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So I don't usually write stuff down </s>except delivery schedules or shopping lists</s>, but I thought maybe I should start. Tifa's not here to keep me on track. </s>Or make sure I buy cucumbers instead of carrots when I can't tell the difference.</s> If there's anyone else who knows how bad my memory is sometimes, it's me.

</s>I feel like an idiot doing this.</s> In case something happens and I forget, my name's Cloud Strife. I'm 24. I grew up in Nibelheim. I left for Midgar when I was 14 and went to work for Shinra. I was an infantryman for 2 years. That's how I met Zack. Now I run a delivery service and help Tifa with her bar. Remember Tifa? We grew up together back in Nibelheim. She lived next door and made me promise before I left that I'd save her if she was ever in a bind. Now we share the space over the bar. We have 2 kids living with us, Denzel and Marlene.

Now I need to pay attention to this part. It's important. I am not a SOLDIER. I might think I am, but all of those missions and stories are Zack's. I'm not him. I'm not a SOLDIER First Class. Zack told me about all the things he'd seen and done before he died. Those memories are his. I have to remember that. I owe him that much. Whatever happens, don't forget that I promised to live out both our lives.

I'm not going to tell myself why my memories got a little confused before, because I don't know what made me forget this time, and I don't know how well I'll handle hearing the truth this time, either. But as long as I remember to separate me from Zack, everything else should make sense again eventually.

And if Sephiroth's here? Or any guy with Mako eyes and silver hair? Don't listen to him. Especially if he says anything about Jenova. Same goes for Hojo. I'll recognize him as soon as he opens his mouth and starts talking. He'll probably call me a specimen, and I'll probably want to punch him.

I'm leaving this on the PDA where there's a good chance I'll see it first thing if something does happen. I hope I won't need it, but it's not like there's anyone else around here who can put my head straight for me.