? Gabriel stared at his surroundings, reaching down and picking up a watch off of his desk and studied it, frowning for a long moment as he turned it in his hand and held it up to his ear. Nothing. Not a hint. Not a hint of anything.

Dropping it back down, Gabriel shook his head before turning towards the door, the other words confusing him. Her? Who else had he thrown in here? Hopefully it was something that wouldn't kill him on sight since he seemed to be lacking any of his abilities at the moment. Stepping over to the door, Gabriel paused, taking a slow, deep breath before pulling it open and bracing himself for the individual that he might see on the other side.

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goallbuffyonus
2010-07-01 02:41 pm UTC (link)

Claire listened as he talked about whoever was responsible for all of this. The more he talked, the more her brow furrowed, until there was nothing but deep lines across her forehead. Slowly she raised her gaze up to him. "Well," she said slowly, "if it was God, He changed forms. He did look female, before the Lucifer stuff." Biting absently on her lip, she added, "Technically, some of the angels could do this. I don't know about Castiel but I'm pretty sure Aziraphale could manage it if he wanted. Gabriel definitely could..." Trailing off, she thought for a minute longer before shrugging. Whoever was responsible wasn't going to show up and release them so, really, it was pointless. She'd figure out who to blame later. For now, she needed to focus on Gabriel.

Snorting softly, she gave him a small smile. "I'm not being stubborn," she explained. "You're my friend and you need help. I wouldn't be a very good person if I ignored that over something as small as you trying to murder me. Again." Her tone was light. Teasing. Not wanting him to dwell on the truth of her joke, she added, "Besides, if God is responsible, he's not going to let me out just because you're being difficult. He picked me for some reason, so here I am."

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inaworldsocold
2010-07-03 10:50 pm UTC (link)

"Well, this was definitely a guy, a really bad tempered, sarcastic guy," Gabriel said, frowning to himself. And yet, even in all of that, he seemed to have a certain hope that Gabriel had lost himself, a certainty that things would all work out just fine in the end. And that wasn't something that one usually expected from people who gave the impression of a cynic. "Who apparently thought the best solution to my problems was locking me in my own head," He said, glancing over at Claire with a quirk of a smile.

"I really wish I could have the faith in me that you seem to," He said, a quiet wistfulness in his tone. "I can't say I've ever been that confident that I'll do the right thing." Not even before... He'd always had his mother pushing him, and while he'd wanted to please her, he'd never had the ability to do so. That was probably why he'd latched onto these abilities so hard. They had made him more than what he had been, given him the strength to carry on. They had made him him...and then they'd taken everything away that he'd wanted, everything that he'd tried to hold onto, and now, they were doing it again.

"Whom am I, Claire?" Gabriel asked quietly. "I don't think I even know anymore."

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goallbuffyonus
2010-07-04 03:21 am UTC (link)

Claire didn't know how to answer his question. She could say what she thought who he was. She could say what she thought others thought. However that wasn't going to help Gabriel in the slightest. No, he needed to figure out who he was. He needed to come to terms with his issues and embrace the person he was - flaws and all - if he was going to ever forgive himself. She wasn't sure why she was so certain about that fact but she was, and she wasn't about to second guess that certainty.

"I can't answer that," she finally said, unsure of what else to say. She offered him an apologetic look, her tone light. "From where I'm sitting, you're..." She shrugged. "You're one of my closest friends. You're a good man with a woman who loves you and two kids who adore you, and a whole mess of people who care about you. You're..." She shrugged again. "You're Gabriel."

Tucking some hair behind her ear, she sighed softly. Her gaze fell to her lap and her brow furrowed a bit. "But that isn't how you see yourself," she acknowledged as she looked back up at him. "And it's your opinion that matters here. Not mine. I can sit here all day and point out what I consider both good points and bad points about you, but it all comes down to what you think and feel."

Claire fell silent and studied him for a moment before asking in a soft voice, "There are some things that others just can't decide for you, Gabriel. Just like I had to figure out that not feeling pain didn't make me any less human, you have to figure this out. I can help but... I can only do so much."

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inaworldsocold
2010-07-04 04:25 am UTC (link)

"That's the problem, Claire," Gabriel said as he looked over at her. She looked so sincere about all of them, and he couldn't help but feel a spark of guilt at putting her through what he had. "I don't know how I see myself."

Even just his name had been something that he'd thought he didn't deserve for the longest time. Reclaiming it like he had hadn't been a simple task, and after that last bout with his abilities, there was part of him that felt as though he didn't deserve it again. But he quashed that feeling quickly, shaking his head with a sigh.

"I just want to do what's right," Gabriel said. "By Elle, by Maddie, Noah, Peter, you... Myself. I just need to figure out how."

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goallbuffyonus
2010-07-04 10:43 pm UTC (link)

The look on Claire's face was a thoughtful one as she considered what he'd said. She knew there wasn't an easy fix for what he was going through. She was even starting to understand that they were probably going to be there for a while. She didn't like it, she was still pissed off about it, but it wasn't his fault. And even though it wasn't fair in the slightest, if God really thought she could help somehow, that's what she was going to do. Not to get out of this little prison he'd tossed her in, though. She was going to help because Gabriel was her friend and he clearly needed it.

She just had to figure out how.

Idly, she wondered what her dad would say in this situation. Or her mom. Hell, what anyone would say to this. She came up short however, and finally decided to take another route. She was going to college to be a social worker. That involved learning how to talk people through problems. Granted she wasn't very far into those classes yet, but at least it was something. If nothing else it was better than just sitting there silently and at a loss.

"What do you mean, do what's right?" The question was asked in a tone laced with curiosity, her voice soft-spoken and her expression carefully neutral. Whatever his answer was, she'd work with it and just hope like hell that inspiration would strike along the way.

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