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Tweak says, "Mmm... Donuts..."

Kate Bennet (livingonlove) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2010-06-13 23:37:00

Entry tags:

!@event, !closed, gabriel 'sylar' gray, kate bennet

WHO: Kate Bennet and Gabriel "Sylar" Gray
WHAT: Sylar offered to tell Kate everything about her husband. She declined. He insisted.
WHEN: Not long after this.
WHERE: Kate's apartment
RATING: TBD
STATUS: In Progress

Kate had a headache. A pounding that had begun in her temples shortly after her arrival in this bizarre city and had since developed into a throbbing behind her eyes that made her want to cry and scream at the same time. However she didn't do either. Instead she calmly put down her PDA and made her way from the living room of the apartment she'd apparently been given, to the kitchen. After pouring herself a glass of water, she stood at the sink and stared at the blank wall in front of her for a few moments. While standing there, she tried not to think of anything at all. Especially any of the things she'd just been told by either Noah or the man known as Sylar.

She failed. Rather epically, in fact.

A few minutes later she gave up and simply accepted the fact that this wasn't something she could just put out of her mind. It was all too much, too fast, and while it was completely overwhelming it had also sparked within her a curiosity that was so strong it was almost tangible. Her own apparent death aside, as well as the discovery that there were people who could do things that no one should be capable of doing, she couldn't seem to shake the urge to find out everything she could about the man her husband had become. She knew that she would probably regret it. Noah had said himself that he had done things he wasn't proud of, things she couldn't like. Sylar had certainly confirmed that fact, and then some. However, Kate couldn't help it. She was a naturally curious person and, considering less than an hour earlier she would have sworn she knew Noah Bennet as well as she knew herself, she felt an almost compulsion to make that a truth once more.

She was waiting, though. Waiting for Noah to agree to meet somewhere so they could talk. She didn't care where they met - although she would admit that she had a slight preference to either this apartment or his as it offered privacy that they both would likely need - she just hoped it would be soon. Not just because of the things she wanted to ask, either. Because she was alone, in a strange city, and she was frightened. She didn't want to be alone. She wanted to be with the man that she loved. If they were back home, she would have sought him out by now. Kate was hardly the type to just sit around and wait for someone to come to her. And the only reason she wasn't doing that here was because, well, she didn't know where to find him.

That didn't mean she had to just sit in her apartment though, she realized a few seconds later. Her gaze flickered back to the device she'd been given by the knights in the library and she frowned in thought. Technically speaking Noah couldn't find her either. However with the PDA, they could stay in contact. So she didn't have to hang around and drive herself half-nuts with nothing to do but think about things. She could go out. Explore the city a bit, get her mind off of her troubles. She doubted there was much that would manage that, of course, but she decided it wouldn't hurt to try. And with that thought she was heading to the door to do just that... only to find herself face to face with perhaps the last person in all of Colligo that she wanted to see.

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livingonlove
2010-06-17 01:21 pm UTC (link)

Kate's smile was a faint one but still present. "No one starts out bad," she stated quietly. She almost added that everyone had some good in them but she thought that might be going over the top a little. Just because she believed it didn't mean she had to say it. Instead she shook her head slightly and turned back to her tea.

"I believe you tried," she added after a second. Retaking her seat, she chewed absently at her lip for a minute. "I just think you've given up. For whatever reason, you can't seem to find that fight anymore." Her eyes shone with emotion as she gazed across the kitchen at him.

"I may not understand how hard it was for you but I do know that whatever you went through it can't be half as bad as going through this life, completely hopeless."

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inaworldsocold
2010-06-17 01:33 pm UTC (link)

"Imagine someone boring into your temple with a power drill, constantly, night and day, every second, no matter what you're doing. And you know that no matter how bad it gets, it's not going to kill you. It'll just get worse and worse and worse until you give it what it wants," Sylar sighed, pausing a long moment as he mixed the two pans together. "You can ignore it for so long, push it to the side, try and do things to make it not so bad, but it is never going to go away, no matter what you do. And the one morning, you wake up with it so bad that when you glance at the person laying next to you, someone that you love with your whole heart, that you contemplate, for a brief second, killing her just to be rid of it."

Turning the fire on the stove down, manually this time, Sylar turned to look back at her, the expression on his face a mix of pained regret and confusion, "Then... Then, even after nearly a year of being...being as close to normal as I get, killing a few random people seemed a decent enough price to pay."

Even if he had had to add Angela along with the rest in order to try and keep it under cover.

And even if he'd enjoyed it.

Though, the sympathy all fell apart if he told her that last bit.

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livingonlove
2010-06-19 12:16 am UTC (link)

There was certainly sympathy to be had, too. Kate was practically fit to bursting with it. Oh, she labored under no delusion that he was by any means good. However he clearly had tried. He'd just lost.

Picking up her tea once more, she took a sip then peered thoughtfully into the cup. "I don't know what the answer is," she said quietly. Her dark eyes cut back to him, shining with conviction. "But I do know that there is an answer." She shook her head and set her cup down, palms pressing flatly against the counter.

"I have learned things about people in the past few hours that I never knew existed. I've found myself on an alien planet, in the future, like something out of the Twilight Zone. If all of that is possible, then I firmly believe it is also possible for you to find the help you need." She offered him a small, slightly sorrowful smile. "In order to find it though, you can't just give up. Which, to me, sounds exactly like what you've done."

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inaworldsocold
2010-06-19 12:36 am UTC (link)

"Maybe," He said, though his words seemed less than convinced as he stirred the dish before leaving it, crossing to the fridge to root out a bottle of soy sauce and opened the cabinet next to the fridge to pull out a boil in the bag rice. Filling another pan with water, he set it on the stove to let it come to the boil so that he could toss the rice into it.

"Maybe I've given up because it's a lot easier than fighting it," Sylar said, looking over at her. "But there's only so long that a mind can stay sane while fighting."

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