[WHO:] Gina & Vaughn _vaughn_ [WHAT:] Planning a NY Vacation [WHEN:] Tuesday May 12th - Late Evening [WHERE:] Dare we say... Their Apartment! [STATUS:] Comments [RATING:] PG-13 [Most Likely]
The emotions that had been surging through Gina over the past week or so had had her head whirling with thought throughout her work day. There were so many reasons to be happy and to keep that smile she had on her face plastered there. However behind the smile she couldn’t help but have a few other emotions as well. After talking to Shon the previous night about the child that they had lost her thoughts had kept wandering off to the what could have been scenarios and the what if questions that she had often pondered. There were so many emotions that she couldn’t describe and there was no way for her to put them into words. They didn’t take away from her happiness they were just emotions that paralleled those feelings. With Vaughn, she was happy. She was more than happy. Her life was where she wanted it to be. Gina knew everything happened for a reason and she knew that their break-up had been just a bump in the road on their journey with one another.
Before leaving work, Gina sat there with her employee work schedule in her hands. She had kept herself off of the schedule for awhile so that she and Vaughn would be able to plan their trip, and she really didn’t need to be there most of the time anyway. As her eyes looked over the paper to make sure everyone had a fair amount of hours she zoned out a bit in thought. Her mind reverted back to the conversation with Shon again. Gina’s lips pressed into each other as she thought about what they talked about. Gina believed that their child had a purpose, even though he or she was not brought into the world. When she told Shon she believed their child was watching over them to make sure that they were happy, she meant that. Their little angel, as Shon had referred to their baby, was watching them and guiding them; they had their own little guardian angel. As much as she believed that to be the truth, she also believed that she was being punished. The first baby she had carried and lost was one that she didn’t really want and didn’t really accept until after she had already lost it. She believed that it was her fault that their child was lost because she didn’t appreciate the first one the same way. It was an irrational thought, and she would likely never say it aloud but it was how she was processing everything and no matter what she thought, the child that would have been due any day now wasn’t going to be brought back. She realized that, she accepted that, and she knew that if she ever did conceive another child that it wouldn’t replace the ones she hadn’t been able to carry to term.
Gina sighed and she placed the schedule in a folder on the desk for the managers the next day to look over to clear their own hours. Her purse was gathered and the light-weight jacket she had worn into work was slipped on. As she walked out of the restaurant and locked up she let her mind go back to the good things, not wanting to dwell on the thoughts that made her on the sad side. Her mind had gone back to Vaughn and their relationship. She wasn’t quite sure where it was going but at this point, she didn’t see it going badly and she wasn’t going to think too much on things without knowing what Vaughn wanted from their relationship. She could see them going in so many different ways but each outcome was something she saw herself being happy doing. The ride home from the restaurant was a short and familiar one and she often wondered why she didn’t walk to work and then take a cab back home but that was when she remembered the shoes she normally wore to work and that she would have had some killer blisters if she walked.
When she finally made it to her building and up to her floor she fumbled through her keys to find the proper one to open the door. A little sigh escaped her and she smiled. She wasn’t sure if Vaughn would be inside or if he was going to come by later. It was a mystery lately if she was going to end up seeing him immediately or later but it seemed that they had been seeing more and more of each other than ever before. It was everything she had wanted the first time around and it seemed as if they had picked right back up where they left off. With barely a hitch they were back on their path and exploring where their lives would take them. Gina put her purse and keys down on the table inside the door and she nudged the door closed behind her with her hip, relocking it before she finally stepped further into the apartment. “Vaughn… Are you here?” There was an inquisitive tone to her voice as she stepped into the living room and looked around. Not seeing him right away made her assume he wasn’t there, and he very well could have not been there but that hadn’t stopped her from hoping to see him sitting on the couch watching television and waiting for her.