Mello (chocolatefetish) wrote in clockwork_rp, @ 2008-07-18 05:47:00 |
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Entry tags: | mello::chocolatefetish, schuldig::themastermind |
Who: Mello (chocolatefetish) and Schuldig (themastermind)
What: reacquainting?
When: Shortly after Schu's post
Where: Schuldig's room
Warnings: language, violence, you name it
The truth was, Mello wasn't entirely sure how he felt about Schuldig reappearing. Oh, he was glad to see him and looking forward to the encounter he fully expected once he found him (not that he really expected him to be seriously hiding). But it was complicated.
For one, he didn't like how much he'd missed him when he'd left. He hadn't meant to get so attached and he hated that he'd been hurt and felt abandoned. Glad to see him or not, Mello didn't intend to make himself that vulnerable again. The real trick would be avoiding it when he was obviously already inclined to. Damn it, he wanted to win and that was exactly the way to lose.
And then there was the way his personal life felt precariously balanced at the moment. He liked things that way, that sense of danger if he weren't careful, a balancing act between too much and not enough in more than one arena. But Schuldig here again... that could upset the balance he'd been working so hard on, with an outcome he couldn't quite predict. Sure, Mello liked things he couldn't predict; it kept things exciting. But he'd rather not have the whole thing blow up in his face. What would he be willing to sacrifice, and for what? He wasn't sure.
And yet, even with all these doubts, the thoughts churning inside his mind the entire way, here he was. Schuldig's old room and, as best he could tell, his current one. He wasn't one to hesitate, so he raised his hand and knocked. No matter what else happened, this part should be enjoyable.