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Ambrose (sinners_eyes) wrote in childofeden_rp,
@ 2013-12-25 22:20:00

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character: ambrose, character: buffy summers, location: ambrose house, thread: complete, |week: 06, ~date: 08/august 12

Who: Ambrose and Buffy
Where: Ambrose's home, Buffy's room
When: Week 6, Monday, Afternoon
Why: Ambrose and Buffy have another heart to heart talk. This time they are both calm, for now.
Warning: TBD

The house was quite again. After the explosion of last week than then very little talk, aside from letting Buffy go the the slaves night, they had maybe spoken a total of ten words to each other.

While Buffy had said nothing more than fighting had happened there was still that little nagging voice that something more had happened. So he stayed away from her. He also went to the hardware store and bought heavy duty locks to go on his front and back door. His own door had also gone to back to being locked up again. He rarely came out from his bedroom and when he did he made sure Buffy was up stairs when he came down. He knew they would need to talk about what had happened and what Lucius had alluded to. Even though Buffy had said nothing happened, Ambrose wanted to believe her and his heart did but his brain was not too sure.

It was his heart that finally had convinced his body to walk up the stairs to Buffy's room. The door was open and Buffy was just sitting on the bed. He knocked on the door and swallowed. If his heart was still functioning it would be have plummeted into his stomach by now. "We seemed to be needed a heart to heart too much, Buffy." he licked his lips. "I want to trust you, and a portion does, but how can I when I told you not to go out, and specifically not to go to Lucius' place and yet you did. And you got hurt, and from what he said, you did more than fight. Am I suppose to trust you when you can't even listen to me? I have never treated you like a slave and then I do once. I suppose I did have something coming to me for doing that, but I worry about you Buffy. I care for you. I love you and yet you can throw that aside to go fight a witch, a very powerful one and I could do nothing about it. Do you know Emerson DeWitt had to keep be from coming to get you. I am strong, Buffy, but I am not that strong."

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girlofprophecy
2013-12-30 04:34 am UTC (link)

Buffy had noticed that the door was locked again when she went downstairs to get food, and it had broken her heart. She hadn't eaten a lot. She'd scarcely been able to convince herself to train. Between the memory of Lucius cutting into her wrist and the realization that she'd betrayed Ambrose almost as deeply as she'd felt betrayed, it hadn't been a good week. She had been so sure that trying to reach Daniel was the right thing to do, so certain that he couldn't be as lost as everyone else seemed to think he was. Now, she was the one who was utterly and completely lost, and she was all alone in it. Not that she could blame Ambrose.

She was sitting on her bed, just kind of staring at her journal and losing herself, as she often did, in the guilt and the helplessness. She hadn't even heard him approach until he knocked on the door, causing her to jump. He started to speak, reaffirming everything she already knew. She looked away, feeling her shame burn anew in her chest. He'd almost come for her. He could've lost his life doing so.

"I don't know what I can say. I can't pretend like I have a good excuse. Daniel was my best friend. He kept me sane through the whole Slayer thing and the training. I didn't have a lot of people I could lean on back then, and he was there for me. I felt like... I felt like it wasn't right to give up on him, like I couldn't," she tried to explain, though she just sounded tired as opposed to the passionate defense she'd mounted days ago to try and justify herself. "Friends don't give up on friends. I felt like everyone just wanted me to give up on him, and that's not the way I am. I want to save people, I have to or what am I? At least, that's what I thought."

Buffy sighed, turning to look out her window kind of wistfully. "You were right. And maybe it's because I'm stupid and young and I thought that if I tried hard enough, I could get my best friend back. Maybe help Evie too. I know that it's hard to see, but I felt like I had this duty. I had to save Daniel as his friend, and I had to save Evie as the Slayer... from my friend." She laughed, a half-hearted sound, as she shook her head. "But it was never as anything more than his friend. He told me Daniel loved me once, but I never knew it. He was my best friend, but I didn't love him that way, and I would never let the person that he is now touch me in any kind of... Not like that." She turned her head to look at him, even though it was hard to. She was going to have to tell him, probably. At least about the one time.

"I threw the first punch because he threatened you. He floored me a couple of times, and I broke his arm. He took my blood to heal himself," Buffy said, her face sort of crumpling as she actually sad the words aloud. "I didn't think he'd do it, but he did. I passed out there. That's why I needed to rest." Her voice was shaking, and she found that she couldn't look him in the eye anymore. "You were right. I should've listened to you, but please don't ever think that I would sleep with him. Please don't ever think that I would do that to you. I love you." The last words came out as a whisper.

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sinners_eyes
2013-12-30 06:15 am UTC (link)

He was silent while she spoke. He understood he wanted to save him, watching to save her childhood friend. She was too good of a person to just let things like that slide, but she really needed to pick her battles better. he clenched his hand as the thought of someone tasting her blood before he did. He would never do that, take her blood. Even after so many years since his blood frenzy he would never take that chance even to taste her.

"We have never talked about it, but the first, our first time together...were you are virgin? I don't care if you were or not, but I just need to be 100% sure you were or not." The took a long pause. "After my father I never took a chance to get close to anyone. I feared them dying and leave me, or worse, I would kill them. Then Claire, a witch, came along and I thought maybe I could make something of that, but she didn't like me like I liked her. I bought another slave to make her jealous. I could tell Marie what I wanted her to do and she loved me because that was what she was told to do. But it was not real love. I ended up freeing Claire so she could be with her lover. Love for me was not worth it. I had slaves once in a while and visited brothels, I am not a saint." he moved into the room but still stood up the door.

"When I...when I received the alert from Lucius I...well to say the least I freaked out. I did something I have not done in years. I went full on vampiric. My eyes, my body, everything changed. I was so angry at you and Lucius...I wanted to rip him to pieces, I still want to. I was not as my best then with him coming to my home, and bringing the women I love home to me...I never want to show you that side of me, a reason I have never fed from you and that makes me angry that he got to taste you before me. You don't realize was blood means to a vampire. I know you love me, and I love you, but we have to trust each other. Please never time, listen to me and talk to him. I know I was not that level headed the last time and I will try to be next time." He sighed, finally taking a breath.