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Tweak says, "I believe I can fly"

Ambrose (sinners_eyes) wrote in childofeden_rp,
@ 2013-12-25 22:20:00

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character: ambrose, character: buffy summers, location: ambrose house, thread: complete, |week: 06, ~date: 08/august 12

Who: Ambrose and Buffy
Where: Ambrose's home, Buffy's room
When: Week 6, Monday, Afternoon
Why: Ambrose and Buffy have another heart to heart talk. This time they are both calm, for now.
Warning: TBD

The house was quite again. After the explosion of last week than then very little talk, aside from letting Buffy go the the slaves night, they had maybe spoken a total of ten words to each other.

While Buffy had said nothing more than fighting had happened there was still that little nagging voice that something more had happened. So he stayed away from her. He also went to the hardware store and bought heavy duty locks to go on his front and back door. His own door had also gone to back to being locked up again. He rarely came out from his bedroom and when he did he made sure Buffy was up stairs when he came down. He knew they would need to talk about what had happened and what Lucius had alluded to. Even though Buffy had said nothing happened, Ambrose wanted to believe her and his heart did but his brain was not too sure.

It was his heart that finally had convinced his body to walk up the stairs to Buffy's room. The door was open and Buffy was just sitting on the bed. He knocked on the door and swallowed. If his heart was still functioning it would be have plummeted into his stomach by now. "We seemed to be needed a heart to heart too much, Buffy." he licked his lips. "I want to trust you, and a portion does, but how can I when I told you not to go out, and specifically not to go to Lucius' place and yet you did. And you got hurt, and from what he said, you did more than fight. Am I suppose to trust you when you can't even listen to me? I have never treated you like a slave and then I do once. I suppose I did have something coming to me for doing that, but I worry about you Buffy. I care for you. I love you and yet you can throw that aside to go fight a witch, a very powerful one and I could do nothing about it. Do you know Emerson DeWitt had to keep be from coming to get you. I am strong, Buffy, but I am not that strong."

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sinners_eyes
2014-01-05 08:35 am UTC (link)

"Batman, I think...the black clothes sound right and he did have ears I believe that stick up." He remembered them from some package or something, he couldn't remember where he saw it but the man had been some sort of vigilante. "I suppose super strength would be a super power."

"I am like a teacher. I reserve the right to bring tests up when I want." He chuckled lightly. "Correct, and the locks will be helping with that one." He knew it hurt both of them to have the door locked again, but he didn't trust her to listen and to stick her nose into where it shouldn't be so the door was locked again. "And some day it will be opened back up again. It is not that you are doing a bad job, you just don't have much practice with it, not that I want to have practice being a..." He said, moving his hands, he just couldn't say it.

He kissed back when she moved to kiss him. "And I mean that one above all." he smiled down on her. "I still love you, and it came close to breaking, but I now know you did not mean that."

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girlofprophecy
2014-01-05 08:51 am UTC (link)

"And the creepy, prophetic dreams that have me on a trained, three hour sleep schedule," she added casually, having gotten somewhat used to it by now. It was a conversational topic for her, and besides. They were being honest right? "But I think that's kind of a useless power. Like being able to talk to fish or something."

Of course it stung to think that she'd nearly hurt him enough to break that love, but she had to hear it if only to know how serious it had almost been. She nodded, looking back up at him. At least he was smiling at her again.

"I'm a work in progress. If you can put up with me, I'll do my best to fix it," she added more seriously. "I guess I didn't realize how much I've changed and my life has changed since two years ago. Like I said, everything kind of became about what I am and what I'm supposed to do. I was losing me in there somewhere, and I'm used to focusing so much on that. Sometimes I just do. But it's not just me anymore. It's me and you. So I'll be more careful." Buffy smiled up at him. "With your heart and with me too."

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sinners_eyes
2014-01-06 04:10 am UTC (link)

"Ah so that is why you pace at night?" He asked, he had always wondered why she never slept through the night. "I would not like to talk to any animal that would be your future meal...then again." He kinda did it all the time, really and that was awkward to talk about.

"I will gladly put up with you, if you put up with me." Ambrose smiled. "I understand about focusing on something so hard. I did that for decades, not wanting to become a monster and to hope that I would never fall in love with someone that would see me at that monster. Then all of a sudden a little bubbly ball of blonde hair and sass comes into my life and I am lost to her charms. I am more careful than you and I think that is what balances us out."" Why don't we just lay down for a bit? just to rest."

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girlofprophecy
2014-01-06 04:47 am UTC (link)

"Thankfully they usually aren't about dinner for me," Buffy answered him with a laugh. "Mostly about demonic prophecy this, morbid sacrificial ritual that... And so on and so forth. The happy, pleasant sort of thing you want to think about while you're falling asleep."

It was odd to think that she'd come here, looking to do some probably unrealistic level of good for people because that's what heroes were supposed to do. "You'll never be a monster to me. Not now that I know you," Buffy said, smiling up at him and nodding as she made her way over to the bed. "Rest sounds good to me, even just for a little bit. Especially with you."

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sinners_eyes
2014-01-06 08:02 pm UTC (link)

Ambrose chuckled. "Well I would not know. I don't dream, because I never truly fall asleep. I just usually lay there. There are moments that maybe you could call being a sleep, but I don't need the sleep. It is more to make me feel human than to sleep."

"You don't know that Buffy. If you saw...I am still surprised that Emerson DeWitt is still my friend after everything that happened. I..." he couldn't tell her what he had said to Emerson, it was too painful and he knew she would never understand. "Good. I just want to hold you and make sure you are safe." he moved to lay down and opened his arms for her.

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girlofprophecy
2014-01-06 11:19 pm UTC (link)

"Dreams aren't all they're cracked up to be. Even when they're the happy stuff, you just wake up eventually anyway," Buffy replied, smiling at him as he laid down on the bed. "And sometimes it's just nice to cuddle." She curled up beside him, snuggling up against him in his arms.

"I do know that," she continued to insist stubbornly. "Maybe we'll never find out, but I'm just telling you right now. I'll never see you as a monster. No matter what."

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sinners_eyes
2014-01-07 01:51 am UTC (link)

He was silent for a while, just holding Buffy in his arms and loving her closeness. But there as still something they needed to talk about, something that had been on his mind for too long.

"What Lucius said about...certain things. I have tried to get around that. But I need you know, what was your relationship with Lucien, or Daniel, as you knew him back in the camps? You said, friend, but I need to know everything."

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girlofprophecy
2014-01-07 03:09 am UTC (link)

Buffy closed her eyes, relaxing against him and thanking her lucky stars that they'd come back to this point. Well, a point they could move forward from anyhow. She felt safe, and there weren't many things or people in the world that could make her feel that way.

"Daniel was my best friend in the camps. Even before Giles came along, peddling all that Destiny, Chosen Slayer stuff. He was there for Mom and I when Dad left, and he was there for me when I had to finally come to terms with what I am," she said slowly. "Lucius told me that Daniel loved me, but I'd never even thought about love as something I could have. I didn't even know how he felt. I was so focused on trying to live to see the next day and protect everyone in camp... He knew that, I think. He knew I needed my best friend, not to have my life be more complicated." She was quiet as she reflected on that for a moment, letting it sink in. "I loved him as my best friend, and we were close. He knows things about me that most people never got close enough to see. That's why it was so hard for me to accept that he's not the same person anymore. Because I lost someone who really knew me and always saw me as, well, me. And not the Slayer." She took a deep breath and rose up, just a little so that she was still in his arms but so that she could look at him.

"But I didn't love Daniel the way I love you. My love for him is because he was my closest friend. My love for you makes my heart beat really fast, and it makes my knees weak. It makes me remember that I'm a person, and it makes me a better person. Sometimes I just want you to hold me forever and not let me go. A-and other times I want you to tear my clothes off and just take me. Because I'm yours, and my heart is yours." She looked away, a little shy now from the words that had just come spilling out. "And I've never given my heart to anyone before. Until you. And I don't want to give it to anybody else."

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sinners_eyes
2014-01-11 08:35 am UTC (link)

"You never told me that your Dad left, just that he and your Mother were buffalo watchers." He chuckled, remembering her poor excuse of an excuse.

So Daniel had loved her and no matter what Lucius said, Ambrose knew that a part of Lucius still loved Buffy. He curled his arm around her tighter. He would not give up Buffy without a fight. He also had to remember that what Buffy was saying was true, that she did love him as her loved her.

"It is hard for me to think about someone else in your life. I love you and you love me, but you had history with Daniel, and not with me. I understand that to you, he was just a friend, a brother even, but to me he represents another suitor, as funny as that sounds. I don't, no, I can't lose you to anyone. I am sorry I jumped to conclusions the other day, but I am very jealous man."

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girlofprophecy
2014-01-11 10:18 am UTC (link)

"And here I thought my lies were well thought out and convincing," Buffy remarked dryly. Really, she'd winced when she realized how awful her stories had probably actually been in hindsight. It made her realize even more just how special Ambrose was. He'd had to have known she was bullshitting, and yet he'd never questioned her ridiculous tales in the beginning. Not even once.

"He... was scared. He fought with Mom a lot. He said that we should give ourselves up, that the fight to be free didn't matter. If we surrendered, maybe we'd have a chance," she went on. She trusted him enough, and she wanted to be honest. "It didn't start like that, but you know... Life if the camps isn't always easy, and you lose a lot of people. He didn't want me to live like that, but Mom refused to give up. She said that the things that matter are worth fighting for. He left three years ago." The girl's eyes were distant for a moment, sad but dry. She didn't cry anymore about her father, but that didn't mean that it didn't hurt every bit as bad as it did that day. "It was a year before Giles came, and... all of this happened. I don't even know where he is, if he's here. I don't know if I want to know."

"Daniel meant a lot to me. He still does. Losing my dad was hard. Having to deal with all the Slayer stuff was hard, and I don't know if I could've made it by myself. Giles, my mom, and Daniel. I was lucky to have them," she went on, looking back to Ambrose as she snuggled back against him. "But you don't have to worry about any suitor-ness. I'm yours, and not because you have a piece of paper saying that I am. I'm yours because I'm giving myself to you. Because I love you."

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sinners_eyes
2014-01-14 07:34 am UTC (link)

"Buffy I never believed your lies one bit, but I also knew that when you were comfortable enough that you would tell me the truth and you did. I just had to wait, I can be a very patient man when I need to be." Ambrose smiled.

"I believe you father was wrong, at least from my opinion. You know how much I loath the institution of slavery. I think anything good for the whole, if worth doing. Yes it is not easy, but neither are a lot of things, but we do it because it is right. There is something I desperately want to confide in you, but because of the number of Faes running around I do not want to put it danger, but I will tell you this. I am doing something to help other humans."

He smiled at her. She meant so much to him, even more that he could comprehend. "I will still worry about it, Buffy. I can't help it, but I can promise to trust you. If you say nothing is between the two of you, then it must be true."

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